hard in my arms

So before my workout today I was crazy intimidated. But I went to the class anyway. I took a Bodypump class and I’m pretty sure my body no longer functions. I’ve never in my LIFE worked my arms that hard 😂😂 I’m walking back to my room and I feel like a moron trying to walk on these jello legs!!! I learned about dead lists and power cleans and rowing though which was super cool! Some new moves with weights I had never done and was too scared to do without proper training.

A+ workout. I’m dead. Send me an ice bath 😂😂

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.