Yo! So it’s been a while. And I keep meaning to update you guys via this blog but I never do. I always forget that it’s here tbh and so I don’t post as much as I’d like to, all I do it reblog Sebaciel/Kuroshitsuji posts that come across my dash.
Anyway, that’s not what I’m here to talk about. I’m making this post to address the fact that TTEOE hasn’t been updated since March 25th. That’s almost four months. And, on the 29th of this month, it will be the one year anniversary of when I posted the first chapter. As it stands, the fic is ~76 thousand words long, and I still have two chapters to post and then the short epilogue (which has already been written, it was the first thing I wrote back when I started working on the story in the spring of 2014). So, chapters 10 and 11 and 12 (the epilogue) are all that remains. And it’s been almost four months.
I have not forgotten about this story. But a lot has happened in my personal life this year, emotionally and psychologically speaking. We’re talking majot relationships changing/ending badly, my mental illnesses becoming more severe than they ever have been, as well as my physical health not being the greatest (I talked in the author’s notes about having mono in September, and that takes a long time to fully recover from, even when the worst of the symptoms go away). As well as all of that, this fic is the longest thing I have ever written. I knew this would be a big project when I started, but I had estimated it would be 50-65k rather than 85-90k, which is now what I’m fairly certain it will be once it’s done.
The truth is, such a massive undertaking has completely burnt me out in terms of focusing on this story and Sebaciel/Kuroshitsuji in general. I didn’t realise I needed a break until I was elbow-deep in other stories/assignments (like a big bang I’m doing which has a real deadline in about six weeks). It made me realise that writing TTEOE had become a chore rather than a joy, and I didn’t want to give you guys an ending that was ground out between my teeth, because it would be half-assed and underwhelming and not at all what you lovely, supportive, wonderful people deserve, and not something I could be proud of. I still need some time to get back into the swing of things in terms of writing Ciel and Sebastian again, but I have not given up, and I will return. It just won’t be for a while- most likely not until September.
I just want to stress how sorry I am for making you wait, if any of you have been wondering/frustrated at all, I don’t want to presume but I know how much some of you have enjoyed this story. I just wanted to say I love you guys, you’re the reason I haven’t completely given up on this story. So thank-you, and keep being amazing. I promise I will do my damndest to make it worth your while.
TL;DR - A lot of shit has gone down and I’ve been overwhelmed and burnt out, but I haven’t forgotten about this story and I’ll be back in the fall. You guys are my motivation and I promise I’ll try and make it up to you.
Some dude is saying he has my nudes and a bunch of nudes from other tumblr guys and is looking to trade them… I’m guessing he’s already been posting what he has elsewhere too. Like, that’s so fucked up. The worst part is I’ll never know who because they’re anonymously posting to a chat forum on a site based off that kind of shit. I hate people so much sometimes.
i love how this fandom continues to want to erase Carol from the Daryl narrative at all costs
Rick flashbacks of Michonne: ohmygod they are so in love. their love is so pure (it is!)
Glenn flashbacks of Maggie: ohmygod they are so in love. their love is so pure (it is!)
people in relationships flashbacks of significant others: aww. so much love!
Daryl flashbacks of Carol: well you see it’s not really about carol as a person. carol’s face is there but it’s not about her. it’s about the cherokee rose, the symbol of hope. daryl carrying carol like her own personal knight in shining armor that basically means daryl is very protective of everyone in the group. daryl’s flashbacks are just all very symbolic because obviously carol means as much to daryl as everyone else - rick, glenn, abe, eugene, goat tabitha and one of them cows - but he only saw her face because carol is a symbol of everyone else.
haha. carol and daryl might never be canon. but fandom’s hypocrisy is.
the truth is daryl loves carol (whatever type of love!) and he thought of special moments he shared with her. moments when the need to comfort and protect her were more important. her. carol. she’s not an object or symbol. she’s a person in daryl’s world.