hannah plus

I never post on Tumblr, but this platform is the only place I feel like I can be myself. Recently I watched 13 Reasons Why. I never read the book, and I started it mostly because I heard great things about it and how they spread such an important message. I don’t know if I’ll spoil anything by accident, but I’ll give a warning just in case. This might be long, so bear with me.

The show is about a girl named Hannah Baker (as many of you probably know already). Each episode showed different events as to how she was treated by her peers, and she recorded tapes explaining basically who fucked her over before she ended up taking her whole life.

A few days before I started watching, I wanted to take my own life. I had it planned out, I knew the texts I was going to send my family and friends, and I knew when I wanted to do it. I thought I lost all hope in my future and I just didn’t want to exist anymore. I resonate with Hannah a lot. I really held on to her because I saw so much of myself in her. I wasn’t treated the greatest while I was in school (I didn’t endure some things that happened to her and I am very grateful). Every little thing you do or say to someone sticks. It’s not easy for them to just brush it off and move on, especially if you deal with a mental illness.

As I got to the episode that contained her suicide scene, I thought I was prepared. I just pictured there to be a little blood. I didn’t expect to see it all happen, and it killed me. It killed me because of how real it looked. I felt like I was watching it happen right in front of me. I had a full blown panic attack by the time I saw it and I know I’m not alone on that. It was fucking hard, but nonetheless very powerful. That stuff happens every single day to people who you least expect it from. This show proves that bullying can really do some serious damage on someone. It’s not something to keep quiet about.

After the show I realized how much I have in my life to appreciate. When Hannah’s mom saw her lifeless body floating in the bathtub, I realized that if I ever took my own life, I’d be putting my family and friends through hell. I realized that I have a purpose in this world, and even though I don’t see it now, I know it’s coming. I’m more important than I think I am. You are all important to people around you, whether you know it or not. So if you think you can handle it, watch the show or read the book. Space it out a little bit. Learn from it. Talk about it and never let the conversation die down. You never know how many people you can save from taking their own life just by being kind.

Sorry for the long post. This show made me realize how passionate I am about mental illness and bullying, and I don’t plan to stop talking about it.

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Stargate SG-1: Memento Mori (requested by she-was-a-rose and apicturewithasmile)

Part 2 : Jeff Atkins

The bell had just rang while Hannah and I got up to leave.
“Hey after you have practice thing you wanna meet up at Monets ? On me of course”
“Yeah, sure”
We both walked towards the exit door of the class when she started giving me ‘the eyes’
“Hannah stop I know what you’re doing”
“Oh yeah what am I doing” she answered smirking at me.
“Stop or I won’t even show up”
“ you wouldn’t ”
“Try me baker” I smirked
“Okay” she walked away from me toward the door.
I was curious to why she rushed out when it hit me shit Jeffs last period was across from ours.
“Hannah no ” I said a little to late for she already makes it to him as all the other students poured out ready to leave. As I walked over I heard her say hi
“Hey n/n ” •nick name -Jeff smiled then looked over to me.
N/n I thought what’s that about?
Before I could answer Hannah spoke for me,
“You know what I don’t think I can walk you out to your puff thing, Jeff could you do me a favor and walk with her I mean you’re already going the same way right?”
Thank god he wasn’t looking at me because as she spoke because I was burning holes through her head.
“Yeah sure no problem ” he turned to me as I changed my expression, and smiled at me which to I smiled back.
“Ok good and thanks, so bye guys ” Hannah said turning to go but not before she sent a subtle wink my way clearly taunting me over the ‘you wouldn’t’.
“Alright ,Ok lets go” he said as we started walking with me right next to him.
'god this is awkward ’ I thought to my myself as we simply walked side to side without saying a word for a few solid minutes. If I was being completely honest I was thinking about our oblivious height difference
“So I’m taking a guess you’re not very talkative” he told me with a slight chuckle.
“Oh no it’s not that I was just thinking ”
“Hopefully not thinking I’m strange or anything”
“Why would I think that?”
“You know sometimes people think it’s strange if someone they aren’t really familiar with knows their name and well I said your name while you were signing up and I had this question almost questioning feeling from you,,, and now that I’m saying it out loud it sounds really funny”
I decided just to laugh it out since we where at the doors and I didn’t quite know how to respond.
“Well I guess I’m going over there with the rest of the girls to change out, bye and thanks for walking with me”

Jeffs POV ~
I couldn’t help but smile at Y/N as she walked away she certainly was something else. I slightly shook my head getting myself back to normality.
“Ok time to practice”

///after practice///

Normal POV
“God I’m going to die” I said to myself as I dressed back into my normal clothes sore as heck and by the time I walked out mostly everyone had left already but I honestly did take my sweet time and I had no rush, plus making Hannah wait was a type of pay back. Not to mention my soreness while walking.
I walked out of the school toward Monets.
BUZZ
I took out my phone to see a text from Hannah so my idea had worked
Chica Baker Cakes 🎂 💖: Hey you on your way yet? 🙄
Mini Y/L 👑✨: yeah 😘 on my way I just got out.
Chica Baker Cakes 🎂💖: practice ended like 20 mins ago I swear you take longer than any girl ever.
Mini Y/L 👑✨: ehh you still love me 🤗 well im on my way, don’t complain or I’ll walk slower.
Chica Baker Cakes 🎂💖: Ok, see you here . Read 3:45

HONKKKKKKKK
I heard behind me making me jump. I turned to see who the hell had done that to me and to my surprise I saw no less and no other than Jeff.
“Sorry for scaring you”
“Well if it isn’t Atkins” I laughed “what are you doing still so close to the school?”
“I could ask you the same thing” he threw back
“I’m taking my time ”
“Same here, where you going?”
“Monets ”
“Really?, what a coincidence me too ”
“Really?”
“Yeah hey let me give you a ride at least, you know for scaring you ”
I smiled “are you sure you’re not trying to kidnap me Atkins I mean you already sneaked up on me” I joked making him laugh. God did he have such a nice laugh.
“I promise not to kidnap you today” he threw back making me laugh making me quote with my fingers as I spoke
“Today”
“Yeah today come on get in ”
“Ok” I smiled and walked across the street to get into the passenger side. “Thanks ”
“Yeah no problem” he said smiling and put the car into drive.
“So what do you think about practice?,, or wait better question what do you think about liberty? You’ve been here for like four weeks now right?” He said glancing at me while still looking at the road .
“Four weeks yes, and practice it’s actually tiring I haven’t done anything athletic in two months, and it’s okay I guess it’s high school I don’t think it gets any better than okay there ” I said
“Mhh I see” he said driving toward Monets.
“So where you from?”
“Y/H” (your home town )
“Nice”
“Yeah, you?”
“I’ve been here since ever”
“I see nice ”
“Yeah ” he laughed turning the car off.
“So two months uh”
“Yup I took two months off to go with my aunt in the U.K. I came back and moved here so my parents could be closer to they’re companies so that meant no cheer for awhile ”
I said as he just stared at my face for what seemed like an eternity after we made it to monets

Jeffs POV
Dear holiness I couldn’t stop staring at Y/N as she spoke
“You’re so pretty ” I thought out loud without recognizing it. Shit I said it out loud,I could already feel the pink spreading across my face when Y/N’s phone went off

Normal POV

I sat there shocked now his cheeks were the lightest shade of pink,when my phone went off I checked down and saw Hannah calling so I picked up
“Y/L where are you I’m waiting and my hot chocolate is turning very unhot ”
“I’m here see you in a bit”
“Ok just hurry ”
“Ok bye girly ” I hung up.
Jeff had already gotten out While I was on the phone and went to my side to open the car door for me.
“Thank you ” I said as I stepped out.
“No problem ” he answered rubbing his neck somewhat nervously. He closed the door behind be as we both silently walked to the monets door which I opened for him. He smiled at me the pink already gone had he not gotten pink?. He got the door from above where I was holding.
“After you” he said breaking the quiet
“I held it first ”
“And now I’m holding it”
“I’m not going in until you do ”
“But I’m a gentleman ”
“But I’m a lady ”
“Exactly go in ” he laughed
“Nope you go ”
Jeff laughed as he walked in and turned to me , “Y/N Y\L , you my lady are something else” he joked as I walked in after him. We both saw Hannah and Clay together
“Swear I can’t wait to see them get together, you can easily see them together” I said more to myself than out loud.
“You see it too? I’ve been waiting forever so one of them to make a move”
“I bet ,but no I must wait for my parents to get together”
“Parents?”
“Yeah Hannah and Clay always baby me since I’m the youngest so they’re my other parents ”
“Ohh , I see ” he smiled “Well lets go”
We walked over to them
“Humans!” I said making them turn to me
“Child!” Hannah replied as I pulled out a chair and sat down
“ Me and Clay ordered your drinks ” they said as they both held on to a cup of hot coco.
“A peach ice tea for Y/N” Hannah said sliding it across the table to me
“And a Carmel frappe for Jeff” clay said .
“Awwweee my beautiful parents finishing each others sentences ”
Hannah and Clay simply gave me “thee annoyed” look.
“Oh so I was actually checking with my parents and I can’t tutor you today my parents need me home so is it ok if I tutor you tomorrow with y/n?”
Jeff smiled and nodded, “hey totally man no problem I actually might have plans myself ”
'Plans?’ I thought to myself while sipping on my tea.
“Well since my precious munchkin y/n took so long I need to go help at the store”
“Ok mom” I said doing grabbing hands toward her as she stood up so she’d hug me.
“Bye guys” she said turning to them.
We turned to see clay gulping his drink down, “I actually should get going to, and ummm hey I can finally give you that bike ride” he said toward Hannah.
“Yeah sure helmet ”
Clay stood up and said his goodbyes and left with Hannah.
“Well that was shortly lived” I said making jeff chuckle
“Yeah”
“Well thanks for the ride but I think I’m due a nice bath ” I smiled about to get up
“Yeah but-” he starting making me stop
“I was wondering if maybe you’d like to go hang out in the park if you want to of course later after your bath”
“I mean I would love to but what about your plans?”
He only looked at me panfaced when it hit me
“Oohhhh”
“Yeah” he said smirking
“Ok yeah sure”
“Great … so umm…. could I drive you home right now?”
“Right, yeah” I said standing up while he did the same .
At the exit door he made sure to get to the door and open it before me and the same for the car door.
“Thank you Atkins ” I said smiling
“No problem “he said getting into the car as he took off.
"Ok so the address is y/a/n ” •your address name -
“Got it” he said, “hey you said you did cheer right?”
“Yeah funny story so um……..”
-time skip here with conversation-
We made it into my drive way
“Well thanks and I’ll see you at…?”
“Six work for you?”
“Yeah ok six”
I was going to reach for the door but he locked it making me laugh
“You said you wouldn’t kidnap me today”
“Maybe I lied ” he shrugged and got out to which I got the message
“Not on my watch Atkins” I said trying to open my own door again but he locked it and opened when he got there.
“I’ll get it one day” I said stepping out with my things.
“Thanks” I said when he Leaned in and gave me a hug .
((HA bet you thought I was gonna say kiss not on my watch ))
“See ya y/n”
“Bye” I said as he got back in and waited for me to go into my house. I took out my keys and opened my gate to go into my house

God what a day a hug and so much time sent with him I smiled to myself. As I got closer to the door I saw my mom grinning ear to ear good she saw that…

((So yes I did a part two already but I didn’t like it and it was terrible quality so I fixed it a bit sorry it took so long))
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Though I suppose it’s some strange irony that if he hadn’t died, it wouldn’t have made for nearly as interesting a book and I probably wouldn’t be here right now.