There are many reasons why you are unhappy. It’s mainly the lack of sunlight in your soul. The lack of staring up at the night sky and seeing the stars. The lack of good hugs and the lack of laughter. Well, the truth to the matter is, there are always opportunities to laugh, to smile and to love. There are opportunities to be free, even if it’s in the four walls you call home. Happiness is surrounding you, if you chose to see it.

The Reason Why You Are Unhappy by Amy Kennedy


Our notions about happiness entrap us. We forget that they are just ideas. Our idea of happiness can prevent us from actually being happy. We fail to see the opportunity for joy that is right in front of us when we are caught in a belief that happiness should take a particular form.

– Thích Nhất Hạnh

I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we really content. We continue to explore life, hoping to uncover its ultimate secret. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand. We like to walk along the beach, we are drawn by the ocean, taken by its power, its unceasing motion, its mystery and unspeakable beauty. We like forests and mountains, deserts and hidden rivers, and the lonely cities as well. Our sadness is as much a part of our lives as is our laughter. To share our sadness with one we love is perhaps as great a joy as we can know - unless it be to share our laughter.

We searchers are ambitious only for life itself, for everything beautiful it can provide. Most of all we love and want to be loved. We want to live in a relationship that will not impede our wandering, nor prevent our search, nor lock us in prison walls; that will take us for what little we have to give. We do not want to prove ourselves to another or compete for love.

For wanderers, dreamers, and lovers, for lonely men and women who dare to ask of life everything good and beautiful. It is for those who are too gentle to live among wolves.

—  James Kavanaugh, There Are Men Too Gentle to Live Among Wolves
Oscar Wilde once said that to live is the rarest thing in the world, because most people just exist, and that’s all. I don’t know if he’s right, but I do know that I spend a long time existing, and now, I intend to live
—  The Beginning of Everything by Robyn Schneider

Sooooooo since I’ve been in AZ (so almost two months now), I’ve been cutting back on heavy lifting and focusing on more of a fitness change. I love lifting, but my body and mind really needed a break from it. I definitely plan on getting back into a routine in the future, but for right now I’m taking it day by day and doing what feels most right for my body.

I’ve still been lifting 2-3 days some weeks, along with yoga twice a week (which I’m finally able to do more often again). I also walk A TON each day because of my job. It’s nice to remind myself that I have the freedom to choose how I want to be active.

Since I’ve been in Arizona, I’ve been hiking at least once a week. Last week, for example, ended up being a 7 hour round-trip of a hike with over 400 floors climbed and 14 miles walked. I consider myself to have a strong legs but they were dyingggggg by the end. (Something around 31,000 steps for the entire hike). @fitnika has touched on this subject before, saying that there are so many amazing ways to be active that don’t include staying in a gym. MOUNTAIN WOMEN, UNITE 🏔☀️

But here’s some selfies to remind myself that even though I’m not pushing through hard lifts as often as I was in the past, my muscles are still growing and supporting me in ways that I need them to.

These thunda thighs can carry me up mountains. I’m damn lucky and proud of them ❤️