What is their favorite feature of their partner’s?
James likes Jean’s eyes–alternatively compassionate and tumultuous. The way they sometimes twinkle in the light. The way they simultaneously hold in them order and chaos. The way they perfectly embody the meticulously ordered disorder that is Jean Innocent.
Jean likes James’s smile–that enormous, radiant Hathaway smile that is extremely rare. She always feels privileged and astonished whenever she is able to bring it out.
What’s the first thing that changes when they realize they have feelings for the other?
Jean scarcely allows herself to recognize these feelings for what they are. She convinces himself that any special regard she may feel for him is solely due to his considerable abilities as an officer–and due to the fact that he was one of her few initial allies during her first months in Oxford. She rationalizes and represses everything so well that she’s scarcely aware of them at all. That all changes, the moment their lips meet for the first time, and she’s aware of a passion she thought had abandoned her alongside her husband.
James can scarcely remember a time when he wasn’t a little in love with Jean Innocent, but the feelings have frequently changed in their intensity, frequency, and orientation. And as the feelings have changed, faded, and resurfaced with a vengeance, he’s changed with them.
Within a month of Innocent coming to Oxford, Hathaway was in full on “puppy love” mode over this smart, pretty, capable woman–who unlike DI Knox–was actually interested in what Hathaway thought and felt.
The schoolboy crush gradually fades away, and he’s all-but-forgotten about it. He stops seeing her through rose-tinted glasses and recognizes her faults–her obstinacy, her irrationality, her cool business head. Eventually, this causes his attraction take one a more…physical aspect (His earlier crush had remained primarily on a purer, non-carnal plane). The passionate, hot anger he sometimes feels towards her after a professional disagreement starts manifesting itself in shockingly erotic dream re-creations of their encounters. With his seminary days still ingrained in him, he feels a real sense of guilt about these fantasies–whether involuntary or not–particularly as they are centered around someone for whom he has a great deal of respect.
After the initial puppy-love phase and subsequent intense lust phase gradually fade, things go largely back to normal. He’s become much more comfortable with her–even developing the same gently-teasing, casually-flirtatious repartee with Jean that he’s also developed with Laura. In-between other romantic entanglements, Hathaway does experience occasional flare-ups of romantic and/or sexual feelings toward Innocent, particularly after the infrequent, unexpected erotic dream.
It’s not until he comes back from Spain that his feelings really hit him. She’d been in his thoughts in a general, friendly sort of way, and he’s been looking forward to seeing her–though apprehensive about going back to work. But when he sees, he’s somehow aware that everything’s different–even if he doesn’t entirely recognize what’s going on right away.
Who says I love you first?
James. He carefully plans and practices what to say and how to say it. He wants it to be eloquent and romantic, but when the time comes for him to say it, everything comes out as haltingly and awkward. Little does he realize that this stumbling over his thoughts and feelings just comes across as more genuine and therefore more romantic than his grand plans would have.
Jean isn’t quite ready to say it back to him , and part of her wonders if she ever will–if the divorce has permanently robbed her of certainty in matters of her heart. But she definitely appreciates hearing James say it, and she makes sure that he knows how much she appreciates hearing it (if you know what I mean).
I’m in the process of recapping S1 of Lewis so that I can get back to my crappy graphics making, but when I accidentally took this, I knew I needed to write some sort of meta/word-vomit about it.
Though the resolution/quality is less than ideal (which makes sad since I probably won’t be able to use it for graphics), this cap nevertheless encapsulates so very many of my Hathaway/Innocent feelings.
Although Jean is unfortunately quite blurred in this image in a way that jeopardizes photoshopping attempts, there are some very interesting interpretions that are created by this blur. For one thing, Jean is in the foreground of the image, just as supposedly she is the “face” and head of the station. But she appears at first glance to be a “blank face,” attempting to conceal/minimize her own personal complexities partly to maintain the “professional exterior” she feels the job demands and partly because she is somewhat ashamed of her own insecurities and vulnerabilities.
And yet, the one thing that the blurring cannot obscure is the look of quiet desolation on her face which is unfortunately far too common in Jean Innocent screencaps. I’ve said before that I think Jean is actually the loneliest character on the show. Though her sorrow may not be as demonstrative as Robbie’s or James’s, it is far more constant and never directly acknowledged (in canon by the writers at least) by either Jean herself or the other characters, which means that she’s never fully able to heal from it.
And yet, she does not have to. (Or at least, she wouldn’t if the writers’ would actually pay attention to the subtle-emotional-complexity-that-Rebecca-has-given-Jean-without-any-prompting instead of just using her as the exposition foil) Look at the way that Hathaway sees her–Hathaway who probably has much more in common with Innocent than any of the other characters. Hathaway–who like Innocent–vainly attempts to repress his own sorrows and insecurities but will never be able to successfully manage it.
I would argue that in this cap Hathaway looks at Innocent like someone who desperately wants to know her and who at some level already knows her far more deeply than anyone else can, due to their shared repressed desolation. There could be (and perhaps is) a real genuine understanding between them that would serve as consolation for them both.
And yet… we cannot ignore the fact that James is looking at Jean this way, specifically while her back is turned and while Robbie’s attention is diverted elsewhere. This suggests that James still feels more-than-a-little -terrified at the prospect of actually interacting with Innocent at the intimate, emotional level at which he wants. This is not all-together surprising, considering the professional boundaries between them as well James’s crippling insecurity.
But there may be another factor involved–look at the way the blurring makes Jean seem to glow, whereas James remains in stark focus. It makes Jean look almost angelic–beautiful and untouchable, whereas –to James at least–all of his imperfections are out in the open, in his mind–an obvious detractor to anyone would try to get close to him.
So, I really did agonize over whether or not to make this post. I’m not really one to share my opinions on the internet. If I don’t like something, I ignore it, vent privately in my head or tell one of the few people I know will not judge me for it. (You should see the size of my blacklist :O) But despite this I just have to comment on the recent amount of disdain (at best)/ vitriol (at worst) that I have recently seen directed at the rise of Hathaway/Innocent shipping.
Maybe it’s because Jean Innocent is one of my two favorite fictional characters of all time and any thing that even remotely resembles dislike of any kind makes me uber-defensive of her. Maybe I worry that this tendency could transform the already considerable neglect that Jean gets from the fandom into outright dislike and character bashing. Maybe it’s because I ship these two harder than I’ve ever shipped or thought I would ever ship anything. Maybe it’s because I’ve repressed and meticulously concealed most of my shipping feelings for at least three years, because I’d convinced myself that I would be forever alone with my shipping feelings and I was terrified at the thought of offending someone else with my delusional opinions. Maybe it’s because the rise in J/J shipping (as admittedly sub-par as most of the fic is) is what ultimately gave me the courage to publically admit that I shipped it and feel comfortable identifying myself as a shipper without the accompanying sensations of guilt at my “delusion,” my “bizarreness”–my “secret sin” even. Maybe it’s because I fear that I don’t address this now as calmly and rationally as I can, things will get even uglier and it will get to the point where Lewis no longer feels like my “home” fandom.
Solidarity (Hathaway & Innocent friendship; Lewis & Hathaway friendship)— “In the end, we will remember—not the words of our enemies—but the silences of our friends”(warning for: character on deathbed)
The Letter (gen/friendship)— Drabble of Hathaway’s important meeting with Innocent. (Warnings: “Intelligent Design” Part 2 spoilers)
An Innocent Misunderstanding (Lewis/Hobson with Hathaway/Innocent friendship and shippy subtext)—James thinks that he’s found the perfect way to get Robbie and Laura together. Jean is skeptical, but she agrees to play along. And thus begins the most unorthodox match-making scheme in the history of Oxford. (Warning for: noncanon compliant, some sexual references, debatably OOC and a little cracktackular ( I wrote it so I can freely admit it))
Mistakes — (Hathaway/Innocent; onesided Jean/Mr Innocent)—”She’d made several seemingly small mistakes, each of which had inevitably led her to make the coup de grâce of mistakes.” (Warning for: Implied, non-graphic adulterous encounter)
Something in Common (gen with background Lewis/Hobson and Innocent & Hathaway friendship)—Innocent feels that she doesn’t really have anything outside of work.She is more than happy to be proved wrong.(warnings: The Ramblin’ Boy Part 2 spoilers)
Letting Go (gen with implied Lewis/Hobson and slight Hathaway/Innocent subtext)When Lewis and Hathaway are assigned a missing person case, they also disappear. But it’s too soon to formally involve the police, so Innocent and Hobson have to take up the search. (Warnings: Mild violence and language)
Good Result? (Hathaway/Innocent)—Innocent must determine whether a reckless decision made under the influence of loneliness and alcohol was-in fact-the right one. (Warning for: Implied Sexuality)
Questions Without Answers(Unspoken and/or Onesided Hathaway/Innocent)—He keeps asking himself the questions, though he’s sure he’ll never find the answers.(Warnings: mild sexual references).
In Mind’s Eye (Hathaway/Innocent)–Hathaway thinks some rather creative ways for Innocent to use his neckties.(Warning for: sexual content and mild BDSM.)
The Meeting (Hathaway/Innocent)—James Hathaway goes to discuss his future with DCS Innocent but the meeting doesn’t go according to plan. (Warning: sexual content and spoilers for “Intelligent Design”)
An Ordered Disorder (Hathaway/Innocent)– He had almost forgotten how therapeutic it was to cling and be clung to. There was a curious and mutual strength that came from a shared sense of vulnerability, a clearness of head and heart that was the result of laying each bare before someone who listened and would care. And now they must say goodbye to “Jean” and “James” before they’d even properly said hello. (Warning for: Implied sexuality and “Allegory of Love” spoilers)