Walang perpektong relasyon. Ang kailangan niyo lang eh ang ISA'T ISA.
Minsan sa isang tao na ubod at sobrang magmahal, di mo na maiisip na nakakasakit kana. Yung tipong nandon kana sa punto na ginagawa mo na lahat para hindi kayo magaway kase takot kang mawala sia sayo. Yung tipo na todo iwas ka na magaway kayo, na ayaw na ayaw mo makagawa ka ng mali na ikagagalit niya. Na sa sobrang takot ka na mwala sia sayo, palagi na kayo nagaaway, palagi ng may arguments and etc. Then you’ll realize you don’t have to try hard to make the relationship perfect. You just have to be there for him/her. Ung taong nakilala nia way back when both of you were friends. Kase sa ganong tao ka nia minahal.
I have been there. This past week. Me and boyfriend had a major argument. Yung tipong nagsisigawan na kayo sa telepono. Kulang nalang magmurahan kayo eh. Pero di naman humantong sa ganon. Nagkaron lang ng banta, sumbatan and other things. Mainit na din ulo naming dalawa, nakainom pa so we decided to talk it over the next day. I know I’ve made mistakes pero ung feeling na alam mong kayang kaya ka niang palitan in just a snap e nakakabastos na diba? Pinaramdam nia sakin nung gabeng un na kayang kaya nia ko iwan anytime. BAHALA KA SA BUHAY MO! Ung tipong ganon. At the end of the night, I cried. I cried my heart out kase nasaktan ako. Ni hindi man lang sia naging concern sa kng anong nanyare sakin. I guess his pride won and I was the loser that night.
The next day, he was texting me saying ILOVEYOU. I’M SORRY ABOUT LAST NIGHT. Blah blah blah! I was so cold, ung tipong ayoko na sia kausapin but still I did. TANGINA MAHAL KO EH! No ba magagawa ko? And besides, I’ve made mistakes too. So kelangan lang patawarin namin ang isa’t isa. It took time. The whole time he was texting me stuff that he misses me and so forth. I didn’t text him the whole day. I just texted him an hour before midnight and he fell asleep. No time to talk at all.
And it was Monday, he was being so cold to me. No text, no goodmorning, no ILOVEYOU. I got scared. And I was like freaking out kase feeling ko it was the end of the line. Then he texted me, TULOY PABA NATIN TO? WALA NAMAN NA NANYAYARE EH. NAGKAKASAKITAN LANG TAYO! And i was like? WATTHEF*CK! I cried my heart out again. And I was like thinking it’s goodbye time. Hinanda ko na sarili ko sa break up. After a couple of text messages, he finally said I WON’T GIVE UP ON YOU. KAYA NATIN TO. I AM TRULY SORRY. DI PO TAYO NAGHIHIWALAY. HINDI PO. Hearing that from him was the most comforting words he’d said. And I love him for that. Kase ako diko din naman sia iggiveup na ganon ganon lang eh. And he knows that every single day of our lives.
REALIZATION: Hindi ko naman kelangan ng perpektong relasyon. Dadating sa punto na magaaway talaga kayo over silly things. The good thing is after all the heartaches and bad words uve said to each other, alam mo na pinaglalaban ka pa din ng taong mahal mo. For me, that’s the important thing. Na kahit anong away, gulo o tampuhan man ang maganda e both sides are strong and has the courage to fight for each other. VICE VERSA LANG! Give and take kumbaga. DON’T TRY TOO HARD. LOVE HIM/HER EVERYDAY OF YOUR LIFE.
NO REASONS. NO REGRETS. JUST LOVE. PERIOD.