gus x hazel

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about the blogger [three/fifteen] relationships: Hazel & Augustus
“She is so beautiful. You don’t get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you, you know she is. She is funny without ever being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers.”

3

There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There’s .1 and .12 and .112 and an infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. A writer we used to like taught us that. There are days, many of them, when I resent the size of my unbounded set. I want more numbers than I’m likely to get, and God, I want more numbers for Augustus Waters than he got. But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I’m grateful.

Me during bus ride home

*scrolls tumblr in bus*

*reads cute fanfic about otp*

*slams forehead on bus window*

*huge grin*

*internal screaming*

*slides down bus seat*

*friend notices weird behaviour*

*friend ignores because normal*

*gets back in position*

*screenshot for later use*

*continues scrolling*

2

"I just held her hand and tried to imagine the world without us, and for about one second, I was a good enough person to hope she died so she would never know that I was going, too. But then I wanted more time so we could fall in love."