hannibal decision

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Hannibal Advent - Day 30: Aperetivo

My justification for giffing this particular scene for the Hannibal Advent is due to the fact that Will is essentially telling Jack that his choices regarding his feelings for Hannibal and the actions proceeding them are not entirely conscious on his part. For instance, he iterates to Jack that it was not a decision to call Hannibal because decision requires a degree of conscious choice. His choice to call Hannibal was impulsive. However, this seemingly unconscious course of action serves to parallel a decision that was entirely conscious on Will’s part yet it was one he would not give voice to until this interaction. He wanted to run away with Hannibal; all his unconscious choices leading to this one very active and deliberate decision. He chose Hannibal above Jack, above the FBI, above the life he was living. He chose him because his feelings in regards to Hannibal were not and are not consciously decisive. He chose Hannibal because love is not a conscious choice. You do not choose to love someone. Love is an unconscious response which sets conscious decisions in motion. Hence the profundity of this particular interaction. 

anonymous asked:

Do you think Will is, as Bedelia said "not a killer; capable of righteous violence because (he) is compassionate" normally and that Hannibal's influence just brought something out in him that he never would have found otherwise? Or do you think it would have come out anyway? Do you think Will's a killer at heart?

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The mistake I see people make, again and again, when it comes to defining Will, is this: 

You can’t define Will. 

I know, I know!

It’s annoying, that you can’t get a solid yes or no or a straight answer about him, but that’s the very essence of a character who (in the words of Hugh himself) never knows he who is.

Morally speaking, he’s not black or white. He’s not even grey. He’s the full gamut of colours.

It’s funny, but no one seems to have this trouble with Hannibal. 

Perhaps because we’ve always seen him as Other from the very beginning, this strange creature who has his own specific nature which he has to follow. 

We accept that the reason for his actions is: because he’s Hannibal. 

But because Will was framed as the normal, everyman, when he does something that Hannibal would do, suddenly it has to be agonised over and picked apart. 

No. 

The reason he does things is: because he’s Will. 

Like Hannibal, he is a creature with a specific nature that he has to follow. 

In the beginning of this episode (which, to be fair, I think most of us were too busy reeling from the Will/Bedelia conversation to notice) Hannibal summed it up beautifully when he said: 

Will’s thoughts are no more bound by fear or kindness than Milton’s were by physics. He’s both free and damned to imagine anything.

His thoughts can go anywhere, and because they can, they do. It’s not a matter of choice, or morality. That’s simply what his Nature is.

It’s like when someone says: Don’t think about elephants.

What do you do? 

You think about elephants!

Now imagine that your imagination is so powerful that it can make the walls of reality melt away 

So that when someone says Don’t think about elephants 

you blink, and there’s an actual fucking elephant looming over you

you can look in its small wise old eyes, count its eyelashes, see the tiny dragonscale paper creases in all the folds of its hide, smell the straw, hear the crunch of its feet, the deep rumble of its breath, feel the cold of the massive shadow it casts over you, the gust of hot animal air as its waving trunk sways past your face, feel the earth-shuddering reverberation of its footfalls in your leg-bones, see the white hard outline of light that edges its ears when it flaps them, like clouds obscuring the sun, feel your knees going weak with that quaking little-child-gazing-up-a-rollercoaster vertigo of the enormity of the thing towering over you. 

The second someone says don’t think about elephants, 

there are actual real elephants.

Okay?

Are you imagining that?

Now replace elephants with murder.

That’s Will Graham’s brain.

There is a darkness - a violence - in Will, yes; because there is an everything in Will. 

Before he knew Hannibal, he was conflicted about this fact of his nature. He wanted there only to be the good things in him. He couldn’t accept that there would always, always, be all of the things.

But accepting all the things - the bad, violent, as well as the good, kind - gives him equilibrium at last. He is, like Hannibal, finally calm. 

This is why murder-husband!Will seems smoother and more elegant than nervy, highly-strung ‘trying to be a normal person’ Will. That man is nervy because deep down he knows he is walking a tightrope over the Abyss. Murder-husband!Will is calm because he knows he is perfectly balanced. He’s not afraid of falling. He could walk the tightrope with his eyes closed.

Righteousness and compassion are the connective tissues which allow Will to reconcile these two extremes in himself, morally speaking. And Will does have his own personal morality. He is a kind man. His instinct is to help the wounded bird, not to crush it. But he could do either of those things, or nothing; he holds all possibilities.

Righteous violence, compassionate cruelty; because they combine disparate (you could say opposite?) elements, he can indulge in them without becoming unbalanced. They balance each other out inside him. A tightrope walker can’t be carrying weight all on one side - it has to be equally spread.

So the murders he would prefer to commit would be righteous or compassionately motivated – Bedelia was bang on the money in that sense. 

This week he put someone in harm’s way merely because – by chance – his wandering, all-embracing/nothing-rejecting Thoughts whispered to him aren’t you curious…? 

To recoil from that thought and say ‘no! I’m not!’ That would be stacking all his weight on one side. He can’t do that, he’s a balancing act. His thoughts can and do go everywhere, down paths dark and light, good and bad, kind and cruel, safe and dangerous. 

Once that thought occurs, he has no choice in the matter. To be at peace with himself - to be true to himself, to follow his own nature - he has to go wherever his thoughts lead. 

He has to imagine elephants. 

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You have to convince yourself the lion is not in the room. When it is, I assure you, you will know.

Will’s goodbye

Hannibal: Do we talk about teacups and time and rules of disorder?

Will: The teacup is broken. It’s never going to gather itself together again.

Hannibal: Not even in your mind? Your memory palace is building. It’s… full of new things. It shares some rooms with my own. I’ve discovered you there, victorious.

Will: When it comes to you and me, there can be no decisive victory.

Hannibal: We are in zero-sum game?

Will: I miss my dogs. I’m not going to miss you. I’m not going to find you. I’m not going to look for you. I don’t want to know where you are or what you do. I don’t want to think about you anymore.

Hannibal: You delight in wickedness and then berate yourself for the delight.

Will: You delight, I tolerate. I don’t have your apetite… Goodbye, Hannibal.

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IDFYTI’s Top 10 Season Three Moments:

In at Number 10 - Will sails to Europe

Sums Will up really, cute and crazy. Why not sail to your serial killer stroke boyfriend across one of the most vast and treacherous oceans on the planet on your own in a tiny sail boat? 

Another of Hannibal’s moments where it’s emotional truth rings louder than any logical truth, but vitally important none the less. Will must make a journey, and although the conditions seem rough and unforgiving he is in his safe space, fully in the knowledge of what he is doing.

That or understandably Will isn’t allowed to leave the country legally.

impalaforthree  asked:

I keep wondering - if Dolarhyde had succeded at killing Molly and Walter, do you think Will would've been able to forgive him? I think at that point they are treading a very thin line and honestly I thought it was a stupid decision from Hannibal that could've made Will walk away for good.

I think Bella put it best in Mizumono when she was talking to Hannibal about forgiveness…

“Forgiveness is such a profound, conscious and unconscious state of affairs. You can’t actually choose to do it. It simply happens to you.”

And this right here is also what Bedelia was trying to say when she compared forgiveness to falling in love. Will has never had a choice when it comes to forgiving Hannibal, just as he has never had a choice when it comes to loving Hannibal. He simply does.

Will has already forgiven Hannibal for a lot. A LOT. So much that in reality it seems inconceivable for someone to forgive another person for even one of the things Hannibal has done to Will, let alone all of them. Over the course of their relationship, Hannibal has:

  • Taken advantage of Will’s encephalitis, something he smelled on him very early on, inducing seizures on purpose, getting a doctor to lie to Will about his condition, then convincing him he had a mental illness, all in his attempt to get Will to believe that he was a killer.
  • Framed him for murder, literally shoving Abigail’s ear down his throat in the process.
  • Allowed Will to believe that Abigail was dead for months.
  • Found out Margot was pregnant with Will’s child, then proceeded to insure Mason would take care of the situation before said child ever came into the picture.  
  • When Will finally found out that Abigail was alive Hannibal killed her right in front of him.
  • Gutted Will with a linoleum knife, and regardless of his possible intentions for Will to survive the attack, he did leave him to bleed out all over his kitchen floor.
  • Tried to saw his head open with the intention of eating his brain.
  • Sent Dolarhyde after his wife and eleven year old step-son.

Taking all of this into consideration, I don’t think adding “actually succeeding” to the last one would have changed things all that much, at least as far as forgiveness is concerned. For Will, the moment that happened they were taken from him anyways. 

Other things would have been changed as a result, obviously. Molly would have been dead and Will wouldn’t have been under any illusions that returning home was still even remotely possible. It’s hard to say what would have happened beyond that point though, and I almost feel like it’s pointless to speculate, but I don’t think it would have done much to change the inevitable forgiveness from Will. He can’t choose that he will forgive Hannibal for literally anything at this point, just as he can’t choose to stop loving him.