hard time recently

doodled a human orisa idea and efi as a lil’ warmup!! i know this is gonna be a popular thing to draw but i wanted to give it my shot!

I imagine relationships, even very sincere ones, are super hard when you have secret agendas.

Today I learned wine sometimes helps with paintings??  Also, in the absence of a moody title, here are my two standard playlists of Solavellan music.

It Never Seems To Be Enough

Summary: Dan gets hate comments and gets bullied by his subscribers on the internet for not posting the video he said he would, and when he breaks down from it, Phil is there to help him back up. 

Or, the fic that’s not actually a fic because it really happened, because half the people in the phandom are assholes who have no regard for Dan’s feelings because they all think it’s about them. 

A/N: I’m not bitter :) This behavior is not okay. Dan does not deserve to be treated the way he was today. No one likes a bully. Unless you have something nice to say to him, than don’t say it at all. 

Warnings: None, unless assholes trigger you. Which, by the way, the tweets featured in this fic are actual tweets I saw in Dan’s replies on his video post.

Word Count: 2,026

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Dan made a mistake by telling thousands of people on YouNow about his next video. Truthfully, he had planned on the next danisnotonfire video being one that meant something to him, but when he tried to film it, things just weren’t working out.

He had been stressed for weeks, constantly worrying about the content he was going to put out on his personal channel, but each time he thought of making a video to post publicly, he felt sick.

Dan treated his own channel like an egg. It always had to be perfect, with no cracks anywhere, and the outside had to have a polished glow to it. He never knew who was going to stumble across his channel, and he couldn’t have it looking like a shitstorm in case someone important saw it. But it was that exact thought that drove him mad.

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Color Meme

 @yukination requested: kuroken + autumn colors

Some anons asked for Xros Wars! Lapidot and I couldn’t say no :3c so here a redraw from a scene from ep 50~

How the hell do people write fanficton.

I want to write so bad but I’m terrified that I’ll write out of character? I’m sitting here thinking up plots and AUs and ficlets and stuff that I’m so excited about, and I just can’t put words on paper (or a word document, heh).

What would ______ character do in this situation? I don’t know, I’m not them.

anonymous asked:

Hi! Can I get Jumin HC calming mc. mc who have PTSD and terrible flashback rn about her past. Sorry if the subject is too heavy I'm having hard rn . Thank you for your time if u are writing for this.

Hi nonny! I’m so sorry you’re having such a hard time recently. :/ And, I’m sorry this took me a few days to get to - I wanted to move it to the top of the list since you’re having a hard time, but I still didn’t get it to you as quickly as I’d hoped! I did some research for this but please, please - tell me if any of this makes you uncomfortable in any way (this goes for everyone). I’ve never struggled with PTSD myself and I know sometimes research just doesn’t do these kinds of things justice. I tried to be as ambiguous as possible about the nature of the flashbacks because I know different traumas can cause different reactions and that certain methods of comfort might hurt instead of help.

Requests are open.~

✦Jumin calming MC with PTSD

  • when you wake up from an awful, triggering nightmare, Jumin wakes up too
  • he realizes what’s happening immediately
  • maybe this kind of thing threw him off guard in the beginning, but by now he knows what he’s doing and how to help (he hopes)
  • as long as physical comfort is welcome and okay, he doesn’t hesitate to wrap his arms around you
  • murmuring warm, comforting words in your ear
  • hand rubbing soothing circles on your back
  • if you want to talk about it, he listens, if not, he doesn’t press
  • he’ll bring you hot tea, turn on soft lighting, play calming music - whatever you need
  • everything he tries to do to comfort you, he makes sure it’s okay and that he’s helping, not hurting
  • he realizes different things might be helpful on different days so he never assumes he knows what you want or need in regards to your PTSD
  • if you ever need something he doesn’t have - no matter what it is - he’ll acquire it ASAP
  • constantly reminds you that he’s here, he’s not going anywhere, that he’ll always be here for you
  • but he’ll listen if what you need is alone time, too
  • not that he’d ever go farther than one room over
  • he doesn’t always know what to say but he always, always keeps telling you he loves you more than anything
  • he knows by now he can’t protect you from the past - or even that there’s a 100% guarantee that he can protect you from the future (not that he’ll ever stop trying)
  • but he’ll always reassure you that he will do his best to keep you safe and happy
  • whenever you have a particularly bad flashback or nightmare, he’ll take the next day off work, just to stay with you

So I finally got around to finishing editing this track and I’m really really happy with how it came out. Last month I got to see one of my best friends in real life for the first time in eight or so years and words cannot describe how happy I was to see her. She’s one of the most wonderful, sweet, and amazing people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing, and I had the privilege of being able to record this cover with her while we were sitting right next to each other. I’ve wanted to cover this song since the moment it aired, and when I heard that she was possibly going to visit me during the year, I decided I would wait because I couldn’t imagine a more perfect person to sing this song with. And now whenever I hear this song, I’m going to think of her, and all the laughs that we shared together. I really do look up to her, and I always will. Thank you so much for listening, and Steph, if you’re reading this, thank you for giving me a reason to keep on smiling.

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anonymous asked:

if requests are still open can i request some comforting headcanons with todoroki, bakugou and midoriya for a fem s/o who has to deal with a bad home situation like her dad kinda yells at her a lot but she usually keeps it in but she can't take it anymore and needs to be comforted? (sorry this was kinda detailed i've been having a hard time at home recently and your blog usually comforts me so thank you and sorry if this was confusing or anything)

((hey bud, I’m sorry about your situation. I kinda know how you feel a little bit lol. if you ever need to talk to anyone about stuff, feel free to im me any time))

“You’ve been acting strange all day, [Name]. What’s wrong?”
You looked up from your phone, surprised to see a look of blatant, obvious concern on Todoroki’s face. You hadn’t been acting strange. Had you been acting strange? “Nothing’s wrong, I’m just tired.”
“Tired of?” Shit. Since when was Todoroki good at reading the mood? “Seriously, what’s the matter?… Is everything okay at home?”
Goddammit, he was onto you. You sighed, feeling your shoulders slump inward. “It’s, uh, it’s been a rough week, dear. Really loud around the house, you know?”
He sat down next to you, gently pulling you to his chest. “Do you want to talk about it? Or just sit here?”
“I don’t think I’m cut out to be a hero. I mean, if I get all worked up by my dad, how’m I gonna deal with actual villains? When I’m in physical danger instead of just getting yelled at, you know? Maybe I shouldn’t be here.”
“Hey, it’s okay. Those are different situations, [Name]. It’s harder when it’s someone close to you, as opposed to some random person trying to kill you. It’s okay.”
Well, Todoroki always had a way with words. “Yeah, but if I’m this faint-hearted…”
“Faint-hearted? Who’s faint-hearted?” He jerked back to look at you, and his face barely fell short of minor offense. “I don’t see a faint-hearted person in the room. [Name], dealing with fathers is hard. Trust me, you can still become a hero with a shitty dad.”
You knew you looked a little pathetic, but how could you help it? “You think so?”
“Hey, I’m doing it, aren’t I?”
“Yeah, you’re right. I forgot about that, sorry.”
He must have tried to kiss your cheek, but missed and got you on the corner of your mouth instead. “I don’t mind that not being the first thing people remember about me. Are you feeling better?”
“…Yeah. Thanks, Todoroki. Love you.”
“Love you too.”

“Can we keep it down a little, Bakugou? You’re being a little too loud right now.”
“Huh?! I’m not being loud at all!”
You flinched. For such a sweet boyfriend, he sure did yell a lot. “I mean, a little… Actually a lot. Your voice is really loud right now and it’s kind of hurting my ears and could you stop please?”
He turned toward you, sharp eyes boring into your soul. “What’s your problem? You good?”
“It’s your shithead of a dad, isn’t it? What’d he do now?” An immediate reaction. His fists were clenched, eyes narrowed. He was on the offensive. “I’ll get him. What did say to you?”
“Nothing! Nothing. Just… I should be studying more, probably. Not doing too good.”
His voice lowered almost immediately. “I’ll help you. I’m at the top of the class, I’m plenty damn capable.”
You quirked an eyebrow. “You’d tutor me? Seriously?”
“Yeah! What kind of a boyfriend would I be if I didn’t help you tell your dad to shove it? Let’s start tonight.”
“Wait, tonight? Can’t we start tomorrow?”
“No! If we start now you can ace that test on Thursday! Come on, get a book!”
You didn’t know you’d unleash militant teacher Bakugou, but you’d be lying if you said it didn’t feel good to have someone care so much. “Fine, whatever. Love you, babe.”
“Come on!”
“…Yeah ditto.”

“[Name], hey, how’re you doi—sleeping. You’re sleeping.”
You lifted your head up from the foot of your bed, blearily staring at Midoriya. “Huh? No no I’m good. Long day. Long month.”
He came and sat next to you, trying to straighten out your hair. “What’s wrong?”
“Dad. Just dad.” You grumbled, and Midoriya noticed the dark circles under your eyes. “He’s been annoying and loud and I’m tired, tired, tired,” You spat bitterly. “Do you have headphones I can borrow?”
He laid down next to you, slinging an arm over your waist. “Are you okay?”
You grimaced. “Can I come over some time? Like, not even to spend the night, just stay really late and go home in the dead of night?”
“Wouldn’t that just give him more reason to yell at you?”
“Don’t care. If it all happens at once it’s fine. When it’s spread out over the day is when it sucks. I’m not even gonna ask to stay for dinner, can I just chill in your room for a few hours?” It occurred to you as soon as the words left your mouth that you were sort of imposing. “Oh shit, didn’t mean to invite myself over like that.”
He shook his head. “No, you can come over. My mom loves you, she’d probably prepare the guest room for you and everything.”
Inko did seem to enjoy having you over a lot. “For real?”
“Yeah! Come over this weekend if you want! Come spend time with my parent, she’s great!” Mama’s boy. “If it’ll help with your situation, you can come over whenever you like.”
You pressed your face into his neck, kissing just below his ear. You loved doing that, he always shivered a little bit. “Thanks Izuku. You’re the best.”

Yes, Really

Originally posted by hobilu

Genre: Fluffy smut

By: Admin Podo


Words: 1,901

Summary: You almost ruin all your preparations for your husband Seokjin’s homecoming 

You knew that your husband Jin (aka best friend, and best human in the world) had been having a stressful time with the latest comeback and all the touring. You had also had a hard time recently with going to college and working at the same time. But this whole week you had looked forward to Seokjin coming back home, so you both could spend some quality time together.

He had texted you yesterday telling you that he would be getting back a little late and to have dinner without him. He had made you promise you’d eat and not stay up very late if he was later then he thought he would be. Your precious husband, you did not feel like you deserved him. So, whenever he came back after a long trip you always made sure to set up something special.

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I don’t mean to brag, but I got this post on Facebook from my son this morning and….well…my heart just expanded and the tears flowed freely…I type this now with a lump in my throat…truly…I am so very blessed and humbled! <3

“Mom, I just want to publicly give you my appreciation for being who you are. Mothers Day is getting close and it really has me thinking about how fortunate I am to have a mother who has sacrificed so much for her family. You are the best friend I’ve ever had. I know I’ve put you through a lot of hard times, even up until recently. But through it all you’ve always supported me and encouraged me to do and be better. You are truly a remarkable woman and I would consider it a success if my daughter grows up to be half the woman you are. I say this from the bottom of my heart, thank you. I love you, mom!”

yanablumka  asked:

Top 5 Shoma`s shirts!

god where do i begin, there is simply too much beauty to choose from!! i’m going to interpret this as costumes in general, not only shirts, because there are some wonderful onesies i simply can’t exclude.

1. what are those even supposed to be? giant nails? WHAT IS THAT PATTERN. WHY DOES THIS SHIRT EXIST

2. glittery butterfly over sheer fabric with fur on the collars because why not!!


4. this is…a lot. like. wow. this is a lot.

5. garbage green over shiny garbage bag pants; shoma just wants to tell the world that he is the #1 dai-stanning trash

i should make a photoset of all of shoma’s costumes one day because there are SO MANY MORE that must be shared. truly he is an icon of figure skating fashion. #shomasuglyshirtemporium

I'm leaving....

Hey guys,

So, after almost 6 amazing months on this blog, I’ve decided to leave tumblr indefinitely. My best friend first made this blog as one we would share, but eventually she gave it to me and i made this blog my own, and i absolutely loved it. The only problem was, my parents had no idea I had it. To a lot of people, this wouldn’t be a problem at all, but I’m so close with my parents that I feel really guilty about it.

I’ve dealt with the guilt of keeping it from them ever since I first made it, and I’ve gone back and forth about deleting it so many times, but it seems to have been getting a lot worse, so I’m deciding to do what’s probably best in the long run (even though I really don’t want to) and leave before I can talk myself out of it any more.

I probably won’t delete this blog, I love it way too much and the almost 4k of you that follow me to completely get rid of it, plus I want to keep providing otayuri content to all of you, so I’ll keep my queue going (at this point I can make it last a month or so before it runs out) and come back every once in a while to update it, but completely get off tumblr. Maybe I’ll get my parents permission to get a tumblr and make another blog they know about (and I’ll come back here to let you know about the new blog) but I don’t know for sure, so there’s a chance this is goodbye for good.

This blog has done so much for me in these few months, I’ve met so many amazing people and it’s helped me through so many hard times with my anxiety recently, so I want to thank every single one of you, even if I never talked to you before, for giving me this experience, and it’s one of the hardest things for me to do to say goodbye

To my amazing internet friends:

@islysmiley i know we still talk on Snapchat and Instagram, but I’m still gonna write a goodbye on here. Talking with you has been one of the most fun things ever and I’m so thankful for the countless hours we’ve spent making jokes and laughing. Between watching Free together (and making a ton of dirty jokes *cough* Reis purple dick drawing *cough*) and practically writing shatt and otayuri fanfictions, its been so amazing. Words can’t describe how thankful I am so I’m just gonna say MAKE US FREE NA SPLASH KASANETA

@sweetpotatoirish1-7 I’ve spent so long talking with you about anything and everything possible, between your brother thinking I was a 50 year old man to creating an entire au based on the first few notes of Say No to This. It’s been so amazing, I can’t describe how glad I am that we met and how great of a friend you are

@imsherlockedtotv5xq one of my first friends on here, we’ve talked about so much together and spent so long ranting about ships, whether it’s spamano or otayuri, thank you so much for being such an amazing friend to me

@ale-le-me we’ve talked so much about all sorts of things, and fangirl way too much over all the yoi official art. You’ve always been so supportive of me even when I was going through rough times with anxiety, and I’m so glad we became friends

@mediocre-anime-fangirl and @yuriplisetskiing I know we haven’t gotten to know each other for that long, but you’re both such amazing people and I really wish I got to talk to you more, and thank you so much for being great friends, even if it wasn’t for very long

Thank you guys for 6 absolutely amazing months on here, and I hope one day I can come back to this account (maybe when I’m older and I don’t have to worry about my parents, or on another blog if I get permission), but if I don’t, I want to say goodbye ❤️

(I’ll stay on here for another day or so in case anyone wants to send a message before I leave, and I’ll send out a post when I actually do leave)