hart middle school


*wipes sweat and tears off my tablet* what do you mean that isn’t even all of them?

I edited out most of the conversation around this moment from Girl Meets World, but let’s talk about my love of Maya Hart, our 2014 new-era Shawn Hunter. Her dad is not around. Her mother is a wannabe actress who spends her time waitressing in an outfit out of Two Broke Girls. She has a dry sense of humor and a talent for art.

And she has no self-esteem.

I hate to point to this as the moment I fell in love with Maya Hart, because I did like her from the beginning, but in this dumb episode where she failed a test and decided to drop out of school because why bother, she made me cry (which is of course the surest way to make me love you). On the surface this is about tests, about intelligence. But this is really about knowing you’re a wreck and being afraid to let people love you. Maya’s got no faith in herself even as she wants more, and her fear is that if other people wise up–if everyone else sees what she sees when she looks in the mirror–she won’t have anyone anymore. She already doesn’t deserve them, so if they realize that, she’ll lose them.

It’s heavy stuff for a show set in middle school, yes, but it’s absolutely heartbreaking to hear something you’ve felt for a majority of your life come from the mouth of a seventh-grader.

But she says it. Because she’s got to take the chance people will love her even if they find out she’s (in her own mind) a risk not worth taking.

So even though I’ve always liked Maya Hart–this is the moment I wanted to hold her close and tell her all the ways she’s special and wonderful and worth it. How can you not love her? She’s Shawn Hunter but better.