sometimes it like… dawns on me that emmerdale made a legacy character, a sugden, lgbt. like, they did that. a member of the family with one of the longest and richest soap historys ever is bi and it makes my heart so happy
i think i must have a morbid obsession with sadness–how else could i be so thoroughly, helplessly depressed? how else could i be so consumed by self-hatred and anxiety if i weren’t really trying at it? i think i must be doing this to myself, mentally coaxing myself into thinking about killing myself constantly. i wonder, could i stop the thoughts if i really tried?
could i stop the thoughts? could i stop the thoughts? could i stop the thoughts? i try so goddamn hard
for some reason my brain doesn’t work right. it scares me because i have traced so many of my horrendous mental quirks back to their sources, but some don’t quite have an end. and i’m not quite sure if i want them to, but it’s still disquieting to look back at your childhood as if it were a couple blurry photographs. most of it is not there and what is there is… hazy, if not questionable
it makes it feel unreal
almost like it didn’t happen and it’s just a story i made up in my head
i feel crazy
i don’t feel real
i’m tired of feeling pain every day
hey there! I was wondering, do you know anything about kuhli loaches? Like what tank size they require and how they should be kept? I've been scouring the internet for information but for some reason, it's not giving me much...
I’ve never kept kuhli loaches so all I know is what i’ve seen/heard from other people. all of this is based on Pangio kuhlii and not one of the larger relatives btw
They like to school/shoal(?) so you’d need to have a tank large enough to fit at least 6 of them (preferably more if possible)
they would need a heated tank. probably something in the high 70s to low 80s (in F) (check for exact temps tho… idk them off the top of my head) I think they also like water to be a little acidic like 6-6.5ish (also check this, again, i’ve never actually kept these guys)
They would also probably appreciate some shady places to rest and hide. maybe some pieces of driftwood they could go under or something.
You would want a sand substrate instead of gravel. Lots of bottom feeders have sensitive barbels and appreciate a sand substrate to dig around in. You would also get to see some cute foraging and digging behaviors if you have some fine sand!
As far as tank size goes… probably at least a 20 gallon. 20 long would be better because it has a larger footprint and more room for the noodles to forage on the bottom.
My followers and other people on fishblr might also help out so check the reblogs and comments on this for more info!
sorry this took so long to answer! I don’t get notifications for asks for some reason so I actually have no idea how long i’ve had this in here…. :<
i love snakes but i hate orochimaru. i wish people could have snake summons without being connected to him in any way. (i’m glad sasuke switched to hawks, though; i love the uchiha + birds connection.)
Saying “Gender is fake so how are people trans?” is like saying “Money is fake so how are people poor?” Like as much as we facetiously say gender is fake, “social construct” is not synonymous with “fake”
EDIT: ok this post was really vague bc I was a little inebriated when I made it. It’s not a strawman. I saw someone I’m following get an anon from a TERF that said “Gender is fake so how are people trans?” verbatim. So I immediately thought about how gender is a social construct and so is money, and the rest was history…
disclaimer: I am not trans so I don’t speak from experience here. This post was not meant to delegitimize trans ppls experiences or worldviews. It was just an observation that I didn’t expect to get notes
Hi, I’m REALLY mad right now at this stupid website so please bear with me.
A certain artist (based in the Philippines might I add) recently made a J.CO (Indonesian donut restaurant chain) gijinka recently, and people accused them of whitewashing their gijinka because the character’s skin was too bright.
I, as an Indonesian, am seriously offended.
Not by the gijinka,
but by the masses of people who are being offended ON MY BEHALF FOR THE WRONG REASONS.
The most insulting thing about this whole situation is that this website fucking auto-assumes that all brightly colored characters have been whitewashed and that this is always a bad thing and racist because of how things are in the West.
Indonesia is not the United States. Indonesia is not a country in Europe. Indonesia is a multicultural society in Asia made up mostly of Southeast Asians, Melanesians, and East Asians. You can NOT apply the same exact sensitivities and narrative to Indonesia as you can in the West.
…Let me give you a quick rundown:
Racism in Indonesia is not always about about a white skinned race oppressing a darker skinned race. If anything, it’s more to do with Xenophobia and Religion.
Following up on that, here’s the shocker: The DISCRIMINATED MINORITYin Indonesia has a lighter skin color than the PRIVILEGED MAJORITY.
East Asians, mostly Chinese, who generally have brighter skin tones than your regular Southeast Asian person, are regular targets of hate speech, discrimination, racism, and even a 1998 genocide that still strikes fear and opens up old wounds in their hearts upon mention.
PLEASE GET THAT INTO YOUR DENSE SKULL.
Indonesia has serious racial problems, but you can NOT automatically assume everything as from a western country perspective.
To do so is seriously, seriously racist.
The intention was “right” from your perspective, but please. Do your research, and don’t automatically always assume that light skin is whitewashing. You’re touching on a VERY sensitive and often radically different subject depending on which nation you are talking about.
It’s INSULTING to your fellow PoCs.
I feel insulted. I feel like this website just made a unanimous decision for me because I’m either too “uneducated” “uninformed”, “tolerant” or WHATEVER the fuck you think of Indonesians to feel offended for myself. This website made me think that the Indonesian restaurant chain CAN ONLY be run by Southeast Asians when there are hundreds, if not thousands of East Asian J.CO employees whose lives and stories, and struggle against discrimination you’ve just invalidated just because of your westernized view of racism.
AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF, THE ARTIST YOU’RE MAD AT IS A PoC FROM THE SAME REGION AS INDONESIA THEMSELVES, (the Philippines) AN ARTIST WHO HAD NO INTENTION OF WHITEWASHING. WHO JUST SAW REALLY NICE COLORS THAT WORKED AND THOUGHT IT WAS COOL. WHO KNOWS FULL WELL THE STRUGGLE SOUTHEAST ASIA HAS HAD AGAINST EUROPE IN THE COLONIAL PERIOD.
IT’S AS IF YOU’RE TRYING TO LECTURE A VICTIM ON WHY THEY SHOULD FEEL VICTIMIZED INSTEAD OF UNDERSTANDING OUR STORY. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU, TUMBLR.
Take creators stepping in and dismissing fan theories and interpretations of their works with a grain of salt. This is a lesson I learned early, from Anne “my vampires aren’t gay and also I might sue you” Rice.
During the peak of my Vampire Chronicles love, I – at that time, a very petty fifteen-year-old – set out to underline every single really queer moment in the whole series. Spite aside, I quickly realized that in a series where the protagonist runs away to Paris with clearly his violinist boyfriend, and convinces his next super angsty obviously boyfriend to MAKE A VAMPIRE CHILD WITH HIM to keep said angsty boyfriend from leaving, this was easier said than done.
I mean, she’s not fully wrong – Lestat’s not gay, he’s very bisexual. Louis and Nicki are both hella gay, though.
Anyway, I’ve meandered. The point is – creators can say wildly inaccurate things about their works sometimes. Anne Rice went Christian and didn’t want her books to be SUPER FUCKING QUEER anymore. Creators’ views on what they’ve made can change over the years. You never fucking know.