I don’t consider myself that smart or educated of a person, yet I fall in love and become a fan of people who are. so many of them use references I don’t entirely understand or just talk about a lot of things I might not fully understand because I don’t entirely relate. like how could I possibly be such a huge fan of somebody who I don’t relate to or connect with on the same level as other fans do? how do I have the right to call myself a fan?
I think about this all the time and really what it comes down to is that I care about passionate, loyal, and hard working people with a strong message. I love intelligent people who have a great knowledge and sense of the world. I love people who care about what they do and I love seeing them share their passions and creativity with us. whether that’s music, comedy, drag, etc..
I may not entirely relate to these people, but I strongly admire their craft. these are the kind of people I’ve always been most fond of, even as a kid.
every time I see fans relating to things that I simply can’t, I feel envy. I feel envious because that’s something I want. I want to properly understand their message or their art on both an emotional and intellectual level. but most of the time I can’t. therefore it makes me feel like I don’t truly deserve to ever meet those people. and while that may sound silly, I couldn’t explain to them why I’m getting emotional about seeing them in person. I don’t have a relatable story to tell. my reasoning for being emotional isn’t necessarily easy to explain. like yes I’m happy because this human gives me joy, but to go into detail about me enjoying strong passionate people would take a long time.
i don’t know how much sense I’m making here. trying to put these thoughts into words is difficult.
you might think that because I’ve always enjoyed and admired creative people that it’s because I’m also creative.. well I don’t know about that. I think I’m more so the person who can appreciate it from an outside perspective. I can appreciate it with an open mind. not necessarily because I’m the same way or because I’ve experienced it.
“Resist. Resist these invaders with everything you’ve got. They come with empty promises and closed fists. They promise to make our world great again and yet they know nothing about the people who make this world great. They think they can con us and if that doesn’t work, what, they’re going to beat us into submission. They have no idea who they’re up against.”
Ok, first off, I adore the sense of humor, it’s just so goddamn golden, it’s over simplified and it knows it.
It’s almost like he’s mocking academics and scholars agonizingly going every tiny detail of history and arguing over the molecules.
He glosses over it, but there are these brief seconds where you can absolutely tell he’s studied it carefully and trivialized it in a meaningful way, like, he brushes over a lot of shit, but he knows he HAS to, and how does he do it?
By making really clever one-second story gloss-overs.
I just adore it.
I remember more of AP World history than I care to and boy, was this fun.
Thank you so much, I really enjoyed 20 minutes of my life there, I just think these videos are great.
Maybe they’re not as detailed as people who’re cramming for AP World need, but…it’s great on timelines and letting you know the chronology of shit.
Plus it’s funny enough to get you a little more interested in parts of history you’re not conventionally taught, right?
I mean seriously, he covers so much ground in such a great way that you’re compelled to figure out what he was referring to…
today, some classmate i barely knew hugged me. like out of nowhere. and it was probably one of the nicest acts anyone has ever done to me in years.
i was just mindlessly walking and she stepped up to me and opened her arms to someone she didn’t even really know and she hugged me. i don’t even know why it meant so much to me, but it really fucking did. and it was a really good hug, like. i had no strong opinion of the girl, but now i’ve gained so much respect for her.
i can’t get over how bizarre and freaking selfless the hug was. i didn’t even realize i needed it until i got it. and the way she just, like, held me. like she didn’t let go. i was super unsure at first if i should have hugged back. it was weird at first, well, not weird. unexpected. and i was completely caught off guard.
anyways i don’t even know why i’m sharing this and obviously this entire post is just a scattered mess of introspection, but yeah so. what really fucking made me break was that she just held me (ish) there and she thanked me. just thanked me. like she just appreciated my sheer existence. yeah. i can guarantee that that was probably one of the most impactful moments of my life that i’m grateful i ever got to experience.
the whole happening was just so calming and heartwarming. and kinda perfect? i don’t know. and she played it off really good after, too. so it wouldn’t be like awkward or whatever. she joked about how she was gonna follow me on instagram because i was cool and i told her i’d follow back and like all her pictures cause she’s awesome.
and yeah. that moment made me feel like i was something for the first time in a while. she probably doesn’t know how much what she did had helped me. today was the last day of school and i don’t know how i’ll be able to thank her. but i’m just really content now. and i hope this feeling is something i’ll be able to share with others.
Now, I can imagine that you’re feeling afraid, and feeling like your world is spinning out of control. But, believe me, you have power. And right now, you have a job to do. Resist. Resist these invaders with everything you’ve got. They come with empty promises and closed fists. They promise to make our world great again, and yet they know nothing about the people who make this world great. They think they can con us. And if that doesn’t work, what? They’re going to beat us into submission? They have no idea who they’re up against. Aliens and humans, we need to band together and we need to stand up and fight back. Everyone needs to be a superhero. Everyone needs to get up and say, “Not in my house.” Let’s prove to these thugs that we are strong, and we’re united, and we are not going to be conquered. And, Tiara Woman, if you and your little minions happen to be listening, you have come to the wrong town. Yeah. I’m Cat Grant. Not going anywhere.
if you currently identify as bisexual but feel like you might actually be lesbian, that’s okay! you aren’t “tainted” by any past experiences you may have had. you’re not a prude, and even if you end up realizing you aren’t lesbian, it’s perfectly normal to be unsure of your orientation.
and on that note, if you identify as lesbian but feel like you might be bisexual, it’s also okay! sometimes it can be confusing to distinguish between compulsive heterosexuality and a legitimate attraction.
if you end up realizing you are lesbian and just suffering from compulsive heterosexuality, it doesn’t make you a prude or a fake.
all wlw are great, lesbians are great, bisexual women are great. if you’re a wlw that isn’t too sure about what to label yourself, you’re still great. and this 100% includes trans women/transfeminine people. the world is a volatile place and it can be confusing at times, but you aren’t alone.
INTP: Dude, live a little. Stop hiding in your numbers and facts no one cares about. Also fewer details. But still, your brain is the coolest thing. Brainstorming with you is one of the most fun activities I can spend time doing. Who the heck cares if we didn’t end up making that Role Playing system, it was fun discussing theoretical mechanics of magic for 3 hours.
ENTP: Duuuuuuuude. You either SUCK as the looseriest looser of all losers or you are a ton of nerdy, chill, sociable fun. 10/10
ENTJ: Where are you? Probably somewhere more successful than me. From the one or two I’ve observed you look super cool and successful and put together. Well done gentlemen
INTJ: CALM DOWN. You don’t have to hide in a dark room just because there are people outside! Though, when you aren’t hiding from others, you are like, the best person to conquer the world with. Fun, Intelligent, and oh so delightfully logical.
INFP: Man you are fun. Like, there is not a single type that makes me giggle with silly glee more. Also, the only type to have a relationship with based on memes. Most excellent.
ENFP: Eww. Stop being so happy. The world is not great and people suck and just stop having so much optimism. Idk why I just have a hate for you. Nothing personal.
ISFJ: Ummmmm. You are nice and sweet? But pretty boring? So yay you? Also can be hella passive and manipulative, so boo you
ESFJ: Oh my god. Just stop. I don’t care if Timmy’s brother’s mom’s said that you were failing her. You aren’t and you are great and you try too hard for too many people. Super sweet but you try way to hard.
ESTJ: You are pretty sweet and GETTING STUFF DONE and it blows my mind but no to relax I would not like to chat about my goals and current objectives.
ISTJ: You are a human calendar/reminder/notebook thingies with one or two shy quirks. Please be happier and don’t freak out when people don’t write out lists for you.
ESFP: You are tons of goofy fun in short doses, then I just get angry with how stupid you are.
ESTP: Bruh. You are like the sexier more active version of me. I dig it.
ISFP: You have such a simple beautiful view of life. I’m not good at communicating in colors but it’s actually kinda nice even if I can’t rationalize it. Also, you like animals more than people so that’s.. yay?
ISTP: I wanna be you. You are cooler, sexier, smarter, everything that I have the potential to be but no drive for. Rock on Mr backflip genius doctor sexy man!
ENFJ: Honey… please calm down. It’s okay you aren’t dating anyone and it’s okay you aren’t making a difference. You are pouring yourself into like 20 people and super chill and high-class hipster.
INFJ: I just wanna keep you safe and let you do your silly change/save the world thing while I keep all the bad things away from you. You are too pure for the world.