hammer & cycle

editsnsshit  asked:

If all 4 of Mark's main egos lived together explain what their day would be like. Morning, evening, and night. (hope im not getting annoying with these XD)

I JUST SAW THIS WHOOPS MY BAD. BUt no, these aren’t annoying. Feel free to send me more if you want :D

Wilford wakes up, usually with a hangover because he likes to party and literally doesn’t know when to quit. He gets up, sloppily makes himself a bowl of cereal before plopping down on the couch (in his boxers btw because he’s classy like that) and he stays that way until evening. Then he’ll either throw on sweats and annoy the ever living shit out of the others by pulling pranks or stealing their stuff and not putting it back. THEEEEN at night he goes out and gets hammered. it’s a vicious cycle lmao

Google literally spends every hour of every day online or doing something with technology. There is nothing else that he wants is programmed to do.

Yandere spends all night yearning over senpai, perfecting the shrine and figuring out ways to eliminate any and all rivals. He gets up early to watch senpai go to work/school/whatever place they’re going to and he follows them around. Then he goes home and daydreams, mindlessly spilling their thoughts about senpai. He doesn’t care what he says because they should be used to it at this point

Dark wakes up at a reasonable time, around 8 AM I guess. He gets dressed, cooks breakfast for the household because no one else knows how to use the oven/stove (even though he’s the only one that really eats what he makes) and he’s basically the caretaker, but can and will manipulate the others into doing something he doesn’t want to do. Then at night he might go for a walk and talk to any unsuspecting ladies he deems weak enough to fall for his tricks ;)


Needham and Atkinson 1881 rifle

Manufactured by Needham&Sons c.1880′s in England.
.450 Needham centerfire proprietary cartridge, ~16-round tubular magazine, lever action with two-chamber cylinder elevator and automatic extractor on each cycle.

Firing an odd bucket-shaped round, the Needham rifle is one of these equally odd firearms that I live for.
Simply put, it uses a lever action coupled with a cylinder not unlike the one seen on the Landstad 1900 revolver. This flat cylinder allows each cycling of the action to bring up a fresh round and bring down the spent one, ejecting the later, then chambering the former and loading the next cartridge in the lower chamber of the cylinder.
The ejector is a simple arm on the side of the hammer - in effect, each cycling of the action cocks the hammer twice, a first one to then knock the spent cartridge, and a second to make the gun ready to fire.


Landstad Model N°1 automatic revolver

Designed in1899 by Halvard Landstad in Oslo, patented the following year. Only one gun made.
7,5mm Nagant, 6 rounds removable box magazine/left grip panel and a flat cylinder with two chambers.

A pull of the trigger would first cock the hammer and cycle the cylinder - much like a double action revolver - and then release the hammer, firing the cartridge. The energy from the recoil would be harnessed to push back the slide, ejecting the spent round and loading another one in the bottom chamber of the cylinder. And somehow that would compete with a regular semi-automatic pistol.
… I mean visually it does and win, but you know.

Roleplay Stage Fright

I mean, that’s basically what that anxiety feeling is when it’s put into context.

I’m currently in a conversation discussing this with some friends, and it’s something that’s important to me currently, because in the last year I have been suffering from the worst case of RP Stage Fright since I started noodling around with OCs on message boards when I was 10. I have a clue as to why I’ve developed it, but I think it’s inherently tied to/is a form of “writers block” that comes about from creating in a social space.

I’ve sort of hammered out the cycle as follows:

  1. Person wants to RP but has been internally processing their writing and something is sticking out to them – a character trait, metaphor usage, diction itself – as not being adequate or ‘up to speed’ with everyone else.
  2. This thought sticks and becomes a background track whenever they write something, RP with someone, or do anything in that creative vein.
  3. In fear/annoyance/disgust/anger/anxiety over this trait, they do not join RP events in order to avoid being criticized, corrected, or shown to be inadequate (do you see, do you see the repetition).
  4. The power behind the perceived inadequacy grows and becomes fact. It’s so obvious to the writer/roleplayer – it has to be obvious to everyone else.
  5. RP opportunities continue to be avoided, even if they’re offered, out of a sense of sparing yourself and others the situation. If the individual does engage, there’s always a weird sense of internal anxiety about it.
  6. Repeat ad nauseum.

What’s interesting about observing this, particularly in writing it out, is how closely this reflects how the writer’s block cycle tends to go. Something presents itself as inadequate/worthless within writing and that builds on itself until it becomes an emotionless shame demon that is literally all you can focus on while you try and scrawl out a chapter. 

This form of writer’s block is just a bit more active, because it involves other people, and that’s where the stage fright factor comes in. Instead of being frozen in front of a word document, you’re in a conversation with actual people writing in real-time – and they want you to be a part of it. Immediately. Like now. And that is terrifying. 

I think there are a couple ways to not break the habit, but make it a bit easier to ignore the habit. That voice of inadequacy will get quieter over time, but you’ve got to work on silencing it. It’s unfair to expect a miracle to happen one day – that you’ll be able to write and roleplay with others like a dam’s broken. I hate that logic for one reason only, and it’s that it takes away your agency in the situation. You are so much better than whatever the subconscious shame demon’s peddling. If you don’t notice that, how can you expect others to?

Things to consider:

Holy Shit Two Cakes: This is easily one of my favorite posts on this site. No matter how much you think your writing sucks, I can 100% guarantee there are people out there who are going to be so excited to eat your word cake. Absolute certainty about this. 

Fake It Until You Make It: Every day say something nice to yourself about your writing, or find something that you like about a scene you were in. There is a trend within RP communities to confuse self-deprecation with humility. Don’t. Stop that. I will smack you with a newspaper until you stop. Your writing and your characters are just as viable as anybody else’s, and if someone else has told you otherwise, that is their damage. The more you take pleasure in your writing, your characters, and yourself, the easier it’ll be to ignore the shame demon.

Okay Maybe Write A Little Each Day: Don’t force it, but it really doesn’t hurt to keep your mind spry and your vocabulary usage active. It doesn’t have to be anything important in the moment, but it’s important you remain active, because it gives you more of an understanding of your character – and therefore a level of familiarity/comfort. Do prompts. Write drabbles. Find face claims, stuff quotes that remind you of your character in a “character bible” type document. 

I’ve got more ideas, but I’m turning this into a larger discussion for my LSQ blog.


Sometimes you’re the hammer, cycling down the Atlantic City expressway at 20 mph en route to what seemed to be a monster PR, and then sometimes you’re the nail, or a shard of glass, or something small enough to give me 5 flats after mile 26 on the bike.

Talk about damage control. It took all of my being to not throw my bike into the woods after the 3rd flat. Fuck me.

But I still finished. 10 minutes after my PR, but I finished. On to Chicago.