If Shawn got insecure in front of you, what do you think it would be about?
I think, maybe, when he is listening to all the fun things you’ve done with your friends, you know? When you talk about your late night get aways or road trips in the middle of the day or that one night before an exam where you all got smashed and ended up being kicked out of a bar.
Or talking about these times were your friends or family had been there for you and had your back, like when you were falling apart before an exam or a friend screwed you over or whatever.
Or if you chat to your friends or family about some of the highlights in your life. Like graduating or getting into Uni and stuff like that, because Shawn would get so insecure about your feelings for him or if this relationship was what you really wanted or if it was even good for you, because sometimes he’s just not there. it’s as simple as that. Listening to you talk about these things with friends or family would be times where he realize, just how much of your life he miss out on.
He’d start thinking about the fact that he wasn’t home for your birthday or the day you graduated or the day your parents had been married for 25 years. He missed those things, he misses being there when you were stressed out about exam or life in general and he misses being there when your friends and you did crazy things.
That’s when Shawn would get insecure about himself. Was he good enough? Did he do good enough for you? Was he letting you down? Would you be better off splitting up? Those awful thoughts would be spinning around his head. And that would make Shawn so insecure.
And while standing there listening to you and friends/family talking, he’d just grab your hand and wrap his fingers around you, trying to convince himself everything would work out in the end. But I do believe that these things, would be what made him the most insecure when it came to you.