guys idk i'm sorry i.. wow

I think, for me, the scariest thing about an unrequited crush isn’t just the “oh no what if they don’t like me back” feeling but more so the “what if I never feel like this again with anyone else” feeling. Before I met the person I have a crush on, I was terrified of marriage. It sounded awful and generally not right for me. But then I met someone and whenever I see them I want to get married and I want that house and that white picket fence and kids and a dog <i> so bad </i>. It’s like nostalgia for something that’s never happened. But I’m so worried that even if they don’t ever like me back, that this was it, my one chance to want this, and then I’ll never want it with anyone again.


I was tagged by @ongsunged @yoonjsung and @darkpastwoojin to do the selfie thing and wow I’m sorry I took so long and I realized I don’t really have many good selfies lol (had to put a dog filter one bc… my face I’m sorry for it…..)

I feel like everyone has done this already?? idk who to tag tbh I’ll tag @parkji-hoons @dxnghyunnie @woo-jin-young ofc you don’t have to do it tho!! feel free to link me if you’ve done this already~❤️

anonymous asked:

what’s the most special thing about u and y-ngguk’s friendship? I’ve been best friends with my friend for 5 years and it’s nowhere near as funny and amazing as you guys !

um!!!!!!!! im smiling like an idiot!!!!!! this is so cute wow thank you

idk,,,the first thing that comes to mind is the whole name thing and the fact that we’re ten days apart and all that jazz. which is special! but,,,i think the most special thing is that we both listen to each other, that its not a one-sided friendship. 

i know that madison will agree with me bc we’ve talked about this before but in most of my “friendships” I’ve always been the one people come to when they want to vent or need advice and then when i need to they always vanish or they dot help at all and give me one word replies. but madison and i rely on each other and can tell each other LITERALLY anything which is really rare for me and is part of the reason i love her so much!! @y-ngguk


I tried you guys, I really did.

Last day in my tc’s class right? Of course today is the one day that everyone lingered long af at the end of class. Basically every damn day I’m one of the last of not the very last person in class, but of course I couldn’t have that luxury on the last day.

So I tried anyways but a few guys end up leaving with my tc so he could get them something so I panicked and turned around and said “thank you I really enjoyed your class” which sounds simple enough, but if you guys could’ve heard my delivery, you’d get why I’m freaking out rn. And to make it worse, he barely heard me so he was like “what? Oh yeah *half smiles*” and I could tell that he could tell how painfully awkward it all was. FUCK ME.

I wanna punch a wall. Why did I build it up in my head? I set myself up for failure. Just like I always do.

And that’s the last thing he will have heard me say for nearly a month. He’s probably thinking “wow what a fucking freak-weirdo that girl was. Glad I’m done with her.” Until I pop up in another one of his classes next semester and he’ll probably be like “fuck” and just pray that I drop the class. Shit, maybe I should. Idk if I can face him after that. Fuck you guys.

I mean, I know I’m overreacting but I can’t help it. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

anonymous asked:

What's your name? I feel weird calling you Squid with Elbows in my head.

Actually, I love it that somewhere in the world someone’s forced to refer to me as a squid with elbows, because the mental image I get from it makes me want to laugh hysterically. “Ah yes, that squid with elbows just posted something weird again.”

(Anyway to actually answer your question, my name is Heather.)

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u guys i’m sorry. this was done on august 3 wtf was i doing with it

only one i have left is george (omg and maybe john??? i hadn’t thought of that) and there is no closeup photo of him playing drums with a normal human face

if you ever see any, you tag me in it ok

anonymous asked:

May I possibly request like... an ot3 fic bout how the three of them started dating? Perhaps w/ Vivi + Lewis already dating and both being like "ohshit I like Arther too what do I do" until one of them can't handle it anymore and tells the other but the other is like "wow me too" and then they have to get Arther in on it even though he still thinks hes 3rd wheelin it. Bonus points if Lewis is alive somehow. IDK, all of this is real loose so pick what you like of it and I'm sure it'll be rad.

The Love goes around a fanfiction by mysteryskull-fanfiction

Authors note: Here’s one of the requests that I was supposed to post last night! I’m so sorry that it wasn’t posted but I have somewhere to go today ; v ; I hope you guys like it!

Rating: SFW

It was a hot day, and Lewis was staring at Arthur, watching him as he fixed the van. He noticed how the others muscles strained, how his eyebrows furrowed in concentration, and how sweat ran down his face, for some reason, to the bigger male, it was attractive. No, it wasn’t just those things, It was Arthur himself that Lewis found attractive. He didn’t know why since he was dating Vivi, but He just did. He didn’t even know he was staring at Arthur until the blonde spoke to him.

“Hey Lewis? Can you toss me a drink?”He asked, making Lewis blink and snap back into focus. Arthur stood up straight and stretched his arms up over his head, smirking at Lewis, who looked like a deer in headlights.

“I um, what did you ask me again?”Lewis looked sheepish as he had to ask that, a light blush dusting his cheeks as he gave Arthur an awkward smile.

“Toss me a drink, a Coke if you will.”he repeated, chuckling at his friend as he picked up a coke and threw it in the blonde’s direction, in which Arthur caught it easily, popping the tab and taking a drink from the can,” Thanks man.” Arthur set the can on his workbench and went to back to working on the van.

Lewis stared for a little while longer before getting up and going off to find Vivi. He needed to tell Vivi about how he felt about Arthur. He found her in the kitchen, making a sandwich,”Vi, we need to talk about Arthur..”

“What about him?”she was spreading some mayonnaise on one of the slices of bread that she held.

“Well..I-I was thinking..Ugh, jesus fuck, I’m just gonna come out with it, He’s freaking hot and hes a great guy and I know that we are dating, but I also like him, and I don’t know what to do..”he said it rather quickly and Vivi had to process his words before setting down her sandwich and wiping her hands off as she thought,”Vi, I’m so sorry, I still really love you but I-”

“Oh, no, its okay Lewis, I know Arthur is hot, and I actually am gonna admit that I like him too..I was thinking about asking if we could invite him to be in a Polyamorous relationship with us, that way he won’t feel left out and we can all be together happily.”

Lewis processed her words and let out a relieved sigh,”Thank god that you agree, and I hope that if we ask him, he says yes, because I don’t want to ruin our friendship..”

“Actually, I think I would be down with it cause I like you both as well.”Lewis and Vivi both jolted and looked over to see Arthur in the doorway, they looked like deer in highlights before Lewis spoke.

“R-Really? Y-You like us both?”Lewis looked surprised at Arthur and then glanced at Vivi, who seemed just as surprised as he did.

“I love you guys so much, You both are my best friends and your attractive, plus the bond between us is strong, so there’s no problem there..I suppose I should say that I’ve been wanting to do this for a while cause you know, watching you guys be love birds sorta made me feel like a third wheel..”Arthur stood there now, rubbing the back of his head and looking down sheepishly.

“Then I guess it’s settled huh? Lets give this Polyamorous relationship a try, shall we?”Vivi looked excited, clasping her hands in front of her with a loud clap, in which Mystery barked in response to.

Lewis and Arthur both nodded, big grins on their faces. It seemed like the love would go around from now on between the three.