happy people can be so cruel

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“No one knows what tomorrow will bring… But I know we will walk slowly together for our tomorrow..” - Guhai & Bai Luoyin / Huang Jingyu & Xu Weizhou

Angsty Bojack Horseman Sentence Starters
  • “The most important thing is, you got to give the people what they want, even if it kills you.”
  • “You know, sometimes I feel like I was born with a leak, and any goodness I started with just slowly spilled out of me.”

  • “Life is a series of closing doors, isn’t it?”

  • “Am I a good person?”

  • “That’s the problem with life, either you know what you want and you don’t get what you want, or you get what you want and then you don’t know what you want.“ 

  • “There’s nothing for you behind you. All that exists is what’s ahead." 

  • "Family is a sinkhole, and you were right to get out when you had the chance." 

  • “I don’t understand how people… live. It’s amazing to me that people wake up every morning and say: ‘Yeah, another day, let’s do it.’ How do people do it? I don’t know how.” 

  • “You didn’t know me and then you fell in love with me. And now you know me.” 

  • “Closure is a made up thing by Steven Spielberg to sell movie tickets”.

  • “We’re just two lonely people trying to hate ourselves a little less.” 

  • “I don’t think I believe in ‘deep down’. I think that all you are is just the things that you do.”

  • “You were born broken, that’s your birthright.”

  • “You know what your problem is? You want to think of yourself as the good guy.”

  • “you’re a selfish goddamn coward who just takes whatever he wants and doesn’t give a shit about who he hurts. That’s you.”

  • “You know, it’s funny… when you look at someone through rose-colored glasses, all the red flags just look like flags.”

  • “I’m sorry, alright? I screwed up, I- I know I screwed up.”

  • “You can’t keep doing shitty things and then feel bad about yourself like that makes it okay! You need to be better!”

  • “You are all the things that are wrong with you.”

  • “Fuck, man. What else is there to say?”

  • “We’re not doomed. In the great, grand scheme of things, we’re just tiny specks that will one day be forgotten.”

  • “The only thing that matters is right now, this moment, this one spectacular moment we are sharing together.”

  • “I don’t understand how people… live. It’s amazing to me that people wake up every morning and say: ‘Yeah, another day, let’s do it.’ How do people do it? I don’t know how.”

  • “He’s so stupid he doesn’t realize how miserable he should be. I envy that.”

  • “It’s not about being happy, that is the thing. I’m just trying to get through each day.”

  • “I can’t keep asking myself ‘Am I happy?’ It just makes me more miserable.”

  • “It takes a long time to realize how truly miserable you are and even longer to see it doesn’t have to be that way.”

  • “When you do bad things, you have something you can point to when people eventually leave you. It’s not you, you tell yourself. It’s that bad thing you did.”

  • “It’s so cruel to let people love you. All you’re doing is promising you’ll one day break their hearts.”

  • “One day, you’re gonna look around and you’re going to realize that everybody loves you, but nobody likes you. And that is the loneliest feeling in the world.”

  • “There are some people you can’t save. Cause those people will thrash and struggle, and try to take you down with them.”
  • “ Hey, I wanted to talk to you about… you know. I feel bad about what happened.”
  • “I don’t forgive you.”
  • “No. I’m not gonna give you closure. You don’t get that. You have to live with the shitty thing you did for the rest of your life. You have to know that it’s never, ever going to be okay!”
  • “You have to believe me. I did everything I could.”
  • “I had a good life, but what I needed then was a friend! And you abandoned me. And I will never forgive you for that.”
  • “Now get the fuck out of my house!”
  • “ Look, I’m sorry about all the stuff I said about you earlier.”
  • “Do you… do you think it’s too late for me? I mean, am, am, am I just doomed to be the person that I am? “
  • “I, I, I need you to tell me that I’m a good person.”
  • “I just wanted to tell you that I know. I know you want to be happy, but you won’t be… and I’m sorry.”
  • “ What more do you want? What else could the universe possibly owe you? “
  • “I want to feel good about myself. The way you do. And I don’t know how. I don’t know if I can.”
  • “If you ever try to contact me or my family again, I will fucking kill you.”
  • “ You can’t just disappear. You really hurt a lot of people.”
  • “In this terrifying world, all we have are the connections that we make.”
  • “It’s so sad that when you see someone as they really are, it ruins them.”
  • “You like being there to rescue me. Because it makes you feel good about yourself.”
  • “ You know that I don’t do the whole love thing. Either you end up hurting someone or they hurt you. So what’s the point?”
  • “ Uh…. Oh, god, I’m drowning. I feel like I’m drowning.”
  • “Hey, we have all done shitty stuff before. Most of us aren’t as proud of it as you seem to be.”
  • “It doesn’t get better and it doesn’t get easier.”
  • “I can’t keep lying to myself thinking I’m gonna change, I’m poison.”
  • “I come from poison and I have poison inside me and I destroy everything I touch. That’s my legacy.”
  • “I have nothing to show for the life I have lived. And I have nobody in my life who’s better off for having known me.”
  • “You’re gonna wanna kill yourself, and there’s going to be no one left to stop you.” 

abuse victims attracting abusers is a myth, abusers target victims, and it’s 100% abusers fault no matter who they abuse. you are not responsible for “making sure you don’t act in a way that could make someone want to abuse you” or for “making sure you don’t attract abusive people”, it’s on them to not fucking target and take advantage of the first person who has trouble standing up to them and saying no, who is scared of confrontation, who was groomed into pleasing and putting others first, who is still trying to find themselves and put themselves together, who doesn’t know how to demand and ask other than to offer all of their affection and support while asking nothing in return and being happy with whatever they get. these people just need proper family! someone who would protect them and allow them to build boundaries and learn they never need to offer more than they get and that they’re safe and valued and wanted and accepted just the way they are, taking advantage of someone so fragile and scared and wounded and hurting them even more in order to gain power and satisfaction is cruel and vile and abusers should go to hell for it, and whoever thought that victims should take responsibility for “attracting abusers” can also go to hell, blame fucking abusers, shame abusers for taking advantage, let them know they need to pay for what they’ve done and change their ways if they wish to keep existing, leave victims in peace

My dear lgbt+ kids, 

Here’s a hug for the poor/financially challenged lgbt+ kids. *hug*

“Money doesn’t buy happiness” can feel like a cruel joke when you have money trouble. We live in a world where money can buy some safety and freedom - and while poverty is not a issue for only lgbt+ people, it can hit lgbt+ people especially hard. 

So, here’s a hug for

- those who can’t afford to legally change their name

- those who can’t afford hormones or surgery 

- those who want to move away from hateful family but can’t afford to 

- those who can’t come out because they financially depend on their lgbt+-phobic family 

- those who want to quit their job but can’t risk to be jobless 

- those who have trouble to find jobs because employers discriminate

- those who can’t afford a binder or clothes they feel comfortable in 

With all my love, 

Your Tumblr Mom  

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Can you tell me your favorite quotes? I need inspiration for my writing

I like this question! I save my faves on my phone for inspiration:


You are not sick, you are injured. You ache for the rest of life.  - Claudia Rankine

Do we simply stare at what’s horrible and forgive it? - Richard Siken

One could not endure the agony of consciousness, the filth of life, the loss, the loss, the loss. - Vladimir Nabokov

Where were you when I was still kind? - Gregory Alan Isakov

He said loudly “I am not dying” and I said “For me, you are.“ - Anne Sexton

If two people love each other there can be no happy end to it. - Ernest Hemingway

I was hollow and empty as the spaces between stars. - Raymond Chandler

I’m sorry you were not truly loved and that it made you cruel. - Warsan Shire

But we joke and laugh otherwise we would start screaming. - Charles Bukowski

There was so much sadness in everything, even when things worked. - Charles Bukowski

I’m so scared of dying without ever being really seen. Can you understand? - David Foster Wallace

Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living. - Jonathan Safran Foer

This is an apology letter to the both of us for how long it took me to let things go. - Buddy Wakefield

 I will love you as a thief loves a gallery and as a crow loves a murder, as a cloud loves bats and as a range loves braes. I will love you as misfortune loves orphans, as fire loves innocence, and as justice loves to sit and watch while everything goes wrong. - Lemony Snicket

I outlive you,
bend down my strange face to yours and forgive you. - Anne Sexton

There are things sadder
than you and I. Some people
do not even touch. - Sonia Sanchez

The tragedy of sexual intercourse is the perpetual virginity of the soul. - William Butler Yeats

Nothing is worse and more hurtful than a happiness that comes too late. - Ivan Turgenev

I want quiet thunder. Our disappointment sits between us. - Charles Bukowski

It’s never quite right, all the things we are
taught, all the loves we chase, all the deaths we die, all the lives we live. - Charles Bukowski

Those who escape hell however never talk about it and nothing much bothers them after that. - Charles Bukowski

Will I ever be liked for anything other than the wrong reasons? - Sylvia Plath

What is my life and what am I going to do with it? I don’t know and I’m afraid. I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones, and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited. - Sylvia Plath

I’m not brave any more darling. I’m all broken. They’ve broken me. - Ernest Hemingway

You are so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering. - Ernest Hemingway

Never, never tell them. Try and remember that. Never tell anyone anything ever. Never tell anyone anything again. - Ernest Hemingway

 I’m full of poetry now. Rot and poetry. Rotten poetry. - Ernest Hemingway,

Everything you do makes my body scream with loneliness. - Henry Rollins

I have lost and loved and won and cried myself to the person I am today. - Charlotte Eriksson

I have a very childlike rage, and a very childlike loneliness. - Richey Edwards

I forgave everybody, I gave up, I got drunk. - Jack Kerouac

And you tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more. Tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake… You can’t make homes out of human beings. Someone should have already told you that. And if he wants to leave, then let him leave. You are terrifying, and strange, and beautiful. Something not everyone knows how to love. - Warsan Shire

I want to love, but my hair smells of war and running and running. - Warsan Shire

Mother says there are locked rooms inside all women; kitchen of lust,  bedroom of grief, bathroom of apathy. Sometimes, the men; they come with keys, and sometimes, the men; they come with hammers. -Warsan Shire

It was love at first sight, at last sight, at ever and ever sight. - Vladimir Nabokov

Perhaps, somewhere, some day, at a less miserable time, we may see each other again. - Vladimir Nabokov

A person commenting on a health post of mine: “seems fake but okay Jan”.

Listen, do you want to know something? I am so happy for you. No I’m not being sarcastic, I am genuinely happy for you.

I am so happy that you are blessed with good enough health that you are able to look at the suffering of someone else and think it cannot possibly be true because why would god, man or science allow for such things to happen in the year 2017. I am happy for you, that when you go to the doctor, they don’t look at you remorsefully and tell you there’s nothing they can do, or worse, not believe you and deny you adequate care. 

I am over joyed, that this is an experience you have not yet gone through because it is one of the most upsetting, agonizing and isolating things a person can endure, all the while knowing that either the science just isn’t there yet, or worse, nobody cares.

I am so deeply and truly comforted to know that not everyone else suffers the same health problems I do, or has had the same experiences I have had with medical neglect and abuse. It makes the world seem a little brighter to know that other people are not subjected to this on a daily basis, day after day, year after year.

I am happy for you, and only wish I could share in the naivety that allows you to be cruel in your skepticism of others not as fortunate as yourself. But unfortunately I don’t have the luxury and privilege of a healthy working body that can be fixed with green tea, sleep and yoga, and simply wish you well in your life, and hope you never find out what it’s like to have a problem that green tea, sleep and yoga cannot fix.

Oh, and my name is Joy. But good job on getting the first letter right.

How can you be so happy?
Do you not know I’m in pain?
Do you not see me break?
Do you not understand, you could help!
Do you not know helping is humane?

How can you stay online all this time without responding to my texts?
Do you not know I miss you everyday?
Do you not understand the words I say?
Do you not care about these emotions I display!
Do you not know basic consideration is expected?

How can you stab me with this knife?
Do you not remember the time you were bleeding?
Do you not recognize this to be the same knife?
Do you not remember the time you were pleading!
Do you not acknowledge, I saved your life?

How can you breathe without choking?
Do you not drown in your hypocrisy?
Do you not suffocate in your air of mendacity?
Do you not want to kill your rotten heart!
Do you not see this is how I truly feel and not just some art?

Sometimes you meet people
a little too late in life.
And sometimes, time runs out
too quickly before you can get the
chance to properly know them.

Maybe the world is cruel like that.

But I’m so glad we met; and for
what little time we did have, and
all the memories and moments.

So wherever life takes you,
I wish you all the best.
I pray that the world will be
kinder, will be softer.
I hope you find another happiness.
And that happiness will find you.

I hope we cross paths again.

—  “Missing you” // to a friend
remnant-thoughts
soulmate! Seokmin

a/n: showing some love for our underappreciated seokshine

Summary: in which you can feel your soulmate’s emotions, ex. happiness, sadness, anger

  • your heart kinda hurts for your soulmate
  • yes, you know it’s not possible to be happy 24/7
  • but the normal emotions you feel from your soulmate are generally in the categories of happy or stressed
  • both which are completely normal and it makes you happy to know your soulmate has been happy the majority of their life
  • never have you felt this much sadness from him or her, but i mean your pretty sure your attracted to guys so
  • specially this past month,
  • and now you feel even worse because as you’re feeling worried, he’ll be able to tell and maybe get even more sad
  • this cruel world is breaking both of your hearts
  • so you tried your very best to be as happy as possible
  • positivity is key
  • and there’s lots of positive energy around you so hopefully you can project this to your soulmate
  • your job as a PD-nim at MBC is really fun
  • part of it is just talking to a bunch of people your age so you’re on a first name bases with lots of celebrities
  • it’s funny how they’re like “you’re a PD-nim? you’re so young”
  • it’s so weird to hear honorifics from many of the idols your age so you insist they treat you like a friend 
  • you like filming the waiting rooms before stages the best 
  • something about the nervous but vibrant energy, 
  • people doing what they love to do, making others happy, being with people that made them happy 
  • you wanted to soak it all up and hope your soulmate would feel happier too 
  • “y/n the next group is in the waiting room.” your boss tells you, shaking you from your thoughts 
  • “okay we’re filming for our special right?“ 
  • “Yep, doing ‘what’s in my bag’ for show champ" 
  • “okay fighting!" 
  • "fighting." 
  • you drag your camera over your shoulder and bring a few other staff with you 
  • reading the sign on the door, "세븐틴”, you push open the door 
  • “hey guys!“ 
  • "y/n!!!" 
  • the thirteen boys scattered about the crowded room turn to say their greetings to you and the staff 
  • "SAY THE NAME SEVENTEEN ANNYEONGHASAEYO SEVENTEEN IMNIDA”
  • you bow in greeting also
  • “I’ll just quickly check everyone’s stuff before filming just to make sure no one has anything that’s too personal,” you tell the other staff 
  • “noona you got prettier,” seungkwan says to you 
  • “ah thanks seungkwan, are you trying to butter me up?” you laugh 
  • he denies it with the other members teasing him
  • looking at the group, you notice someone’s missing
  • “where’s DK, he usually jumping around being wild,” you ask
  • "hyung isn’t feeling well today he’s over in the corner getting his hair styled.”
  • if you had to choose one member in seventeen as a bias, it would be DK 
  • because somehow, you had a crush on the guy
  • "I know I’m crazy right?” you think
  • it didn’t seem to make sense with your soulmate being out there and the both of you sharing emotions
  • but that had been part of the reason you liked Seokmin
  • without fail, he always managed to bring a smile to everyone’s faces and yours too
  • if you were to imagine everything you’d want in a soulmate it’d be him
  • and that made you feel extremely guilty to your own soulmate
  • “hiiii DK, can you gather with the other members?”
  • he smiles at you, though not as brightly, “yes of course”
  • now with the whole group, you ask them to show their bags before filming and to pick an MC
  • going along the line you look into each of their personal bags 
  • as you pass each member of Svt, a pattern starts appearing as you ask each of them questions 
  • “Seungcheol, you carry around a marker?” “Yea, just in case (his soulmate’s name) needs me." 
  • "Wait so you found your soulmate? Does the company know? Are you telling fans yet?" 
  • "You’ll see a lot of us have, but the company doesn’t want us talking about it to fans yet." 
  • and as you walk down the line you realize that almost everyone had found the one for them 
  • "Joshua how’d you get a scratch on your arm are you ok?” “Oh this is new. That’s weird it wasn’t here five minutes ago. I’m not sure, (his soulmate’s name) must have scratched herself somehow. Excuse me I’m going to call her and check to make sure she’s ok." 
  • "Soonyoung, hey what’s up! What’s that?” you ask a smiley Soonyoung
  • “Oh it’s my lucky ear piece. (His soulmate’s name) bought it for me to bring good luck since she hears all the music I do too and she’s my luck." 
  • this was how you found out that every member had found their soulmate 
  • they all would tell you a cute little story or show you some cute little keepsake before you moved on to check the next person’s bag
  • "I still haven’t returned (Jun’s soulmate’s name)’s umbrella back to her. It’s sitting in the dorm and reminds me how amazing she is every time I see it." 
  • Jun giggles while telling you about that rainy night and by the time you reached Seokmin 
  • "I don’t suppose you have a cute story to tell me about your soulmate?” you say giggling and poking through his items in his personal bag 
  • “Dokyeom?” you look up and your heart begins aching 
  • DK is staring down at his feet, eyes wide as if trying not to blink 
  • “No, actually, I’m the only one who hasn’t found their soulmate yet in Seventeen." 
  • it was bad timing 
  • you felt your positive front you had tried maintaining go down for a bit as you sympathized with Seokmin 
  • and whoever your soulmate was, you could feel that they were even sadder now, 
  • and maybe it was because you felt sorry for Seokmin that he tried smiling at you 
  • "it’s ok though I’ll find them. I will find them." 
  • those words made you feel hopeful and you could feel some hope in your soulmate too in fact, they seemed to cheer up a little after your talk with Seokmin 
  • the conversation and timing replays into your head
  • no way….? 
  • you decide to attribute the moment of hope as simply your soulmate drawing strength from your emotions 
  • "Lee Seokmin, I believe in you, our sunshine and happy virus.” you say, giving him a smile as you pat his arm 
  • you’re surprised when Seokmin gives you a hug, your heart racing as an effect
  • “Thank you, y/n for making me feel better." 
  • "No problem” you say, barely breathing, your heart racing
  • and you think you’ve finally gone insane because you feel some other emotion from your soulmate that you hadn’t felt before 
  • a kind of happiness and a feeling of lightness, a floaty feeling it’s kind of the feeling you’re getting now after hugging Seokmin 
  • you shake your head and give Dokyeom one last smile which he returns before you turn back to face the others
  • after they were finished, they were surprisingly talking quietly among themselves
  • which was a bit suspicious for multiple reasons
  • wait…
  • you felt something in the pit of your stomach and realized
  • where your soulmate had felt sadness, there was nervous anticipation
  • a mix of being worried but also curious
  • not thinking much of it, you collect all the filming materials
  • suddenly, you feel a tap on your shoulder and turn around
  • your eyes meet the members who have pushed Seungkwan to the front with DK standng a little behind
  • "hmm?” you say
  • Seungkwan turns around really nervously too look at the others and you hear a voice say in the back
  • “yah Seungkwan pali, she tolerates you the most”
  • ‘what the heck???’ you think
  • you watch as Seungkwan takes a deep breath and
  • “YAH!! I WAS LYING EARLIER BECAUSE YOU LOOK EXTRA UGLY TODAY!!!”
  • immediately, Seungkwans knees sink to the ground while he bows furiously in apology
  • “the heck. did you go crazy??” you say half angry half confused
  • suddenly you feel an emotion that’s not yours
  • happiness? it’s the kind of happiness that warms your heart and makes it seem as if the world could just explode from all of the happiness
  • it’s how your soulmate is feeling
  • and you look behind Seungkwan to see the most dazzling smile gracing Seokmin’s face
  • “hyung I think it’s her! the timing is exactly the same!”
  • “what??” you say shocked
  • is he serious
  • suddenly there’s screams everywhere and you somehow figure out a bit of what was going on
  • not the first priority but the most obvious, Seungkwan who’s still hugging your legs
  • pulling him up you shake your head and laugh, “you were the sacrificial lamb huh?”
  • “noona jinja mianhae, you really are pretty”
  • he engulfs you in a apology hug, surprising you
  • “YAH! What are you doing Seungkwannie!!!” Dokyeom says pulling him off of you
  • Seventeen backs away pulling Seungkwan with them,
  • and somehow, because of the staff and members, the two of you end up in a board room
  • together, alone, yup
  • you rock back and forth on your feet while he scratches his head, the both of you laughing nervously
  • as your nervous self, you blurt out, “you shouldn’t scratch, it’ll mess up your hair”
  • P R I O R I T I E S
  • you scream at yourself
  • “so i’m pretty sure we’re soulmates right?” he says chuckling
  • giggling you say, “yep, when you think about it, it makes sense”
  • “you’ve always felt a connection too right?!” he says excitedly
  • “of course!” you agree with a grin
  • and you think back to the almost perfect timing of your emotions earlier when talking
  • and then the hug
  • and how Seokmin always managed to make you feel happier
  • now you knew it was quite literally done too
  • handing each other your phones, you exchange numbers quickly
  • “I know you have a really busy schedule but let’s meet again soon”
  • “it’s a promise!” he agrees
  • the atmosphere gets weird for a moment, the both of you not knowing what to do next
  • as you feel each other’s emotions, you know exactly what to do
  • so you guys meet in the middle for a hug
  • he rests his head on yours
  • you can feel his chest vibrating from his chuckle
  • “I’m glad it’s you”
  • “me too”
  • as he’s walking out, you remember something and grab his arm
  • “hold on please!” you tell him and start digging through your purse
  • as you search messily, he stands there with anticipation
  • “ah!” you say and pull the item out
  • as you hand him a keychain, you can clearly feel his happy emotions
  • shyly explaining you say, “you don’t have anything of mine like the others so, here”
  • without warning, he pulls you back into a tight hug and then smiles at you like the sunshine you know
  • “I’ll take good care of it”
  • you nod
  • “it’s not that official, so when we meet next, let’s get something matching okay?” you smile, your eyes changing into crescents
  • “ah! a moon and sun keychain”
  • “why?”
  • “because your eyes are like the moon”
  • immediately you both giggle at his cheesy words
  • nodding you agree,
  • “and you’re just like the sun, bright and warm”

Originally posted by cxlisto


The Seventeen Soulmate AU series:

|| Seungcheol / Pt. 2 || Jeonghan / Pt. 2 || Joshua / Pt.2 || Jun / Pt.2 || Hoshi / Pt.2 || Wonwoo || Woozi / Pt.2 || Seokmin / Pt.2 || Mingyu / Pt.2 || Minghao || Seungkwan || Vernon / Pt.2 || Dino ||

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~ admin jess & seri

I must confess that I have only been a fan of jaejoong for a year perhaps? Until recently I knew the meaning of the color green in their concerts. I have nothing to do with Jaejoong fans, I mean those who care only about him and not the group where he belongs too.
But given the circumstances ignoring the fact of his past and his preferences, it seems that Jaejoong really feels more comfortable when his fans do something that he likes, I mean, it’s difficult for him to have to bow his head every time his Fans tell him that he must be single, or that he should maintain a beauty, etc.
It’s a little cruel that he should submit to such requests from his fans that in my opinion are hard, when you are a true fan you must think about his happiness and his health, after all a clear mind will allow him to get good songs as he has Indeed, one of the reasons I became a fan was because of his good taste in music, since I love rock.

So this not to generate a conclict if not to make understand a point, if we want the happiness of our artist we must do what he likes as well as he will do what we most appreciate and is his presence, be it in concerts, albums or doramas, whatever he will do his best to show himself as much as he can, that the fans are reluctant to deny his past or even simply getten with him as if he were his property, it’s cruel because in my opinion these People don’t see him as a human being but as an object.

Please support him, respect his past and respect him. I don’t care who was group or what group he belonged to, I like it for being KIM JAEJOONG but I must respect his past and his present group so I want him to be happy, respect his friends, he is a human being, do what would make him happy.

Love Triumphs Chapter 7: Ruthless

Jared Padalecki x Reader

1150 Words

Chapter Summary: After all the hateful words, you aren’t sure what’s going to happen.

Story Summary:  AU (I love Gen, and love her with Jared.) Jared and Gen have split up, but are still friendly. You, the Reader have recently started acting on Supernatural, and have fallen in love with Jared. Both of you get hate due to the fact that you are much younger than he is.

Catch Up Here: Masterpost

It was hard getting up for work that next morning. After a mostly sleepless night, you had woken up before your alarm clock, seeing more notifications and even a couple of text messages. Wanting nothing more than to ignore them, you at least checked the text messages, seeing a couple from Jared, and one from your boss. Jared was concerned about you, needing to talk to you, while your boss was expecting a meeting as soon as you got to the lot.

Sighing, you rubbed your hand over your face. Today was going to be a horrible day, you just knew it, and the horrible things you had read last night kept running through your mind. People had been ruthless, mainly towards you, even though a couple had gone after Jared as well. Insults about going after an older man, about using him to further your career. You had been called everything from a gold digger to a slut, even a home breaker. You had always considered yourself a nice girl, one who was kind and cared about others. Having people say these things about you was hard to take, and you weren’t sure what you were going to do.

Slipping out of bed, you slipped on a pair of leggings, along with a sweatshirt. Throwing your hair up in a messy bun, you knew it didn’t matter. Make up would fix you up before you had to do any lines. If you had to do any lines, considering they might end your contract due to the negative publicity.

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That Thing That Thin People Do – Mean fat girl – Medium
This piece is meant to be in conversation with How to love a fat person by Your Fat Friend.
By Mean fat girl

“The default state of a fat girl to y’all is emotionally devastated. 

So you choose not see it when people are deliberately cruel to us IN FRONT OF YOU.

But DEAR GOD- Don’t let a fat girl be happy. Don’t let her be proud. 

Cause y’all can see that FROM SPACE.”

I really hope Lana tours this year. She says she has a lot of exciting things to still tell all of us. Only a few things and people actually make me happy in my life and obviously she is one of those few people. Seeing her live is just crazy beautiful. I don’t think I’ll ever stop going to her shows and I will probably always be front row, let’s be honest. This isn’t my video, but “Cruel World” was the second song I heard of Ultraviolence and I already knew this one would fuck me up good. Ever since then, it’s been one of top favorite songs officially released by Lana. Ugh it’s just so raw and you can feel everything she can.

QUESTION RELATED TO THE CONTENT WILL BE DELETED INSTANTLY

From now on I won’t answer the asks about the content like “Is this rape?” “What will happen next” “Will there be trigger stuff”.. The ask about “Oh Eli is so cute” “I love the story so on” are still welcome because I adore all your intention.

Anyway let’s cut the chase. In this fandom I won’t draw rape or triggered stuff because I don’t think it fits the theme. But remember that I’m still an original comic author, I will draw that if that’s necessary for the story and NO, I AM UNDER NO OBLIGATION TO EXPLAIN IT TO YOU. DO NOT GET IT WRONG, I’M A STORY TELLER NOT A TEACHER OR MORAL LECTURER. In one of my original story I drew a soldier raped a corpse, because that’s what a story about war needs to be. I will do everything to make a story stunning, even writing something I don’t like. Sure, I will put warning before hand so that people can be warned, but reading that it’s on you. I don’t think I have to explain myself about this.

Besides, I’d like you to interpret it the way you want, without any restrain from my side. Let your imagination runs wild, it’s free from the start. The story like that is there so that we’re more aware of the world we’re living in, and reflect upon our actions, or just pure thrills. It’s dirty, filthy, cruel, crazy… and yet it can also be heroic, manificent, happy… whatever it is, it brings a reality breath to the story.

There’s always an UNFOLLOW button for you to press and you shall never see my stuff again because I will never explain myself. All the best!

Originally posted by justalittletumblweed

Dear Trans People, Please Don’t Give Up, There Is a Light at the End of the Tunnel

I know how hard it is to struggle with dysphoria. I’ve had PTSD and panic attacks and anxiety so bad I couldn’t leave the house. Sometimes I would get so depressed that all I could do was cry and scream for 45 minutes straight with my whole body shaking. I used to have self-harm scars all over my arms, legs and stomach. I’ve tried to kill myself twice. I’ve been homeless. I’ve lost family members due to coming out. I’ve had to move to another state on two separate occasions just so I could get medical treatment. If you’re struggling with dysphoria right now, I know what you’re going through, and as cliche as it sounds, I want you to know that it really does get better.

It’s been six years since I started transitioning and just over a month since I’ve had my surgery. It was a long, difficult journey, but it was all worth it. My life is still far from perfect, and there are still plenty of things I don’t like about my body, but I’m content in a way I couldn’t even imagine a few years ago. I’m now able to look back at all the horrors I’ve gone through and realize how much stronger they’ve made me. I feel like I can face any challenge because I’ve already survived the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do.

I’m reminded of a quote from Lisa Simpson, “some philosophers believe that nobody is born with a soul - that you have to earn one through suffering and thought and prayer.” In a strange way, I’m grateful for having such a hard life. I never had the option of coasting through life without ever questioning who I am deep down or if I was on the right path. Because of all I’ve been through, I know who I am 100%, and how many people can honestly say that?

There were many times when I thought my life was just a cruel joke and that no one would ever accept me. There were many times when I thought I was just deluding myself by thinking I could ever one day be happy. There were many times when I didn’t think I had the strength to carry on for one more day. I was wrong, and now I’m so glad I persisted and never gave up.

So to everyone who’s still struggling like I used to, please know that you aren’t alone. You are stronger than you know, and even when you feel like you can’t go on, I know that you can. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, even if you can’t see it right now. I promise you that you can make it through this, no matter how impossible that might seem, and when you do, you’ll still have the rest of your life ahead of you. You have value and you have things to offer the world, so please, please, please don’t give up. I promise you won’t regret it.

you know i’m not even upset about the hug anymore. i’m upset because i’m seeing so many people hurt because of it. i can deal with my own hurt and disappointment but i can’t stand seeing people so heartbroken. that’s what makes me so angry. that because of the crap they pulled, so many people are hurt once again, and many people feel so disrespected and stepped on because of that hug. because it was supposed to be something happy. because it was supposed to be something meaningful. because it was supposed to be that “swan queen might never happen but at least we got a hug” moment for us. because it was supposed to be our consolation, something we could all happily remember even if swan queen doesn’t become canon. but adam and eddy took that away from a lot of people. so now instead of seeing people happy, i see people disgusted, angry, sad, and heartbroken. as if queerbaiting wasn’t enough to do the job. how cruel can you fucking be?

I feel really upset and hurt about Sungmin not participating in the upcoming album. Its not him that I’m upset at though. It’s the posers who call themselves ELF, but ended up hurting Sungmin in the end.

I guess I just can’t wrap my head around why they’ve been so cruel to him, and continue to be.

Are they angry because he’s happy? Because he found love and decided to marry the woman he loves? Those fake ELF clearly don’t care about Sungmin at all. And the fact that he feels it would be better if he didn’t participate in the upcoming album because people are mean… it just makes me feel sad. He doesn’t deserve any of the hatred he’s getting. The rest of SuJu must be so disappointed in the ones who are causing him harm.

Its like the antis that were against Henry and Zhoumi all over again. The hatred toward Sungmin is doing nothing but making him feel guilty, and for what? Getting married? I wish these girls would stop being so delusional. He was never going to marry them. They let their fantasies get to their heads, and now that he’s not single hes automatically hated. What a bunch of bitches.

So many girls got mad because he got married and they said he betrayed them. How exactly? He did absolutely nothing wrong. And so what if he kept his relationship away from ELF? It’s not any of our business. We don’t have to know about his personal life. Thats for him, not us. And if you think otherwise then you need to check yourself. He’s a human being, and deserves privacy. He deserves to be in love, and make decisions with out consulting his fans, first.

I guess what I’m trying to say is… Im just disgusted and hurt by what people have been doing and how they’ve been treating Sungmin. I wish I could tell him how important he is to me. I’d love to bring him even a little bit of sunshine in times like this. Just like hes given me time and time again.. :(

I just… really care about him. And seeing so much hate toward him for so long gets to me..

So we finally meet the Real Ciel.

Nice timing. I was starting to get bored.
And although I can’t say I like the way he appeared, pointing a gun to Soma’s forehead, I can’t hide the feeling of triumph as a 2CT believer.
As everyone else, of course, I’m worried for Soma, but I don’t think he’ll die. That would be too simple for Yana, and I don’t see why she would want to intrigue us by making this the last page of the chapter if he really died. She likely just wanted to put on a little tension.
What I think really happened is Agni probably pushed Ciel and he missed. The bullet must have either scratched prince a little, or hit Agni (I know, I know, I don’t it want to be true either but let’s consider all possibilities).
What I can say for now is that the appearance of the real Ciel was more surprising and epic than what I could imagine. He’s nothing like the happy boy we saw on family photos and in Lizzie’s memories. Not after his twin brother sacrificed him to a demon in order to save his own life.
Our Ciel was pictured as quite a cruel and arrogant child, but from this page only you can already tell how much more brutal his twin turns to be. Now it’s easy to understand that our Ciel actually has a soft heart that’s able to care for people, even though he’s trying to hide it so stubbornly.
He’s got a sence of justice and he would never shoot a person just for “casually touching” him, unlike his brother.
Could the reason for the Real Ciel to be like this be in his hatred and desire for revenge, or could it be in something else? Like… him having no soul?
If you put together Undertaker’s words about reviving a human without a soul, and the possibility of Our Ciel selling his brother’s soul to a demon as a price for the contract, it can very much point at the fact that the Real Ciel has no soul.

Oh what a nice little pal we got there!

So, anyway, he came to claim his property and name, so expect lots of fighting between Sebastian and Undertaker from now on.
Took you a long time, Yana.

And yeah, I’m back.

Finally Happy

Fandom: Marvel

Characters: Bucky Barnes x Reader, Natasha Romanoff 

Warnings: Alcohol consumption

Word Count: 860

A/N: I absolutely love this cover of Can’t Help Falling In Love With You and have been listening to it lately and was inspired, hope you guys enjoy. 

Y/N = Your name

Originally posted by whatwasdead

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