tfln where harry drunk texts y/n after a messy breakup?
Thanks for the request babes! I hope this breakup is messy enough…
Thank you to @harryspirate for beta-ing!
Babyyy where r ypu??
I hav a drimk waitinf for youuuu
Harry, stop drunk texting me
Baby!!! We’re at a oub an theres a drink witf your namee on it
Who are you with that they let you drink so much?
Grims n Mitch said I couldhaveas much as I wanted t get over u
Harry, why are you texting me? You don’t want anything to do with me, remember?
Yessss I want you
No, you don’t. If you still think you want me in the morning when you have a pounding head, I’ll listen. But I’m not doing this right now
Babyy come t the pub
No, Harry. Goodnight
I’m sorry about last night, I never wanted to bring you into that. Hope you’re doing okay.x
I’m fine. You were really drunk…
Believe me, my head is getting that message across
Please take care of yourself. I know you think you’re superior to the almighty hangover, but we both know you’re not
I stayed at Nick’s last night, he’s making a full brekky
That’s it? Okay? We can’t have a normal conversation?
Our “normal” is us not talking at all, you made that very clear
Yeah I know I did…
Please say something
God Harry, what do you want me to say? That after all of the shit we went through I still want you? I’m trying to move on and I suggest you do the same
I can’t, love
Try, for both of us. And please don’t call me that
I have tried. I fucked up and I’m never going to forgive myself for what I did
I can’t keep going around in circles with you. First you don’t want me, then you do, then you don’t. Obviously you don’t know what the fuck you want
Even if you figured it out, I’m not sure I want to hear it
What if I wanted you back? Wholeheartedly, undoubtedly, 100% for sure wanted you back, then what?
Seriously? I don’t think I could trust you again. What you did is still something I can’t wrap my head around, like I can’t figure out how anyone can do that
What happened before isn’t going to happen again, I swear it. Baby, please believe me
You swear that you won’t abandon me, up and leave and go to another country for two months without telling me and write an album about past relationships and act like I never existed?
You swear that you won’t dodge the topic of us whenever your own mother asks? You swear that you won’t act like you’re ashamed of me? You swear that you’re not going to give me some crap excuse about you needing your space and leaving?
You swear you won’t get our friends involved and make them do what you should’ve done all along and talk to me about what was going on? You swear you won’t suddenly move house and have strangers come and pick up your stuff?
Harry, you left me for two months with no warning and no contact. I can’t comprehend how you do that to someone you claim to love. There’s no way you could’ve loved me if you could leave me the way that you did.
I shouldn’t have to beg or wait around for you to treat me like you should’ve in the first place. And stop calling me love and baby. You don’t get to do that anymore
Don’t you dare say I didn’t love you, you know I did
That’s bull Harry. Since when does love equate to abandonment?
It doesn’t and I know that
You saying you know what you did was wrong doesn’t tell me why you did it, but I’m not sure I want to know either
Well I’ll tell you anyways. I did it because I figured if I told you about everything that was going to happen, like tour and promo, plus the movie, you’d eventually get tired of dealing with it. Everyone does, so for me it was easier to just get it over and done with before you had a chance to hurt me
So you decided to hurt me instead? Yeah, this whole situation makes loads more sense now. Thanks for clearing that up…
Did you really think I wouldn’t support you? That we were just something to occupy your time with while you weren’t off being “Harry Styles”? Did I ever give you the impression that I was going to get tired of you?
Of course I wanted you to support me, but it’s hard to do that when I’m not physically there. Texts and FaceTime only go so far and we wouldn’t have been able to be together. I couldn’t ask you to come to Jamaica with me while we wrote the album. I couldn’t ask you to join me on tour. It made me feel like you’d be doing the giving and I’d be the one receiving without being able to give you anything. I didn’t want you to resent me
Well you’re doing a great job with the whole not resenting you thing. Harry… why didn’t you tell me all of this. So much heartbreak could’ve been avoided if you’d been honest with me
I’m being honest with you now. I know that might not count for much, but I need you to know that if there’s anything I can do to salvage what we had, I’ll do it.x
If there’s one thing you can do, it’s give me time. You need to be absolutely sure that this is something you want because I will not let you pull that stunt on me again
I understand. I already don’t forgive myself for doing it once, I won’t do it twice
If we have a problem, we’re gonna talk about it no matter how difficult it is and no one’s going to leave out of anger or fear
I can live with that
You’re gonna have to live with it if you want any, and I mean ANY, chance of us being together again. I mean it, Harry. You only get one strike and we are done indefinitely
I think that’s completely fair. If I’m honest, I didn’t think you’d ever want anything to do with me again. I owe you a lot. Thank you for allowing this.x
You were the greatest thing to ever happen to me, that’s not something I’m just going to forget. But I’m also not going to let you walk all over me. One strike, okay?
Noted. Is there any chance of me seeing you soon? Just for a coffee or a movie night?
Yes, but not right now. Probably not in the next couple days, either. But yes, soon.
I know you’re skeptical, but I promise you with every fiber of my being I will make this right. I want this to work more than you know.x
When the time is right I know you’ll show me. As skeptical as I am, I’m also looking forward to us being around each other again as friends. I really do miss you
I miss you too, love
Sorry… it slipped
And pretty soon I’ll be okay with you calling me that again. God knows I’ve missed it
Good to know. I’m letting you call the shots, it’s the least I can do. But please don’t leave me waiting too long
I won’t. I’m not going to punish you, you’ve been doing that to yourself enough for the both of us. Give me a week to sort through my thoughts and we’ll go from there?
Sounds like a plan. Thank you again for considering giving us another shot. Means more than you know.x
Don’t have to thank me, I think you’ll make it worth it. Talk to you soon?
Talk to you soon.x
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