guts to cry

okay but like genuinely though? i am floored at griffin’s presentation of the last episode. i know everyones jokin about the boys punching them in the gut and making them cry, but thats kinda exactly what im impressed by. i am not someone to ever usually cry from movies, tv shows, books, etc. i could probably count the number of movies that ive cried over on two hands. even then, sometimes “crying” is just getting a clogged throat, tears welling up in my eyes, that sort of stuff. but magnus’ death and reunion with julia? i was fucking weeping. the sudden question made my heart just fucking drop, and travis explaining how his idea of magnus’ death has shifted as his character has changed from something heroic to something peaceful and loving, to all his friends surrounding him and kravitz leading him to the astral plane, to the final reveal of julia…it was all so well built up and executed. travis did an excellent job leading it all along, too.

this really was a tiny moment in a nearly three hour long episode, but it was just so incredibly impactful and well put together. the emotional tension and energy made it so profound, and now the next morning, i am still reeling from it. i cant stop thinking about it. this is finally the ending magnus deserved. everything he was, everything he grew to be, wrapped up so simply and so perfectly. a tiny moment, and not something to canonically happen for many, many years to come, but still so important. something i did not expect, but am so glad it was included.

thank you, griffin, for this. i could go on and on about other moments in the finale, and i likely will, but this one was just so important. so, so, important. this is something that will stick with me for a long time. i never thought id be crying over a rowdy boy named after a play on words about ridiculous sideburns, but here we are, and i couldn’t be happier.

thanks to the mcelroys for everything they have done in this podcast and throughout. i am so excited for whatever is next to come.

A Better World

“Remember our plans to sail around the world on a boat? Take this book, get on a boat, and sail as far away as you can, to the edge of the Earth!”

On this Earth, my brother listened to me and took Journal 1 away from Gravity Falls…


An AU where everything is all fine and dandy, and they go to school like normal kids do?? that’s all I ask for c’mon

Part 2

Does anyone else ever see someone they really care about struggling to the point where they’re in tears? Like they just breakdown in front of you and want to give up on everything and you can actually feel your heart drop and stomach twist because you want to help but you can’t really do anything and you sit there feeling useless and it just gives you this horrible feeling in your chest…even when you’ve done a lot for that person and you’ve helped them and they say you’re doing enough…you still get that feeling and moment of not feeling like you’re good enough to help that person?

coming to the zones

1. The first thing that you notice is the stillness, the quiet- right before sunrise, right as dusk begins to fall. After the muted hum of the city, the pulse of electricity, the silence is unsettling.

2. After not eating for three days, you’ll find out what the inside of a rabbit looks like. You’ll throw up bile on the side of the road after you gut the animal, you’ll cry yourself to sleep with a full stomach.

3. You learn how to tell the difference between approaching footsteps and bushes being rustled by the wind the hard way. That same night, you are in your first firefight, you kill your first person. You stare into your campfire four hours later wondering if dracs even are people. The new blaster wound on your arm will be your first scar.

4. You feel like grime and sweat and dust have been ground into your skin, you don’t know if you’ll ever be clean again. You consider the morality of killing for a shower.

5. You get a car. You drive all night, just because you can, burning up more gas than you can afford. You don’t care, it’s impossible to care when you’re going 110mph down desolate two lane.

6. You bury someone that you love. Maybe, if the soil is too rocky, you burn them. Maybe there’s no time for any of that, you’ve gotta get out of you’ll be ghosted too, and you come back that night to find that their body is gone. It doesn’t feel real. You cry, and the little voice in the back of your head whispers that you’re wasting water.