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#NoShameDay 💫

Pic 1: three years ago, 2 years of dermatillomania
Pic 2: two weeks ago, 5 years of dermatillomania and 2 years of trichotillomania
Pic 3: today, two weeks having not pulled from my face (for the first time in 2 years)

So if you follow me on here you know that I am very open about my disorders, and I am so so grateful for everyone that’s ever given me any support because I am not so open about them off the internet.

If you don’t already know dermatillomania is basically compulsive skin picking and trichotillomania is compulsive hair pulling. It’s related to OCD and anxiety, but no one really knows why people with this disorder do it. I can’t explain the sensation I get because there really isn’t one…I just do it, and I can’t stop. It doesn’t just affect my face and scalp, you can find scars all over my chest, back, stomach, shoulders and arms, neck, literally anywhere. It can be really painful and messy, and it’s extremely time consuming. On average I will spend 2-4 hours a day locked in my bathroom, picking and pulling. It has affected my school work and has caused me tons of social anxiety, frustration, pain, embarrassment…it’s completely normal to see me walking with my hand on my head when it’s windy outside so my hair won’t flip up, I struggle showing too much skin, I’m always finding blood under my finger nails, and I haven’t had the guts to go to a professional hair stylist in well over a year (much to my family’s disapproval).

I fear that when I show my kids pictures of me at prom or graduation the only thing they will notice is my lack of eyebrows. I fear that I’ve torn myself apart so badly that I won’t be able to fully repair myself. But as you can see I’m starting to recover with the most success I’ve had in literally years, and I’m extremely proud to say it.

- Hadi seviyor sevmiyor yapalım…

+ Bunun yaprakları çok be.

- O zaman şöyle fotoğraflarını çekelim. Yuvarlak oluşturayım papatyalardan. Ama birkaç tane daha lazım (dedi kadın.)

+ (Genç ayaklanıp birkaç papatya daha koparıp getirdi.) Bunlar olur mu?

- Olur olur. Keşke papatyadan taç da yapsan. (Biraz sitemkar söyledi genç kız bunu.)

+ Ama ben yapmasını bilmiyorum ki.

- Hiç romantik değilsin. (dedi genç kız hala sitemkar sözlerle…)

+ Sana da yaranılmıyor. Daha önce kimseye papatyadan taç yapmadığım için bilmiyorum.

- Aferin o zaman. (Hafif tebessümle mutlu olarak söyledi kız bunu.)

+ Zaten anlamıyorum kızları. (bu sefer adam sitemkardı.) Papatyayı ezme dersiniz ama koparıp taç yaparsınız, köpekleri sever zincir takarsınız, kuş sever kafese koyarsınız, kedi sevseniz kızınca tekme atarsınız. En iyisi siz sevmeyin… (Biraz damarına basıyordu genç kızın.)

- Sevme o zaman Allah Allah… 

+ Hahh bir de kuyruğunuzu dikersiniz hemen.

- Sevme arkadaşım o zaman sevme! 

+ (Kolunu atıp boynuna eğdi başını ve saçlarından öptü.) Biz erkeklerde de böyle işte. Gülün dikeni elimize bata bata severiz… (Sımsıkı sarılıp öptü saçlarından tekrar.)



– Fatih Alıç - İçimdeki İnsanlar (Papatyadan Taç)

This Is (Not) Our Fairytale

The title is irrelevant because this seems like a combination of Rapunzel and Cinderella to me. I don’t even know how it happened. So like, there’s no singing and dancing like in the movies, but there are people towers. And there’s no Fairy Godmother, but there’s Midorima and the other Miracles…?

Summary: When Akashi was younger, he made a promise with his friend, Kuroko—that they would marry. But after a fire sweeps through the village, it appears that promise won’t be kept. …Or will it?

After thinking about DID and Akashi all afternoon, you would think that I would write a story about that. But no. Fantasy AU here we come. This is really long, by the way.

This is dedicated to the lovely Yami, as it is her birthday on the 30. Happy birthday! I know I already sent you a message, but I want to say again that I hope you have a great day. If you happen to see this, don’t worry, you don’t need to read it or anything XD I just wanted to dedicate something to you for your birthday. Have a nice day (everyone who happens to see this)!

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anonymous asked:

yES you can never have too many imagine blogs my friend. good luck! how about some good old relationship headcanons for the hosts to start you off?

Ahhh yes our first ask! Lets do this.

We have way more than this but in the interest of being vague and encouraging future asks about this we’ll keep it short >:] Even so it still ended up being really long hahh ah ah…. oops.

Tamaki:

  • This boy is all about that PDA. Kisses, hand holding, arm constantly hooked around your waist, clinging to you in tears when somebody is blunt with him, the whole shebang. 
  • Part of it comes from his natural need to be princely, but mostly he really just wants to make it clear to the world that he’s dating you. Not in a jealous way but in a ‘wow everyone look at me and my beautiful s/o plz look at us PLE ASE’ because the only thing Tamaki loves more than attention is you.
  • Two words. Pet names. It doesn’t matter what gender you identify as, you cannot escape his dumb clichéd adorable pet names. Darling, my sweet, prince/princess, beautiful etc. 
  • There is no stopping him. 
  • Don’t even try.
  • Don’t get mad when he continues to make googly eyes at the girls who come to the host club though. As Tamaki’s s/o you’re gonna have to swallow that jealousy because he is STILL a host and he loves being one. You cannot take him away from that, but rest assured that while he does genuinely think every one of his customers at the host club is beautiful, he tells you every day how phenomenal you are, and how he could never replace you. 
  • (the kisses he gives you after hosting are totally worth it don’t worry) 

Haruhi:

  • While Haruhi seems at first to be as laid back in this relationship as she is about everything else in her life, on the inside she’s actually quite nervous about the whole thing. 
  • That doesn’t mean that she doesn’t know what she’s doing, however, so while she always manages to choose the exact right moment to grab your hand or comment on how nice you look today, if you manage to stop your swooning for a moment to get a good look at her face you’ll see a blush absolutely CAKING it.
  • its rly cute.
  • Haruhi LISTENS. And she always makes an effort, so if you make an off hand comment about how much you liked those bagels in the cafe you just ate lunch in, or how long its been since you’ve gone to the park, don’t be surprised if she invites you out for a picnic there or shows up at your house with a container full of bagels she made herself.
  • She won’t admit it, but she really likes it when you stroke her hair and run your fingers through it. It helps her relax.
  • Please kiss her all the time it iS WORTH IT trust me.

Hikaru:

  • He gets jealous so incredibly easy its not even funny sometimes.
  • Of course this means that while it is awfully tempting to tease him about it you have to be careful not to overdo it because otherwise he will stomp off in a huff and not come back until either A) he finishes sulking or B) Haruhi knocks him upside the head.
  • Don’t worry too much though, this display of over-dramatic anger often results in an over-dramatic makeout make up session.
  • Because of the whole jealousy thing he, like Tamaki, has a tendency to make it clear that you are dating him at all times (partly to reassure himself that you’re still there because tbh while he acts super suave on the surface he is still kind of reeling from the fact that this is happening AN D WOW HIKARU we all knew it you’re just a giant dorky puppy)
  • Your first kiss (much to his despair) is actually quite sloppy because he thinks he’s a much better kisser than he is, and while he tries to play it off casually you can tell it bothers him and you kind of have to reassure him that its fine stud, it takes practise after all, you’ll get better!!
  • (and believe me he does get better w h o a h)
  • He is also a big fan of public teasing eyyooooo

Kaoru:

  • This rapscallion is well aware that many people are in love with his voice and thus takes any opportunity to whisper in your ear at the most inopportune times, just to see you squirm. ass
  • He doesn’t actually get jealous very often, unlike his brother, and is more afraid of the general possibility of you breaking up with him, but he hides this just as well as he hides all his fears regarding change.
  • He has a sixth sense for when you’re feeling under the weather, and while he doesn’t always know what to say, he always manages to be a comforting presence and he’s a very good guy to vent to.
  • He tends to be a bit overbearing at times and something of a mother hen in that he is constantly asking you about your well being (sometimes in a bit of a condescending manner) but if you tell him you need your space for a while he will try to respect it and leave you alone for the weekend
  • (’As long as I get one last kiss before I go, that is.’)
  • whoah boy does that leave you dizzy
  • he still texts you all weekend but hey he’s not on your doorstep demanding attention so it counts

Kyoya:

  • Kyoya has a tendency to overspend on your dates.
  • Like. A lot.
  • ‘kyoya when i said i wanted to go to disneyland i dIDN’T MEAN I WANTED YOU TO BUY OUT DISNEYLAND’
  • Okay maybe not exactly but he sure doesn’t scrounge on anything like wow Kyoya I thought you wanted to have lots of money please stop acting like you PISS THE STUFF.
  • (he probably does tho)
  • But seriously its actually kind of a big thing for him because you’re the only thing he ever really lets himself go overboard for and its all part of his long spiritual journey to getting that stick out of his ass.
  • He’s not much for PDA but he has a tendency to squeeze your shoulder whenever he walks past you and he doesn’t even seem to realise he does it most of the time, but if you feel something squeeze your shoulder y’all don’t even need to look up to know that your boyfriend has walked past on his way to ruin somebody’s financial life.
  • PS. being Kyoya’s s/o means that you are now both co-demon lords of the host club enjoy your new found power.

Honey:

  • Alright ya’ll probably guessed this but a date with Honey is a date with cake. There is no escaping the sugar. Ever.
  • Honey is really insistent on you guys feeding each other. He thinks its cute and a great way to show affection and it doesn’t matter how public of a place you’re in he will always insist on spooning cake into your mouth.
  • He also has a habit of kissing or licking the crumbs off your face and is very amused if you get embarrassed (’Awww ____-chan, you look so cute though!’)
  • He really loves it when you call him by his first name when you two are alone together (and he is not afraid to tell you or show you)
  • Cheek kisses and koala hugs all around. Good luck detaching him.
  • Mori is now your bodyguard and you have him and your tiny boyfriend to knock out anyone giving you a hard time.

Mori:

  • Mori, if it wasn’t obvious, definitely prefers to show his affection physically rather than verbally, but on the other hand I wouldn’t expect too much PDA from this gentle giant.
  • He prefers more subtle gestures, like always making sure he’s standing close to you, squeezing your shoulder or hand before he leaves.
  • That doesn’t mean that he doesn’t like YOU initiating the PDA, however. He’s used to Honey being affectionate in public, and while he may not return that kiss you planted on his cheek that doesn’t mean that it didn’t send his heart THUMP THUMP THUMPING.
  • He likes low-key dates. If you take him out for a park picnic or stargazing or a dinner at yours, the soft atmosphere will get him talking eventually.
  • And once he starts talking, he TALKS. You guys often end up staying up all night just murmuring softly to each other and just w ow its really relaxing he is really relaxing and he makes you feel safe okay.
  • Prepare for Honey to shower you with affection as well he and Mori are kind of a package deal okay cool

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