I’d never taken a drug before Gummo, but as soon as that was over I started flirting with heroin, because making films was all I ever wanted, and once that was done I was just bored. And my problems, my violence, they all stem from boredom, and when I did that drug it was the first time I could just sit and feel blissful, you know? But in the end it’s a lie. So I went back to the anger. And I’m comfortable knowing that without the work I’d kill myself, because I feel like I’m here for one reason, and that’s to create.