anonymous asked:

Naruto, Sasuke and Shikamaru headcanons on how they would act when their s/o leaves on a particularly dangerous mission and after few months without news, they receive something like confirmation that you died (I'm sorry for such a sad request, but i really want some angst)

So I wrote this last night, and I literally found out my grandmother pasted away this morning – it’s just horribly ironic. She had been having heart complications for eight months before it got the best of her. But now I’m powerless to do anything since I’m four hours away from their home and I start college tomorrow. So I’ve trying to cope with it all day so far, but this whole headcanon really spoke to me on another level when I re-read it and I feel like it’s broken my heart. :(

It was a good ask though anon, and I did enjoy doing it yesterday a lot. Thank you. ~Admin Shadow

How Naruto Would React to His Partner Dying

  • When Naruto first heard the news, he would be consumed by anger. He would be upset that he wasn’t there to save his s/o – in his heart he knows he could have stopped it all from happening. Naruto wouldn’t want to blame anyone for what happened, but he would definitely confront the people who were in his partner’s squad and ask them how they could let this occur. He would probably listen to them, but he just couldn’t fathom how something this tragic could happen to someone he loved so dearly, the first step to grieving for him would be anger and frustration.
  • After a day or two he would probably calm down, but no amount of friendly support would really help him cope in the beginning. Naruto would probably cry privately about it a lot and if his thoughts drifted to them in public he would have a hard time keeping it together. Nothing would look as cheery and joyous as before, even ramen wouldn’t have the same flavor if he wasn’t eating it with his s/o. His happy attitude would probably be stifled for months, and it would take him a year before he could bring himself to actually smile and mean it. 
  • Naruto would be very loyal to the memory of his deceased partner. He wouldn’t try and replace them because Naruto knows he couldn’t. He would just begrudgingly try to accept the fact that they no longer are in his life.

How Shikamaru Would React to His Partner Dying

  • Shikamaru would probably just stand there wide eyed with his jaw open in disbelief. His mind would probably be racing through all these terrible scenarios of how things played out – and how he could have stopped it from happening in the first place. Shikamaru would be in shock for a few minutes, before he would start to cry and try his best to pull himself together.
  • Grieving silently is Shikamaru’s way of trying to cope. He would bottle up all his anguish, anger and frustration for a week before he just couldn’t take it anymore. It would probably just take some tiny incident for him to just snap and start sobbing uncontrollably. He probably would compose himself again in an hour after a good cry. Shikamaru would try his best to accept things – even though moving on would seem impossible, but he would make a sad attempt.
  • He would never be the same person, and for months he would he depressed and carry so much guilt in his heart because he should have been there for his partner. I don’t see Shikamaru as the type of person who would find someone else either, he just wouldn’t want to try a second time for love. For him all that effort to possibly have his heart broken a second time just wouldn’t be worth it.

How Sasuke Would React to His Partner Dying

  • Sasuke would openly deny it at first, to him it would be a bold face lie and he might even get insulted by the accusation. Not until he was presented with some proof would he realize it had some merit. He would definitely be shocked about it and wouldn’t even know what to say.
  • He would probably cry about it privately a few times, but he would quickly accept it as a reality. It wouldn’t be beneath him to hunt down the person who was responsible for his s/o’s death – getting justice is very important to Sasuke. For him any form of retribution would bring him very close to consolation.
  • There would never be another person Sasuke would really love again. He wouldn’t see the point in getting attached to anyone else – the thought of losing another lover just sours his desire for anything romantic and intimate ever again. 

I’m performing in a local dance festival this weekend. Oddly enough, it’s at the same venue where we had my childhood dance recitals. Sitting in the auditorium during the other dances was fine. But I felt off on the way home. I realized that coming out into the lobby had brought back vivid memories of my mom greeting me after every show, always with a bouquet in hand. She won’t be there this time.

anonymous asked:

What about Lupin? Lupin, who lost everything the night James and Lily died, who forgave Sirius, who died in battle?

Lupin, who shaped himself as a caretaker, who had rage and shame running under his skin, but held his hands out, palms open and out, who spoke gently to frightened children.

Lupin, who was left with no one to look after but himself. Sirius had been the wildness Lupin wouldn’t allow himself to be, James the noble arrogance he couldn’t afford, Peter the sharp teeth.

Remus and Lily both knew about falling in love with big hearts, rough hands, and potential, about loving these brave boys who had so much growing up to do.

Lupin, who got furious about it all sometimes—furious at Sirius for his betrayal, at Peter for his stupid bravery (later: those blames switched), but at Lily, too, at James, for dying, for leaving him here alone. Brave, brave children, that’s what they were. Lupin grew older, got wearier, and knew in every aching bone that they were too young to die.

When Harry met the ghosts of his parents and the Marauders in the Forbidden Forest, on his way to his own willing death, they were almost the same age.

Harry stood before his ghosts and they could see eye to eye without anyone stooping down. He had his father’s hair and his mother’s bright eyes and they all had this war heavy on their shoulders.

He had come so far, so well, so bravely. He had so far to go. It broke Lupin’s unbeating heart. 

Lupin lived his whole life blindingly aware of his scars—the way the ones on his face made people stare, the way they were the handwriting of his curse, the way the ones on his heart pinched and pulled if he didn’t move carefully.

Lupin was as patched as his clothes, as battered as his luggage. The world tore him apart—at four, leaving clawed scars and a curse in his veins; every full moon, his very body tearing him apart and making a monster in his image; the moment, repeated over and over, when realization brimmed in another person’s eyes and he was booted out of a job, a lodging, a friendship, a life; every sneer in their eyes, every lowered voice and shudder.

The world tore him apart and he put himself back together.

When they told him the news about Lily and James, Lupin finished the mission he was on before he went to Godric’s Hollow. He stood in front of the Potters’ ruined home and fell apart in the cold streets.  He picked the pieces up, slowly, over years and years.

In the first half hour, he remembered how to breathe. He picked up his composure sometime the next week. He patched together nights of sleep. Sometimes the stitching couldn’t hold; sometimes he couldn’t pull himself out of bed in the morning.

Remus kept picking himself up and patching himself together. Today, he walked by a beautiful woman with long red hair and when she laughed he didn’t flinch with sorrow. Today, he made a joke, the kind James would have collapsed at and Sirius would have smirked at. Remus patched himself together, scars and sorrows, kindnesses and chocolate. 

We are the ways we rebuild ourselves. 

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Really hard to hear from someone who has been hurting you when there’s still a part of u that just wants to be friends again even though you’ve been grief blogging about his shortcomings in being love for like the past 3 months

anonymous asked:

why the hell are all these fakes came out of the woodwork upon hearing zayn's answer? Where were they when Zayn has to go through it? Nobody realised that he may not have a choice before? In fact, some actually says zerri were obviously real because they went through with it unlike Louis's nonono answer. Oh well, at least now they realised it's part of the pr. Let's see if they gonna side with the rayl team when future stun' happens.

Anonymous said:I’m just sitting here watching these larries who were so adamant zerrie was rayl like a couple of months ago but only exploited (they didn’t even have a reason why) and zayn didn’t like that since he’s so private but all of a sudden the engagement is fake! no, wait the entire thing is a fauxmance for LM promo! took them long enough. these group thinkers smh. It’s really about time they woke up on their own and smelt the ziam roses because they’re truly glorious________________________Anonymous said:why is everyone all of sudden noticing that zerrie is not real or at least really damn shady when we’ve been saying it for years. so when zayn/ziam blogs who focus MAINLY on them say it, we’re not being truthful or overanalyzing but when larry blogs say it, it’s 100 percent real. they’re the brains! and then use it just to prove more about H&L. they honestly don’t care about zayn or liam or even “zerrie”. wow.________________________

LOL. Like I said earlier, I’m seeing that bargaining stage of grief with some Larry blogs. Some are willing to concede that the engagement is fake, but not that Zerrie or Sophiam are fake. Some are willing to concede that Zerrie is promo, but not that it also serves as bearding. And in all of that, Liam’s reactions to the engagement talk mean absolutely nothing. 15 months later Liam is still taking it personal, still getting annoyed and still throwing shade but apparently it’s a non factor. He also has a girlfriend who is a girl who is hawt. Nevermind multiple hometown sources connected to Sophiam have expressed their doubts about the authenticity of their relationship. Remember when Harry’s friend threw shade on social media? Wasn’t that considered important to Larry bloggers? Remember Eleanor’s phony backstory as a model? Wasn’t that lie considered evidence of shadiness to Larry bloggers? But Sophia’s fake backstory as a model isn’t? Remember when all the promo Eleanor did was considered evidence of her being a Modest employee? But when Sophia does it, that’s just how Modest rolls (as if Modest automatically has that kind of power) and it’s not significant? Ok. How about that Zerrie? Remember all the times Zayn has been asked leading questions in interviews and still needed an assist from his bandmates (except Liam) to get him to spit out some reference to Perrie? Remember all the photoshopped pix of the happy couple? Remember the HJPR manufactured (brought to you by the Sun UK) fake cheating scandal publicity stunts? Remember Liam at Zayn’s 21st birthday party? Remember Perrie not being there? Remember Zayn’s fam skipping Perrie’s birthday party? Remember Aunt Zileh’s pro Ziam Instagram activity? Shall I go on?  Anyway, people are free to think what they want. But it’s the need people have to explain away everything going on with Liam and Zayn as if that makes Harry and Louis more “real”  that’s just ridic. What you see is what you see. It’s exactly what it looks like. And that has nothing to do with Larry and doesn’t diminish their relationship at all.     

Every now and again my spiritual work leads me into new things I have to work on. Recently I’ve been trying to get to the bottom of a few problems I’ve been having. By doing this I’ve uncovered something both shocking and important about myself.

I have never grieved for any one or thing I have ever lost. 

Family, friends, beloved homes and places, either though death, or the natural order of things. So I’m working on grieving. The only real problem is that I have pretty much no idea how to grieve. Or rather, how I grieve. The only way I could think to start is by writing stuff down. So I’ll be writing a few things under readmores here as I practice. If you feel inclined to read them please note I’ll be talking about death and other sad things here. I honestly don’t know if any of them will be triggery but I will try to tag as is appropriate. Feel free to like the posts but please don’t reblog. 

Thanks. ^__^