Anche quest'anno è arrivato San Valentino e non sai da chi farti regalare una rosa o ricevere un biglietto con un “Ti amo”. Io, però, voglio dirti una cosa: San Valentino è la festa degli innamorati e… che ne pensi di iniziare ad amare te stessa?
Innamorati del tuo sorriso che, anche se non appare spesso sul tuo volto, è capace di infondere così tanta serenità.
Innamorati del tuo sguardo che vale più di mille parole.
Innamorati del tuo nasino: un ragazzo lì fuori desidera lasciarci un bacio.
Innamorati della tua chioma di capelli: ci sono ragazze che pagherebbero per averli come i tuoi.
Innamorati dei tuoi occhi, specchio della tua anima.
Innamorati delle tue gote, che assorrano ad un minimo complimento.
Innamorati delle tue labbre: qualcuno sogna di far concidere le proprie con le tue.
Innamorati del tuo corpo che, sebbene presenti qualche difetto, non potrebbe essere migliore di così.
Innamorati del tuo modo di pensare, del tuo modo di fare.
Innamorati delle tue perfette imperfezioni. Innamorati.
Innamorati di te. Non hai nessun motivo per non farlo.
Innamorati di te, perché se non ami prima te stessa, non amerai mai bene gli altri.
GOTing+ we will be heading to a fan meeting,” Jaebum explained as you held the
camera in front of him. Jinyoung moved forward, joining Jaebum on the screen.
“It’s always a
happy feeling to be meeting with our Ahgases,” he added, putting his arm around
Jaebum’s shoulders. The leader nodded his head with a smile.
“Lately, our Ahgases
have been greeting us with nicknames.”
chuckled as Youngjae walked through the door.
“And here comes
our Sunshine right now!” Jaebum called with excitement.
“In our latest
comeback music video, Never Ever, Youngjae wears a white peasant-cut shirt,” Jinyoung
explained to the camera. “And he dyed his hair light-colored so in certain
lighting Youngjae looks like an Angel.”
at Jinyoung’s expression as Jaebum pulled him by the arm to stand with them in
front of the camera. You tried to hold in your chuckle, as Youngjae came
forward on screen with his bright smile. You could just imagine the PD-nims
editing a halo over him already.
yourself, Sunshine-sshi,” Jaebum teased, making Youngjae laugh with
this is Got7’s Youngjae,” he complied, still laughing.
his tongue. “No, no, you are…lovely shining Sunshine Angel, Youngjae!”
Youngjae collapsed with laughter at Jinyoung’s straight-faced exaggeration. You
bent down, focusing the camera on Youngjae. The PD-nims always teased you about
focusing too much on Youngjae, but you couldn’t help yourself. After years of
filming Got7 through all their reality shows, you had grown to love the boys,
but especially Youngjae. You loved capturing his contagious giggles, his bright
smile, and his silent, open-mouthed laugh that never failed to make your heart
You used to say
you were just a fan, but somewhere along the way, as you got closer to the
boys, the friendship bloomed into something stronger. You kept the camera on
Youngjae, waiting for him to compose himself.
You grinned when
he made eye contact with you before looking back at the camera. “Ahgases keep
calling me Sunshine. Is it because I like to wear yellow? I think yellow looks
good on me though. Doesn’t it?” Youngjae tried to explain. He glanced at you
again for reassurance. You sent him a small smile.
away, seeing Jaebum smiling at you off screen. He sent you a playful wink and
you rolled your eyes back. Out of all the guys, Jaebum was the only one who had
caught on to your favoritism for Youngjae. Whenever you weren’t busy filming he
would tease you about it and it always annoyed you that you never had any good
lines to say back. Instead you’d just turn red in the face and stutter
You turned the
camera back on Jinyoung.
“Okay, we are
off to the fan meeting now. We shall see you guys there!” Jinyoung announced as
Mark ran to the camera to cover the screen with his hand.
The guys clapped
in unison as you turned off the camera.
As you began
packing the camera away, you heard a light sound. It was so soft and quick that
you almost missed it. Almost.
You turned to
Youngjae who was squatting beside you still, even though the others had already
gone to the van.
“Why are you
another sigh. “Not you too.”
fiddling with your things, looking at Youngjae more seriously now. “Is
everything okay, Youngjae?”
He shrugged his
shoulders and huffed. “It’s just…I don’t know, it’s nothing really.”
“Oh come on,”
you say as you take a seat close to him. “My ears are always open, even for ‘nothing
chuckled reluctantly, looking away from you and to the floor.
“I don’t know,”
he heaved again. “I sometimes just hate that nickname.”
Really? There’s worse out there you know. Markiepoo,” you muttered the last
word under your breath but Youngjae heard and he laughed. You smiled at the
reappearance of his bright expression.
Youngjae began again. “Do I really suit the name Sunshine?”
You were about
to begin your rant about how he was literally the center of the universe, the
energy that kept everyone’s life at bay, basically the sun itself, when
Youngjae’s phone began ringing. He smiled at you apologetically before raising
his phone to his ear.
“Why are you
You could hear
Got6’s shouts and laughter echoing from his phone. Youngjae groaned again as he
hung up. He glanced at you with annoyed eyes.
“The van left
without me,” he explained.
You laughed. “Savage!”
“Can I catch a
ride in your car?” he asked. You gave him a knowing smile.
“Of course, we’re
all going to the same place,” you said as you got up and lent your hand out to
help Youngjae up. “You can actually catch a decent nap in my car anyways.”
chuckled as took hold of your outstretched hand. He walked over and grabbed
your camera bag and purse. You smiled as the two of you began walking back to
your car. It was silent for a while as you focused on Youngjae’s legs, matching
your stride with his.
began. “Don’t tell Jackson this, but you know you’re my favorite right?”
to you with arched eyebrows. “What’s this all of a sudden?”
You glanced at
favorite!” you declared firmly, making Youngjae chuckle at your cuteness. “And
it’s not just because you’re handsome, okay?”
“Oh really?” he
chuckled quietly. “I bet my handsomeness plays a pretty big role though.”
The two of you laughed
as you approached the car. Upon entering though, you try to keep a serious tone
again, which was hard considering the fact that Youngjae’s presence in itself
made you smile intuitively.
“When I first
started working as your VJ, you were the first to welcome me with a big smile.
And that one time when we went on break and I sat by the piano just out of
curiosity, you sat down next to me and taught me an entire song, which by the
way, I still can’t play,” you glanced at him quickly before turning your eyes
back on the road.
laughed. “Okay, so what’s your point?”
we had to film in the rain and you gave me your hat even though you just got
your hair done at the salon?” You continued, ignoring his question. “Oh, and
remember when you took Coco to the park and she chased after a bunch of kids?”
chuckled. “I got them to learn an entire Got7 choreography.”
laughing so much. I was laughing so
his head to look at your profile as you reminisced over the memories. He had no
clue where you were going with your random stories, but he liked how happy you
looked while telling them. He was kind of glad the guys had ditched him. He
lived for car rides with you.
what I’m getting at is you’re just a really awesome, caring, humble, talented
You were glad
you were driving because by now the heat rising to your cheeks was volcanic.
You hoped Youngjae couldn’t see how red your face was turning.
“But Sunshine is
still a bit much,” Youngjae insisted quietly. “I can’t be a Sunshine all the
time. I feel like Ahgases have built this image up…They’d be disappointed if
they found out my true self.”
Taking a hand
off the wheel, you placed it over his hand and squeezed it gently. Youngjae
blushed at your seemingly nonchalant gesture. Your hands were cold but soft. He
put his other hand over yours to warm it up.
You smiled at
the feeling of his warm hands. “Youngjae, we’ve all heard the songs you’ve
written. Ahgases know you aren’t all sparkles and rainbows.”
You stopped at a
red light, taking the opportunity to look into his eyes.
“You’re you, you’re
human. We all know that, but that doesn’t mean you’re not amazing still,” you
grin, rubbing your thumb against the back of his hand. “You never have to force
yourself to be a Sunshine for anybody. Your existence itself is the sunshine in
people’s lives. You, just being you,
fills people with happiness.”
at you with embarrassment. The lines coming out of your mouth was making you
blush too, but they were true. You turned your head and continued driving.
taking exaggeration lessons from Jackson,” Youngjae chuckled, dismissing your
words out of embarrassment. It was weird to have you talk like this about him.
Usually the two of you only joked around and teased each other.
You tapped your
finger against the wheel, looking ahead thoughtfully.
whispered desperately. “Hear me out because I’m being serious. I can’t speak
for all Ahgases, and you’ll just dismiss me anyways, but one thing I know for
sure is that you’re the sunshine in my
life. Seriously, some days the only reason I can push myself out of bed and go
to work is knowing that I’ll get to see you.”
You took a deep
breath, trying to calm the racing of your heart.
just being you, makes me more happy than I think you’ll ever understand.”
deeply as you parked the car at the back of the fan meeting venue. You sunk
into your seat, still staring straight ahead as you were now suddenly aware of
how sweaty your palm was, still between his.
Youngjae bit his
lip, trying to control the wide grin that was spreading across his face. “Y/N…was
You looked at
him with wide eyes and tried to pull you hand out of his, but he quickly caught
your hand again, intertwining his fingers between yours. He smiled cheekily.
sunshine in my life too!” he cheered happily before exited the car, blushing. You
smiled as you watched him run into the building to join the other boys.
You sighed into
your seat one last time before exiting the car to grab your camera equipment in
the trunk. You weren’t sure you’d be able to film steadily with your heart
still racing, but you were glad Youngjae’s spirits were back up.
I’m already use to this new face texture. He may be paler, but he is alot more detailed, and I love it. Also been setting up alternative outfits for followers in my game. I don’t know why, I just enjoy trying to find some armor and weapons that fit that character. Also did some more posting of “The Boys” now featuring Bohan.