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Okay so I know no one really cares but honestly you guys are like my second family on here. You all make me feel so welcomed and happy that half the time, I feel like we don’t just “know each other on Tumblr”. We click and because of that, there’s no other people I’d rather spend my birthday with than u guys. Thank you so much for everything. Love ya😘😘😘

Originally posted by asdarknessfell

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It’s no small feat.
It took a leader hiding pain and exhaustion under a careless laugh, an artist brimming with inspiration despite his tears, a friend with a big heart and warm hands to take away the difficult times; a dreamer with ambition and hope to inspire confidence, and an intelligent soul with the wisdom to make the tough decisions in a midst of awe and confusion, to paint this canvas. Here is to five incredible men who work so hard to fill the voids in our hearts with holes in their own. Here is to five brave men who stand to fight the odds again. Here is to Highlight. 


It really is still beautiful.

Listen, I’m a sanvers shipper to the max but in that last episode Supercorp was basically canon.

Like how is not this obvious in the writers room?

Flowers?!?! Really?!?!

Kara was literally about to kiss Mon smELl and she still had more chemistry with Lena on the couch.

  • Yellow: When I touch someone I can feel their feelings. *touches Gold's hand* You feel... love!
  • Gold: Yeah, I guess - Yeah, I feel a general unselfish love for everyone.
  • Yellow: No. Sexual love...
  • Gold: No. No, I don't.
  • Yellow: *points at Crystal* ... for her!
  • Gold: No!
  • Emerald: *begins laughing hysterically* She just told everyone your deepest, darkest secret! *continues laughing*
  • Gold: Dude! Come on! I think you're reacting a little bit!
  • Emerald: You must be so embarrassed!*continues cracking up*
2017 Phan

I like how the phandom has decided that 2017 is the year Dan and Phil will come out, move and get a dog (also possibly get married but like honestly isn’t that supposed to happen in 2022?). And whenever Dan and Phil say they’ll do anything (upload a video, do a joint lveshow etc) we get really excited and we’re like ‘YES, this is IT, guys. They are coming out as a couple. They are anouncing that they got a puppy, they got engaged and that they will soon move. I know it. I just KNOW it. I CAN FEEL IT!’. And then it ends up being just another pleasant, domestic, funny video and we just stand there like ‘wut’ for a bit and then we find a new thing to scream about (eg THEY WERE NOT WEARING ANY PANTS)

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This is my bujo spread for the week so far 💘

from my studygram

google search “7 boys who ruined my life”

Slytherin!
At first I didn’t want to be in this house. Because of everything they say about evil witches and wizards coming from slytherin… I did the Pottermore test like 100 times deleting my account and creating it again… Always Slytherin… I guess that’s what I am. So I read about the house and discovered that it was more me than I thought. All the values, ambition, greatness, the friendship. People don’t seem to know that in this house we can be good or evil or whatever we want. What make us slytherin are the things we admire the most… so where are my slytherins?

hazy eyes
with twice the strength
needed to read
and comprehend
not really thinking twice
when replying
cold fingers typing
eyes immediately closed

to a dream of a voice
that once warned you
don’t
don’t be weak
don’t think about soft things
like how your mother would love him
and you wake up

to a fever and scratchy throat
wondering how long has passed
when you see
the unexpected sweetness
or at least

to your sickly medicine coated tongue
it tastes sweet
even if it’s just for a little while

— ”I would probably still have forgiven you.”

dumping this here cuz i realized i shoulda just… dumped this here after i tweeted it.

but anyway yeah like…. what i liked about the anime was practically every episode (especially so in standard arc) had these really well set up cliffhangers to top off all the new exposition presented. this past manga chapter was just a bunch of teasing? like in the chapter before this one it was already implied that the boys were disappearing so i mean yes it hurts seeing it actually happening but we still didn’t get a reason as to why? the duel was nice, ngl, but i’m not super excited about it because it’s really obvious to me what’s happening (Biphamet or whatever it’s called is most likely treated as two monsters cuz ya know ‘bi’ or it cancels out any effects that target it at least once, whatever). again, i’m bothered they named this chapter “Yuya’s Memories” cuz… we got like 1 memory… and it was just, again, a tease. i get that it may be too early to show all his memories but like… then don’t name the chapter “Yuya’s memories” if you’re not gonna show us more than ONE. and again the “cliffhanger” at the end… well as I said, it’s pretty obvious to me…

anyway i just… idk.

I just remembered the part in episode 9 (attack on titan), where we are shown how Eren turned into a titan and how he felt after being eaten and I noticed the soundtrack in the background (Vogel im Käfig) and the lyrics of it and wanted to share my thoughts on it and how it was fantastically put together. So here you go.

Alles Lebendige stirbt eines Tages. 
(Everything that lives dies someday.)

This is the line the soundtrack starts with as we see Eren surrounded by death bodies while he is inside the titan he got eaten by. Eren is, of course, shocked, well no surprise there, who wouldn’t be. But I think the purpose was to show the naive Eren, who thought every one of his friends and him could survive, that, indeed, everything that lives dies someday. And what’s more convincing then actual dead bodies? 

Ob wir zum Sterben, bereit sind oder nicht. Der Tag kommt sicher.
(It doesn’t matter if we are ready to die or not. They day this will happened, will surely occur.)

And at this moment we see Eren be like: “No that’s not supposed to be like this” and how everyone who died alongside him, should be alive as they have trained all those years to be prepared for fighting those giant ass titans. But like the line in the songs beautifully says. Syke. Doesn’t matter if you ready or not, death will come. And it did with Thomas, Mina, everyone else and Eren. Or at least Eren thought he was done for as he didn’t know he was a Titan just yet.

Ist das der Engel, der vom dämmenden Himmel hinunter flog?
(Is this the angel who flew down from the twilight sky?)
Ist das der Teufel der aus der Felsenspalte heraus kroch?
(Is this the devil who crawled out of the crevice?)

Ok, in this scene we see Armin, the Titan who consumed Eren and a girl dying in front of Eren in the Titan’s stomach. Great, isn’t it? Well, to be honest, I am not all too sure, but I think the Titan is supposed to represent the Devil and Armin is like the angel, since he was the person that enlightened Eren about the outside world and arouse his interest with his sparkling eyes like Eren mentioned in the manga once. Like you know, saying that Armin was literally the angel that flew down to Eren from the twilight sky to give him a reason to live since we have been told that Eren was a kid that sat outside all day long watching the sky (I mean, I can’t really blame him, the sky in snk is g8) without thinking, maybe being depressed a little bit, just like a mindless titan in some kind of way or some deep shit like that. And it was that exact moment Armin came running to him with the book he found in his granddad’s study and took Eren out of his daze.

And like I said before, the Titan is probably the Devil, because you know they eat people and take their lives and shit. (And SPOILER: because Ymir Fritz made a deal with the devil so her people (Eldians) can become titans or at least that’s how the Marleys foretell the story. So Titan = Devil). 

Also, the girl could be crawling out of the blood? This part isn’t that important, it’s just something I have noticed.

Tränen. Ärger. Mitleid. Grausamkeit. Friede. Chaos. Glaube. Verrat.
(Tears. Anger. Pity. Cruelty. Peace. Chaos. Faith. Betrayal.)

Tränen: We see Eren’s mom (God fucking dammit, Carla didn’t deserve this shit.) and it sounds like he is about to start crying. Which he after a few seconds does. 

Ärger: He gets angry like always. He is like: “I will kill them all”. Like always.

Mitleid: am not completely certain about that but in his monolog, he says that everything has been taken from them and he is kinda’ pitying himself I think.

Grausamkeit: They show the scene from episode one again, where his mom gets eaten again. So it’s pretty obvious to me that that’s cruelty.

Then there is also this whole peace, chaos, faith and betrayal thing, which doesn’t happen in this episode but if you watch other episodes, you will understand what they mean by that and since I was planning on focusing on this episode specifically and I should be studying, I will not go further and spread the meaning of the song into the whole series, sorry? 

All in one he is feeling all those emotions and it almost seems like he accepted the statements the song has begun with in the beginning. Like you are going to die someday, even if you are Eren Jäger and his crew. And he even falls to his knees and cries. Almost, accepting everything. aLMOST!

Wir werden gegen unser Schicksal ankämpfen.
(We will fight against out destiny/fate.)
Wir dürfen uns nicht unserem Schicksal ergeben.
(We must not give into our fate/destiny.)

And when this exact line is sung by Cyua, Eren stands up again and those emotions all turn into anger and he refuses to accept that he is going to die here. Even though he is in a stomach without an arm and a leg, screaming that he will drive them out of this world with his own hands (jokes on you Eren, you are raising your arm up which doesn’t have a hand no more). But the main point is that he refuses to give into his fate, that he is supposed to die here and basically says that destiny can suck his ass. And it zooms out off Eren and we’re like: Ok maybe he will die. But then boom: eREN IS A TITAN. SIE SIND DAS ESSEN UND WIR SIND DIE JÄGER FOR REALZ. Cuz Mr. Jäger is about to hunt those titans down.

Mit Trauer und Entscheidung im Herzen, zeigen wir den Willen weiterzugehen.
(With sorrow and decision in our hearts, we show the will to move on.)

Sidenote: I have seen a few people translate Entscheidung into confidence which is wrong, but I get why they do it because how the hell can a decision be in your heart. The writer of this song probably meant that the decision is made because you do what the heart desires.

The Rogue Titan. That’s what we see now. Eren didn’t give into his fate. He should have died and he would have died if he had given up even though he has the Titan-Power within him. We all know that he needs a reason to turn into a Titan, he can’t just half-ass it. And this decision to accept the feelings of sorrow and anger (aNGER) gave him a reason to not give up and move on, even though every normal person would have thought they’re dead for good. But Eren’s stubborn mindset actually saved him. And I think it also shows us how he matured in some kind of way. He moves on because he accepts the feelings he has because of the death of his mom, Thomas and friends and that helps him turn into a titan. And then he screams like: “yEAH, I WILL MOVE AND LIFE ON.”

Niemand darf eigensinning seines Lebens beraubt werden.
(No one shall be stubbornly? deprived of their life.)

Sidenote: Eigensinning means something like going against the reasonable perception and I am not sure what they wanted to express with this word. I think they actually mean the sentence without this adjective but wanted to use it because it sounded pretty? Idk fam.

And in the end, Eren fights the titans who took the lives of many innocent soldiers and people. He fights for the people who got deprived of their lives and says that he will kill every one of those titans. So, in a way take their lives, which is kind of ironic. But this whole shit is ironic. 

Then he goes full Psycho-Titan-Eren mode and…

“I’ll kill you all.”

hey folks, serious fic question: if, say, a person, was to write, say, a thing about, say, avitus rix, for example, and the thing involved a mixture of two timelines JUST SPITBALLING maybe one in 2820 and the other one 2168 onwards WHICH IS ALL JUST BASELESS SPECULATION and say this person had a good 10k of this written and was expecting another 5k, just to hypothesize wildly, and their initial thought was that it would make a good thing to read all in one go what with the simultaneous timelines but then it just got longer and longer, is there any merit in this hypothetical pile of turian trash putting it out in shorter parts to make it more manageable? hypothetically obviously 

PSA

This keeps happening so I feel the need to address it. The very first rule on my rules page is “18+ only.” This blog deals with a lot of mature content, but most of all smut and violence. I like to smut. And even though I put it under a readmore, it makes me extremely uncomfortable for people under that age to have my NSFW writing on their dash.

If you are under 18 and you follow me, you are either saying you didn’t read my rules or you don’t care about my rules and peace of mind which, frankly, is shitty behavior. I don’t want to have to start blocking people, but I will. Consider this a formal warning for any underage followers! After this I will start auto blocking. Thanks!

despairforme  asked:

A very small mantis has made its way through the open window. He wobbles in the window frame. On the bedside, he can see a girl with pretty hair. Nnoitra hopes she isn't afraid of bugs. Though, the chances of her noticing him aren't that great. He is /very/ small after all. He's just thankful to be inside, since he has a feeling it's going to rain very soon. [ have a smol mantis! ]

@despairforme

She has been reading this drama for quite some hours by now  —she could swear she was hearing her mother scolding her for reading without the light on  —when she hears Merry’s voice downstairs telling the other servants to close the windows. Rather than wait for him to come up and tell her, she stands up from the bed and notices how gray the sky looks. She cannot help but shiver when her skin feels a chilly breeze, so her fingers wrap around the handles to close the window before the wind has a chance to break her flowerpots.

She turns around, ready to go back and finish that book when she catches a tiny green spot. It is difficult to tell what it is from where she stands, so carefully she kneels and gets closer to the window again, feeling how her eyes widen in surprise when she realizes it is a Praying Mantis. For a moment she stays there without doing much, thinking about if she should let it be or call someone to take it outside so it can roam freely on her garden. Even if it is raining. 

Or she could scream but she knows screaming will not solve anything but embarrass herself when the servants see she is scared of such a small, innocent bug. A part of her wonders why is it so cute and small. 

She would hate to be seen as a bad person. So instead of killing it, she takes one of her flower pots, putting it on her desk before she comes back with a magazine and a glass she was supposed to use, and carefully she puts the minuscule mantis inside the glass and moves it until the magazine covers the mouth of the vase, hurrying to put the bug in the flower pot. It deserves to live, just like her, and Merry! 

She gives the insect a quick smile moments after she has put on rain shoe covers, indicating she is about to get out of her home, walk to the library in the middle of the rain and get a book about Insects  —a book about Mantis would be great though  — so she knows what it eats. 

anonymous asked:

So I am ten thousand percent a fluff person but for some reason I just cannot get enough of your fics??? You just write so well that I like reading smut??? Ahhhh

I’ve been on your blog all afternoon and can’t get enough of it~

Go to sleep or read your stories. Guess what am I doing right now. Hint: it’s 4AM.

Babe we’re so blessed to have u. REMEMBER YALL WERE SO BLESSED TO HAVE DEE IN THIS FANDOM OK. i love u so much thanks for A LOT. gosh i can never thank u enough. Ily dee

Thank you all so much! :***

so @spacebreath had a longing for a hot third-year yamaguchi and I wanted to satisfy this longing but things went a bit out of haND AND THEY DON’T EVEN LOOK LIKE TEENAGERS ANYMORE SO here you have 30yo tsukkiyama
bless whoever come up with the headcanon of pigtail yama