Sometimes I find it absolutely hilarious how early I realized I was not straight, versus how long it took me to come out.
I remember justifying googling “pretty lady” or something equally juvenile when I was ten as trying to learn what I would look like when I was older. And then justifying “I want to date a girl before I get married” as pure intellectual curiosity at thirteen. And “I want a husband and a girlfriend!” at fourteen as a silly what-if hypothetical. And just pretending “I feel like I’m half gay man, half gay woman” was because I was drinking.
Like hello younger self??? How did you manage to be homophobic, biphobic, transphobic, and think poly people were gross even past coming out?