Reflecting on my scores.
Honestly you know what.
I should be happy with what I got. But I’m not happy with what I got. And neither are my parents.
Whoa wait let me rephrase that. I’m not happy with what I got because my parents are not happy with what I got.
I mean, I know I surprised my teachers because although I have potential (god I hate that word), I’ve never shown in. Right until my mock exams I was scoring a 28. But now my parents are like, but you didn’t get that 7 in math (which I’m bloody disappointed about), and you could have got a 6 in physics. Which would have got me a 40.
But man, considering the amount of effort I put in, this 38 is no short of miraculous. My 6 in english lit was pretty lucky, because I know my paper 2 was shit (I did not study for it) – although even if I say so my self, my IAs must have made up for it; my 6 in hindi is pretty fucking hilarious, and my 6 in economics must be a miracle because paper 1 and 3 were a disaster (but micro and macro are my favourite part of the syllabus guh).
But I suppose I should look at the positives. I got my diploma, despite the fact that my CAS was not very satisfactory (in my opinion, of course). I got the full core points. I got an A for my VA EE in english even though I only decided my topic in the August of my senior year (and submitted it waaaay after the school internal deadline). Plus I had close to no help because my supervisor didn’t know english or any shit (he had no experience). Furthermore, I personally did better in physics than expected. Honestly thought I would get a 4 (and as time passed I thought I’d get a 33).
Even better, although I don’t get any credits for my SLs at the college I am attending, I get up to 12 credits for scoring 5 and above in my HLs, (around 3 gen ed courses fulfilled). So that means I have to do only 9 out of 12 gen ed courses.
To put things in perspective, I got my diploma, I did better than my predicted (I’m not sure exactly how much that is, but yeah), I did get a small scholarship for college, and I am going to college.
And I also did a lot better than some of the arrogant assholes in my class and some people who looked down on me because of my mediocre grades can’t say anything now hah but I really shouldn’t be petty about things.
I am happy about what I got, even if my parents aren’t.