half woman half man

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“I’m not going to protect you by being your shield or armor, but I’ll be the dagger hidden below your pillow.” - Tsukiyama Shuu 私に理由を教えて 🔫

Sometimes I find it absolutely hilarious how early I realized I was not straight, versus how long it took me to come out.

I remember justifying googling “pretty lady” or something equally juvenile when I was ten as trying to learn what I would look like when I was older. And then justifying “I want to date a girl before I get married” as pure intellectual curiosity at thirteen. And “I want a husband and a girlfriend!” at fourteen as a silly what-if hypothetical. And just pretending “I feel like I’m half gay man, half gay woman” was because I was drinking.

Like hello younger self??? How did you manage to be homophobic, biphobic, transphobic, and think poly people were gross even past coming out?

Shiva as Half Man and Half Woman (Ardhanarishvara)

Artist/maker unknown, Indian

Geography:
Made in Bikaner, Rajasthan, India, Asia
Date:
c. 1725
Medium:
Opaque watercolor with gold on paper

Philadelphia Museum of Art