i can’t draw my majority southeast asian cast without people being angry my characters aren’t the ethnicity they wanted them to be instead. i have very little art up and they get upset when they don’t see what they want in there. 196 countries and 16 OCs means i can’t please everyone…
and i can’t draw fan art without it being reposted left and right. when i ask them to take it down i get screamed at.
people are saying i “probably hit my girlfriend” because my “typing sounds so serious.” i have aspergers and that’s why my typing is so straightforward… my family isn’t doing very well at the moment, i have a lot on my plate in terms of pressure, and people disrespecting my art is just adding to that.
drawing is making me miserable now. i wanted to just post OCs instead, but i even have people mad at me for that because they’re not what they want them to be. i’m not posting the art i draw for a while. sorry…
a lot of unpleasant things happened during high school partly due to environment and partly due to Guys but i mostly didn’t recognize how messed up they were at the time and then after high school i for the most part just tried my hardest not to think about them so i’ve processed almost none of them so whenever i start talking about high school an enormous surge of angry words pour out of me and it’s terrible probably
finn: finds the strength to escape from the people who manipulated and abused him since his childhood, immediately befriends both rey and poe and shows selfless concern for rey’s wellbeing on multiple occasions, begs rey to run away with him after knowing her for a day or less, runs across a battlefield to try and save rey from being captured by his abusers, runs to embrace poe upon discovering he’s alive, lies his way on to starkiller base (returning to the people who manipulated and abused him since his childhood) to rescue rey, gives rey his jacket to keep her from being too cold, plants himself between rey and kylo ren to protect her despite having no training with a lightsaber and knowing he could be killed
I think one of the things that white feminism / terf feminism misses completely about WOC is that there is a difference between being sexualized and being found attractive and how that affects women of color as a result.
White women in the media are both sexualized and viewed as ideal and conventionally attractive, white women tend to take a position that pushes back on all forms of the male gaze which includes both sexualization, and being viewed as conventionally attractive.
Which is fine because of their dominant position as the apple of men’s eye they’re never going to doubt themselves as the most attractive species (even when it’s unwanted and generally unfavorable, and comes with a strict set of rules and beauty standards, because even if a white girl feels ugly, internal racism is still going to make her value herself higher than brown girls) but generally when white women reject beauty standards, they have enough support that it doesn’t adversely affect their mental well-being.
Now onto WOC. The system is completely different, woc are considered play things and sexual objects in a way that is unparalleled by their white counterparts. White women don’t /want/ to feel beautiful woc never /got/ to. And that matters, in a world where beauty, especially for women, determines worth, when women of color were never considered beautiful in the first place, their self worth is nonexistent.
So when woc say things like “I want to feel beautiful” a lot of white women mistake that for “I want to look good for men” which can be true if you’re white (even though everyone should be allowed to feel attractive in whatever way they want)
But with women of color the meaning shifts to more like “I want to feel like I have value, I want to feel loved and respected and to be attractive. Eurocentric beauty standards have never fit me, and with those being all the media I ever consumed, they’ve cemented themselves in my brain, I deserve to be desirable in a non inherently sexual way.”
And white women literally can’t empathize with this, which is okay! But there has to be an understanding that feminism isn’t one size fits all in which white women are the proxy.