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I’ll Help You. (SR)

Request:

Request:: A SUMTTTTTT where the reader and spence have been dating for a year sense she joined the BAU and she is still a virgin but he didn’t know that so when he went all out on her she got scared and backed away but in the end he helps guide her ;)

Warnings: Smut (Kinda changed it sorry love) not edited 

There was no denying that I loved Spencer enough to let him take my innocence away. But there was also no denying that I was afraid of letting it go. “Hey babe?” He asked across his cubicle. My eyes snapped up to his smiling face. I raised my eyebrows, “Hmm?” I hummed back in response. “Are you ready for our date tonight?” He asked wiggling his eyebrows. I nodded my head unsure, giving him a soft smile. “What’s wrong?” He asked, now look at me with concerned eyes. “I don’t feel too well.” I said placing my hand over my speeded up heart beat. “What’s wrong? Are you okay?” He asked walking to my side sitting on the edge of my desk. I shook my head covering my mouth with my hand. “I think I’m going to be sick.” I said getting up quickly, running to the bathroom. 

I ran to the toilet throwing up the contents of my breakfast. The pressure of losing my virginity made my body erupt with anxiety. I heard Spencer walk in behind me placing a hand on my back. “I think you should go home. We can have the date another day.” He said pulling back my hair. I nodded as he helped me stand up. “Do you think you can make it home or do you need me to drive you?” He asked me rubbing my back. I waved a hand at him. “I can drive myself.” I said taking a deep breath. “Are you sure? Because if you think you’re going to throw up again I can ask Hotch if I can take you home?” I shook my head again pushing him back to his desk. “I’ll be fine.” I stated grabbing my purse. “I’ll tell Hotch you threw up. I love you. I’ll come by after work to check on you.” He told me kissing the top of my forehead. I gave him a weak smile, waving goodbye to him. 


When I finally got home, I let the huge breath off my chest. I started to unbutton my shirt and unzipping my pencil skirt letting me breathe. I walked to my room placing the article of clothing on my bed. I walked to my bathroom running a bath popping in a bath bomb. I grabbed my toothbrush needing to rid the horrible taste in my mouth. I spit out the foaming paste and turned my attention towards the warm bath. I could feel my muscles ache and my mind clear as I stepped out of my panties and unhooked my bra. I slid into the warm, inviting bath and sighed in relief. My eyes closed as I let my mind wonder to the beauty that is Spencer Reid. 

I was snapped out of my trance when I heard a ring from my door. My eyes popped open thinking it was just my imagination running away when it dinged again. I quickly got up placing a silky robe over my now chilled body. Rushing to the door, I looked out of the peephole to see who it was. Spencer was stood there with flowers smiling. My heart fluttered at the beautiful gesture; opening the door. His eyes traveled down my body as he gave me the sweet smelling flowers. “I didn’t interrupt anything did I?” He asked nervously. I smiled and shook my head waving him in. “No I didn’t realize it was this late already. It feels like I just got in.” I told him as he followed me to the kitchen. I placed the flowers in water and set them on the counter. I felt Spencer’s hands softly land on my hips, placing her chin on my shoulder. “How do you feel?” He asked me, sweeping the hair from the side of my neck. I shrugged my shoulders and leaned against the counter top. “Fine I guess.” I said biting at my lip nervously. “Why are you anxious love?” He asked me rubbing his hand over my back. I furrowed my eyebrows and looked up at him. “What do you mean?” I asked him. “I mean, you were nervous at work. And right now you’re nervous, what are you anxious about?” He inquired softly, casting his beautiful brown eyes down on me. I started to pick at my fingers again as I bit my lip. “I know that’s why you threw up.” He stated quietly. I nodded my head and sighed. “It’s just, we’ve been dating for a long time now and I know you want to do stuff, ya know like intimate wise.” I told him crossing my hands over my chest. He raised his eyebrows and tilted his head. “I just am scared.” I said placing my hand on my neck. “Why are you scared? Do you not want to be intimate with me?” He asked sounding slightly offended. “No! I just. Ugh I’m a virgin okay? There now you know. Can I go back to my bath now?” I said quickly escaping the stare of his eyes. I walked to my bathroom and started to close it when a foot stopped it. “You don’t have to be afraid, I’ll help you.” He said taking my hand, bringing it up to his lips. “I would never try to pressure you into something. If you don’t want to do it now we don’t have to. I can just wait out here until you’re done taking a bath and we can-” I cut him off in a hard kiss pushing him backwards into my vanity. His hands grabbed my face pulling me closer and closer to him deepening the kiss by the second. He bit my bottom lip making me gasp allowing his tongue to explore my mouth. I moaned into his mouth as I felt his hands travel over my breasts to the tie on my robe. He yanked the lose end letting the robe unfold my body as he picked my back thighs up taking me to the bed. 

He disconnected from me and pushed the robe off my shoulders. I covered my breasts and stomach not loving the feeling of being so vulnerable. “Shh, I got you okay? Trust me.” He said wrapping his hands around my wrists uncovering my breasts. His lips attached to my collarbone and make soft nibbles all the way down to my breasts. “You’re so beautiful.” He said groaning pushing his arousal into my hips. I bit my lip feeling the warm wet substance dripping onto my inner thighs. I started to unbutton his dress shirt as I kept my moans in. “Don’t do that Y/N, I want to hear you.” He said unbuckling his belt and undoing his pants pushing them on the floor as I pushed his shirt off his shoulders. The heat rose to my cheeks feeling myself getting flustered. I searched for something to hold as my anxiety returned. Spencer placed his hands on top of mine intertwining them giving me a soft kiss. “Relax. It’s not going to feel good if you don’t relax.” He told me looking me in my eyes. I nodded and took a bog breath feeling his tip tease the entrance of my core. “If I hurt you at all, tell me and I’ll stop okay?” He said softly, letting go of one of my hands to brush the hair out of my eyes. I nodded at his request and I closed myself bracing for the pain. 

He rolled a condem and started to slowly push inside me stretching the muscle. He grunted softly biting his lips. I winced at the foreign feeling displayed in my core. “Are you okay?” He asked concerned. I opened my eyes and nodded holding his hands tightly. “Just tell me when I can move okay?” He said kissing my lips softly, taking my mind off the feeling. “Okay.” I said feeling him pull out of me only to push back into me deeper. I waited for the pleasure to come as I listened to his quiet whimpers and groans. As his thrusts came in deep, hard, and slow the pleasure coursed throughout my body making me moan. “There we go.” He said placing his forehead on mine. My mouth fell open as he continued driving into me deep and hard making my body shake with anticipation of my high. “I can’t hold any longer.” He mumbled against my lips. “Mean either.” His hips started to speed up thrusting upwards making my mind go blank as the oxytocin flooded my brain. My moans mixed with his whimpers as he pulled out of me, laying on top of me. “Was it worth it?” He asked panting. I smiled and closed my eyes feeling the close connection I felt with him now. “Definitely.”