guys im scremaing

oh my god my hands are shakign rn 

so work was bad yesterday and this happened and i just had to tell u guys somewhere im sorry im scremaing???

yesterday i watched three men die because one man sneezed in a room full of blood and shit and light.

no. it gets worse.

today 3 more go in and theyre holding these like super cheap mops, like this place cant afford anything better. it just made me fucking depressed like i don’t even get union pay and u make me use these mops??? like what????

. Yesterda, I watched a man I admired just like shot. because he left some chick a flower. like im literally screaming rn how can you do that?? all it was was like?? a flower and u shoot him?? im??

 Today, she doesn’t remember, and three halls down I can hear her screaming. (Im literally screaming rn))

and then the day before that i watched a group of soldiers like… they have to like shoot their own coworkers because of zombies and i was like wtf how is this real??? bjut its real i watched it if you dont believe me!1!!

. Today, we test another sample, this time on children. im criyng

so then like another day last week, as if this isnt’ bad enough,, I watched five men and women gunned down in an abandoned factory no one cares about. (I know no one cars about it b/c i was there okay,,, i saw,,)

 Today, it happens again and again. Every eleven seconds. Forever. ((9(can u imagine???))0

and like to top this all off it just keeps piling up., I watched a man sit comfortably in a nice armchair, sipping scotch and laughing as he ordered a woman to simply stop breathing and then today he gets the day off of work detail for good behavior like what?? is wrong with this place???. I watched hundreds of ppl in orange jumpsuits herded like animals into empty rooms that filled with gas and firebut then the next day hundreds more are told they have a chance for a lighter sentence, and a chance to serve their country (lmfao rite) like what?? does that add up??? no it does not .

so then like all this got to me in my mind and i was like okay this needs to stop. theres no way im the only one that sees like how fucked up all this is?? so i told my coworker, i took them to the side in the break room and i whispered in their ear and i was like look, yesterday i watched the world nearly die in a thousand thousand terrible ways. sometimes we would have had the time 2 scream. ive gotten used to it okay?? today u and i are alive to write about it.

and like they woldn’t listen to me they were like fuck u ur not the ethics committee i dont care. so i blocked them . ,

but here’s the thing like????? you want happy endings???? fuck you honestly???? they dont happen here like. You’re alive to read it. isnt that good enough. god help us all honestly 

so then heres the thing, this morning in the break room i was like, i told that to my coworkers to try to get them to see my side and they all listened and i was like holy shit im a martyr. so then i said really loud i was like “secure. contain. protect” and they all like nodded b/c they agreed and i felt better u know??? like im glad i could move these ppl. then the whole break room clapped

I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT IT’S ACTUALLY BEEN A WHOLE FUCKING YEAR SINCE TAYVIN FIRST MET??? AND SINCE THEN WE’VE GOTTEN TAY ATTENDING CALVINS SHOWS AND VICE VERSA, WHOLE FOODS TAYVIN, NASHVILLE TAYVIN, CONCERT TAYVIN, DATE NIGHT CANDIDS, NYC TAYVIN, CAR CANDIDS, SWAN GOALS TAYVIN, THE ‘MY GIRL’ TWEET, THE 'MY BEAUTIFUL GIRLFRIEND’ TWEET, THE 'SHE COOKS TOO’ POST, CHRISTMAS TAYVIN, 4TH JULY TAYVIN, TAYVIN SHARING AN ICE CREAM SUNDAE AT RHODE ISLAND, CALVIN GUSHING OVER TAYVIN ON LIVE RADIO, CALVIN DEFENDING TAYLOR ON TWITTER, TAYLOR ADMITTED THAT CALVIN IS HER PRINCE CHARMING, BBMAS TAYVIN, PHOTOBOOTH TAYVIN, TAYLOR WEARING CALVINS CLOTHES, NEW YEARS TAYVIN AND THIS PROBABLY ISN’T EVEN HALF OF WHAT WE HAVE WE ARE SO #BLESSED IM SO HAPPY THESE FOOLS MET A YEAR AGO