harm yourself

oh my god i’m googling and people are saying stuff like “eating junk food is better than eating nothing”

[You’re seriously asking if it’s better to starve than to eat fast food? On what planet is that even a question?Any food is better than starvation. And any food, including fast food, can be part of a healthy diet. Whoever told you that fast food was eeeeevil should be ignored from now on.]

I DON’T GET IT. 

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ATTENTION!!

There’s this huge problem spreading across amino, and possibly other social media platforms, and it would be horrible to have this happen to anybody else.

There is this horrible thing going around popular aminos called ‘The Blue Whale Challenge’, which is an app that has a link to it. If you do get a link to it from ANYBODY, I advise to immediately block them, and report them.

This 50 day challenge, also known as ‘The Blue Whale Game’ is reported to have you do various things to harm yourself, or put yourself in immediate danger. These things include cutting yourself in various ways, (cutting into major veins, carving symbols into your body, generally harming yourself, etc.) going on top of buildings and standing close to the edge, attempting to climb a crane, talking to others suffering the same ordeal, etc.

On the 50th day, they tell you to take your life. Jump from a building. Do not do any of this, EVER. There are people that care for you, and there would be people that would miss you horribly. Call the suicide hotline. Get help. Please, stay safe. Do not do this to yourself.

If you download this app, they hack into your electronic device and find all of your personal information, and make it so that you can’t remove or delete the app. They will use whatever they can get against you. Your credit card, tell you that they will hunt down your loved ones and kill them, anything. The person that created this game may have been arrested, but there are people still sending the links for this game.

Please, spread awareness about this problem so we can stop it before it starts. Stay safe, because I care. There are others that do too. Please, once again, stay safe, and do not download this app, or joke about it in any way.

Important info on dear Evan Hansen

Harmful method acting does not = success. Just bc Platt harmed himself (is emotionally drained and in physical therapy) for his role does not mean he is obligated to get a tony. No one owes you or him anything bc of his harming himself. Injuring yourself for art is not admirable and it is not a good show of dedication. I love ben Platt and I love DEH I saw it live last month and it was amazing I sobbed and smiled and I felt understood. Platt deserves a tony for the emotion he put in the role, for his singing talent. He is so much better than expecting praise for his injury. Christian Borle didn’t deserve praise for his unhealthy weight loss in AIA. NPH didn’t deserve praise for an onstage injury almost every nigh in HATI. Someone deserves praise for being in a taxing role and still practicing self care. Andrew Rannells, didn’t pick up ONE unhealthy habit in Falsettos he didn’t force himself to lose weight to look sick, he healthily dealt with the emotions the show made him feel. Anthony Rosenthal a 12-13 yr old kid deserves praise for practicing self care in the very same show with such heavy content that I wouldn’t be able to handle when I was his age. Lena Hall deserves praise for taking care of her voice through all her demanding roles. People looking to get onto Broadway; HARMFUL HABITS TO YOUR BODY DO NOT MAKE YOU MORE CREDITED AS AN ACTOR OR MORE DEDICATED TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF SHOWS DEDICATION.

And I’m not saying Ben is bad for picking up these habits sometimes it’s inevitable and he’s dealing with it very well though he deserves a week off soon in my opinion. All I’m saying is people need to stop praising this and saying he deserves a tony because of it. He doesn’t. He deserves it for the same reason everyone else does he’s talented, he lives in his role he’s trying to change the bad habits and injuries he picked up that = GOOD. Don’t allow young theater people to think you have to do this sort of thing to get recognition for your talent

i need to be honest here (factkin/otherkin/fictionkin)

Just learned about this whole “factkin” thing and very disturbed. This whole “factkin” thing is not a healthy coping mechanism for what you may have to deal with - you do not know this person you are identifying as. You are going off of how they present themselves to the public, which is oftentimes entirely different from how they genuinely are as people. You are not this person, and you will never be this person, no matter how much you claim to identify with them - especially if they currently exist. You are stealing their identity and parading yourself around as that person. That is not okay. You need to find new coping mechanisms that are not unhealthy or dangerous to yourself or to anyone else.

While I’m at it, I can say the same for the few otherkin who take it too far (eating dog food/raw meat, trying to “photosynthesize,” staying underwater for excessive periods of time, trying to eat diamonds, getting high in attempt to feel “astral limbs,” etc.) Identifying strongly with something non-human is one thing, but treating your physical human body as if you are actually that thing is not healthy, and you could very well die. If you genuinely believe that things like that are good for you, please seek help. While it may make you feel good mentally, physically it can destroy you. You have a human body. You can’t treat a human body as you would treat a dog’s body. Two different kinds of bodies, two different needs.

One more thing - while fictionkin does not seem inherently dangerous, the same pretty much goes. Whatever your kintype may be, your body is human and you need to treat it as such.

Sometimes I feel like tumblr is just a giant contest for who can be the biggest special snowflake.

You are a human being. You are your own person.

Please take care of yourself.

Extended Hiatus

Hey guys. Sorry guys. It looks like I’ll be pausing production even further.

Last Saturday, the 6th, my little brother committed suicide. My family and I are grieving. He loved Undertale, so even looking at this place hurts me.

If you are hurting or depressed or even considering the idea of killing or harming yourself, PLEASE reach out for help. There is no shame in doing so.

Your hurting can heal. Ending your pain by killing yourself only gives people like me a wound that will never, ever, ever heal.

hey @ cis anti sjws here’s your reminder that the following things make you a gross transphobe who’s actively harming trans people

  • calling yourself a truscum or a transmedicalist
  • telling people that they aren’t trans because they mention not having dysphoria, since most people who say they’re non-dysphoric actually do suffer from dysphoria; just misunderstand the word’s meaning

  • saying nonbinary people don’t exist

  • genuinley just getting involved in most trans-related politics that isn’t support us

  • because like it doesn’t effect you lol go back to your boring anti sjw lives

  • go laugh at triggered feminist kek xd compilations on youtube or something leave us alone bc trans people dont affect ur life at all cissie bye bye
The Blue Whale Game.

Trigger Warning: Suicide. Also, don’t read this if you’re easily paranoid. But please don’t download any strange links or apps from people you don’t know, close your DM’s and stay safe. Please. 

So apparently there’s this new game going around called ‘Blue Whale’. It’s basically this group of people aiming at bringing up suicide rates in several places, with a game. They give you 50 days. 50 days to end your life.  50 days and 50 challenges that lead up to your ultimate suicide. 

They start off by looking for vulnerable accounts. They’ll ask you to download an app from the internet, and you can never delete the app. And since it’s from the internet, they hack your phone and have all of your information. Then they ask you do to the 50 challenges. The challenges go from cutting and self-harm to even stabbing yourself and jumping off of buildings. You have to send a picture after every task, and if you don’t do the task, they threaten to find you and do things as far as killing your family, or whatever they can with the information they have of you. 

This started in Russia and has spread to several other countries such as the United Kingdom. Over 150 teenagers have died from this and it’s absolutely disgusting and inhumane. Please believe this, it isn’t fake. It’s real and all over the media. Look it up if you’d like. So please, if someone who you don’t know sends you something suspicious like a link or an app, don’t download it. Do not trust them. Please. Stay safe and be careful. You can’t go back once you download the app. I love you all and I want you to be safe. Please share this with whomever you can, and tell your friends and/or family to be safe! 

My Method for Contacting Pop-Culture Spirits

As the title says, this is simply how I go about contacting pop-culture spirits. This isn’t the only way to meet them and there’s definitely easier, safer, and more efficient ways to do this.

Intro

Many people might not believe that pop-culture characters can become spirits but I’m of the opinion that anything can have a spirit, no matter its origins nor form. All it takes is belief and energy. It is my UPG that pop-culture spirits (PC spirits) are formed by the energy that humans put into them when consuming the media that they are a part of. All of the fanart, fanfiction, and even just conversing or thinking about them lends them the power that they need to form into egregores. Extremely popular characters like Pikachu or Mario can become extremely powerful egregores and even godforms.

Since a lot of their energy comes from multiple sources they are influenced by a lot of people's’ perceptions of them. That is to say that it is very possible for two people to meet the same PC character spirit but have them behave differently. Sometimes they’ll act a bit differently or even contradict their canon personality if the belief in them being different is strong enough. For example, Flandre Scarlet from Touhou has two major personalities that the fandom has flanderized her as ascribed to her: excitable child who can’t control her powers or sadistic murderer. If one were to call the PC spirit of Flandre while being of the belief that she is Flandre the murderer, then most likely they’ll meet the aspect of the PC spirit that has the qualities of the murderer. Likewise, if someone believed that she is Flandre the child then they are more likely to meet the aspect of her PC spirit that is Flandre the child.

I’m not 100% sure why this can happen but I think it’s because of belief and subconscious…things. Belief is the basis for a lot of magical paths and that applies to spirit work too. One’s belief of how a spirit “should” behave will influence how they behave, especially with PC spirits which are easily molded by human belief due to their nature. So when a lot of people believe that a PC spirit should behave a certain way due to their canon or popular fanon interpretations, then the spirit will more likely conform to those beliefs. Even if one doesn’t fully believe in one interpretation of the character, if they know of and have that interpretation in the back of their mind when meeting the PC spirit, then it’s possible that their subconscious will influence how the spirit appears.

If you want to meet a PC spirit that isn’t influenced by your preconceived notions then you’ll need to learn how to cut out all of your mental noise. It’s not an easy task and it isn’t even necessary. Your influence on how the spirit behaves isn’t a bad thing and even if you were to stop your influence, everyone else’s beliefs are still exerting on the spirit. Unless you have a specific goal in mind when working with the spirit then you really don’t need to worry about your influence on them. Especially because, even though I just spent the last few paragraphs talking about the contrary, the spirit will most likely behave as their canon/lore dictates as your belief in a different behavior isn’t strong enough to override that.

Since I haven’t seen too much info about pop-culture spirits out there, I wanted to discuss these experiences that I’ve had. But, basically, just keep an open mind on how the spirit will behave if you don’t want to influence them too much with your preconceived notions. And if you don’t agree with any of this then feel free to ignore everything I just said! These are just my beliefs after all.    

For this post I will outline my procedure for contacting any pop-culture spirit while also provided a specific example in italics of me using this method to contact a PC spirit of one of my favorite pokemon, scolipede. This is so that it may be easier for someone to follow the procedure.

Safety

Despite being human made, PC spirits can pose a threat to your well being just like all spirits. Some safety basics are: be able to ward, banish, and cleanse and don’t call characters who are dangerous according to lore if you don’t think you’ll be able to handle them. Just like when calling local spirits into your home, I would recommend constructing a circle to help protect yourself from harm. You can read more about the basics of circle-making on that post [link].

Another thing is that if you want to add more punch to your banishing, use banishing materials that you know the character doesn’t like. For example, if the character doesn’t like bread, get a bag of bread and throw it at them if you need to banish them. A comical example, yes, but the concept is still something that should be considered when making banishing tools.

Malignant spirits can also have a field day with impersonating PC spirits. We’re much more inclined to trust a character spirit than some random spirit, especially if that character is a hero or cute. Be real, how many of you would be suspicious of an adorable pikachu spirit that showed up in your house one day? Well now I’m telling you to be suspicious until you are able to discern whether or not the spirit is actually what it appears as. When doing the call, you can prevent any malignant spirits from sneaking in by having the room that you’re working in warded. Of course, it should always be warded if you’re planning on doing spirit work, I’m just telling you one of the reasons “why” that is so. A sneaky spirit might still be able to hijack the call and impersonate the character so just keep on your toes.

For safety, I read up on scolipede’s canon info so that I am acutely informed about the spirit before calling it. I then use energy work to check the stability of my wards, making sure that everything is active and that there are no weak or damaged parts. The energy barrier on my window is cracked so I patch with new energy (more specifically, I put etheric duct tape over the cracks xP). If I were in a house rather than a dorm room, I would reinforce the wards with protections that don’t allow any spirit that I call to access the rest of the house. This would be helpful if the spirit turns malicious for their range and any damage that they do would be concentrated to only one room.

Materials

An image, symbol, or sigil representing the entity that you wish to call. It’d be best to use an official image rather than fanwork or personal drawings but you can still use those if you have to. You can also write their name out if you lack the ability to print or draw. You could even bring up the image on your phone or computer but this runs into the problem of there being a lot of “background noise” that might make it harder to connect with them. Also you will need to make sure that your device does not shut off in the middle of the evocation. You can cleanse the image if you want to remove anything that’s not the character that might be attached to it.

An offering for the entity. Depending on who you call, they might not want an offering but I think it’s best to be prepared just in case. Generic offerings like water, food, or incense would most likely work but if you know of anything that the character likes, such as a particular kind of food or something to do with their favorite color or whatever, then that would be better! Obviously avoid giving them anything that you know that they won’t like. Offerings can also be things like fanart, fanfiction, or even just playing their theme song if they have one! Indulging in their media makes them more powerful after all.

Banishing tools that you are prepared to use if the spirit becomes hostile, any materials that you use for your circle, and any tools that you need for communication.

For my materials I use an official image of scolipede that I bring up on my phone. I change my phone’s settings so that it will give me enough time to talk with the spirit before going to sleep. I use my lily-of-the-valley as my offering for it is poisonous and I believe that the poison-type scolipede would be able to draw power from it. For banishing equipment, I keep flying devil oil and fire salts on hand. Scolipede is weak to fire-type moves so I think fire-based tools would be effective in banishing if something goes wrong. I do not use any objects or tools for my circle or for communication because I personally don’t need them.  

The Procedure

1) Set up your preparations. Place the image and offering next to each other and in front of you. Construct your circle so that both things are outside of it. Have your banishing and communication tools in the circle with you.

2) Focus on the image and say the call. The call can really be anything you want but here’s a basic template that I use:

“I call to [Character’s Name], [Character’s Title (Optional)] of [Story’s setting/Character’s birthplace (optional)] from [Name of work]. I invite you to come talk to me and so that I may give you [Offering].

That’s a bit cluttered so here’s some filled in examples:

“I call to Mudkip, the Mud Fish Pokemon of the Hoenn region from Pokemon. I invite you to come talk to me and so that I may give you an offering of water.”

“I call to Pyroar from Pokemon. I invite you to come talk to me and so that I may give you an offering of fire.”

If you want to get more direct and specific, you can add in more details such as relationships with other characters and other things. It’s up to you whether this makes the call more effective or unnecessarily cumbersome.

“I call to Remilia Scarlet, The Scarlet Devil and older sister of Flandre Scarlet from the Scarlet Devil Mansion of Gensokyo of Touhou Project.”

So yeah, like I said the call can really be anything you want. However, make sure that the words you use are not forcing the spirit to come to you. You “invite”, you “request”, you “ask”. It might seem silly but sometimes the little things can make all the difference. I like the first example that I gave the best but what you choose is up to you.

3) Talk with the spirit and give them the offering! Now in my experience, I’ve never had a PC spirit not show up. At most they showed up and then immediately left. I suspect that this has something to do with our relationships to them and roles as their creators. HOWEVER, do not take this as a guarantee that they’ll show up. I don’t know of the factors affecting you when you do this call and anything that goes down with you and your experience is completely separate from me and my experience.

4) Say goodbye. If you are ready to say goodbye and they haven’t already left on their own then you can let them know that you’re ready for them to depart:

“[Character name], thank you for coming but it is now time for you depart. Please leave respectfully and in peace.”

If they don’t leave, throw out your demands and your commands, be forceful. If they still don’t leave, banish them.

Now this all probably seems awfully over formal, especially for calling little pokemon spirits and the like, because it is, in a way. You could totally give the spirit a “hey man I’m tired, is it alright if you left now?” However, I think starting out formal and then shifting to casual when you’re more comfortable with spirit work is helpful. It gets you in the mindset for spirit work time. It also helps teach you the “proper” and “respectful” ways of doing things so that when you do deviate from them, you can do so without being disrespectful for you understand the fundamentals.

5) Cleanse! If you feel the need to, cleanse after the spirit has left. If you had to force the spirit out then definitely cleanse but even if nothing bad happened, scan the room anyway just to see if you maybe should.

I set the lily-of-the-valley next to my phone which already has the picture of Scolipede brought up. I step away from it so that I may construct my circle, calling upon the four elements and my gods. Beside me are the banishing tools and my laptop so that I may listen to instrumental music that will help me focus in addition to using it for typing up notes on the encounter. I clear my mind by going into a light meditative state and then focus on the image of Scolipede. “I call upon Scolipede, the Megapede Pokemon of the Unova region of Pokemon. I invite you to come talk to me and so that I may give you an offering of Lily-of-the-Valley which will help boost your poisonous power,” I say in my mind rather than out loud. As I do so, I direct my thoughts at the image.A scolipede appears beside my phone. I see him in my mind’s eye, he doesn’t physically manifest (and neither will any spirit that you call). He greets me using telepathy, “Scolipede! Scolipede!” I forgot to specify that I would like a spirit that can speak english in the call. Most pokemon spirits that I’ve met can’t. However, when I ask him if he can speak english, he does so. Our chat is short: he tells me that I didn’t provide enough of the offering for it to be a useful power boost but he likes my room. When we finish talking I say to him, “Scolipede, thank you for coming but it is now time for you to depart. Please leave respectfully and in peace.” He says his goodbyes and then leaves through the image of him on my phone. I close my circle and put my tools away.  

Final Notes

Despite being a pretty simple procedure you must remember all of the other things that go into it. You should be able to ward, banish, construct a circle, discern the presence of a spirit, discern the identity of a spirit, and be comfortable in your communication methods to say the least. That might seem like a lot to a beginner but the only way to really gain those skills is through practice! And guess what? This right here is a good way to practice ^^. Calling things like magikarps or weak mooks from other video games can be a safe way to start gaining that experience needed for calling stronger spirits. (If you start calling to magikarps pls tell me. I want to read about all the magikarp spirits XD)

While working with PC spirits, especially ones that are friendly in canon, can be a safer way to get into spirit work, never forget that they are still spirits and they can still do you harm. Also, do not call a spirit just for the sake of calling them. If you want to practice, then call them but make sure they are rewarded for their time and energy and chat with them, if they’re up for it. Don’t keep calling the same spirit if they have made it clear that they don’t want to work with you or be called anymore (w/ pokemon it’s a little different cause there’s more than one but yeah you get what I mean). Along that note, don’t assume that all spirits who come want to work with you. Some just want a quick meal, others maybe want to chat, but that doesn’t mean that they want to be your friend or that they’re obligated to help or associate with you in anyway.

Too Deep

Summary: When your depression consumes you, you almost don’t make it through this time.

Request: Could you please do a Cas x reader where reader has severe depression? She self harms too? Nobody knows because she hides it well, but Cas finds out one day. Like, maybe they guys are out, and she wears some stuff that shows her scars. Or maybe it gets hotter, and Cas starts questioning her. Obviously angst, but I also want a whole lot of fluff please. Thank you! Requested by Anon <3

A/N: The ending of this is fluffy, I realize this one is a bit darker, so please know that if you ever need to talk, you’re free to come to me. I’ve been there myself, I get it, I know those voices in your head can say some nasty things <3

-Feedback is always appreciated!

Pairing: Castiel x Reader

Warnings: Depression, attempted suicide, language fluffy ending

Word Count: 1.2k

Originally posted by lucifersagents

Things weren’t typically this bad for you; but as the blood trickled down your arm and onto the bathroom floor, the only thing you hoped for was death.

You’d kept yourself from giving into the urge for weeks. You distracted yourself. You’d rub old scars, snap rubber bands on your wrists, or even take the less harmful route and burn yourself with a Bic.

But today, you woke up to Dean knocking on your door, telling you to get up and get ready. You’d be going swimming. But you couldn’t run from the sinking feeling in your chest, or the voices in your head that told you you’d be better off dead.

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“I bind you....from doing harm against yourself....and harm against others.” Binding Spell

Inspired by that scene from “The Craft”

What You’ll Need

  • A black candle and a white candle
  • Bindweed
  • Rope
  • New moon water
  • Salt
  • A small bowl
  • Poppet
  • Taglock

What To Do

  • Pour the moon water and salt into bowl and stir until it becomes salt water.
  • Take your taglock and salt and stuff them inside the poppet.
  • Wrap the bindweed around the poppet with the rope and put the poppet in the bowl.
  • Drip the black and white wax on and around the poppet while saying/thinking “I bind you (name) from doing harm against yourself and harm against others.” 
  • Take the poppet and hide it somewhere in the general direction of the person you’re binding. Like say if they’re living north, hide that poppet in a northern corner of your home.