got nothing done on my to do list

When I wanted a laptop in high school,
My parents shook their heads and told me,
“You can’t get everything you want.”
So I got a job, saved up five thousand dollars,
and bought both a laptop and a car.

When I hated myself for having depression,
I sat in countless waiting rooms, even though
they gave me anxiety. I got out of bed
when I didn’t want to and confided in friends
when all I wanted was to be withdrawn.

When I told myself I wasn’t smart enough
to go to college, when I wanted to drop out
because I had no one to turn to,
I wiped my tears with paperwork and
made Dean’s List four semesters in a row.

I have always done the impossible
because the world told me I couldn’t,
and I told the world that hard work
can get you anything you want.

So when you told me there was nothing
I could do, I kicked and screamed
and clawed at your skin until it was purple,
and you told me I was privileged,
that I didn’t understand your hardships
because I was used to getting what I wanted.

And I learned my parents were right:
you can’t get everything you want.
But anything you cannot receive with
hard work is something that doesn’t want you,
something that doesn’t appreciate your efforts.
And something with those two qualities
is something that isn’t worth having.

—  Yes, I am privileged. I am privileged because I have the will to try again.
You Go, I Go (Steve Rogers x Reader x Bucky Barnes)

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Steve was always up before the sun rose. He went running to clear his mind, and because if he was honest, sleeping on a soft mattress just wasn’t the same. He was glad he met someone who knew exactly was he meant, even if he didn’t see him (Sam he said his name was) today. When he returned to his apartment, a couple drops of sweat slid down his back, and he pushed open the door to his apartment and was greeted by an overwhelming scent of warm grounded coffee beans.

He had almost forgotten you had stayed the night, but nevertheless he smiled to himself as he heard you padding around in his kitchen. As he closed the door and placed his keys on the close by table, he rounded the corner as saw you already dressed, minus your shoes, and leaning up for a mug. He wanted to laugh, and watched you struggle for a moment.

You weren’t terribly short, but Steve had a habit of putting his cups, plates, bowls (everything pretty much) on the shelves that were easy to reach for him - but not easy for you to reach. He finally let out a laugh, and you turned to give him a dirty glare, “Stop laughing it’s not funny.”

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supernatural quotes to be used as bios
  1. Do you have any idea how much stuff I had to steal, then pawn, to pay for that? 
  2. Fatherhood changes a man.
  3. I gotta get out of this doily coffin.
  4. We’re gonna have to figure this thing out like we always do. But until then, we hunt.
  5. That’s God for ya, a boom, a bang, a bust, a revolution, and Taylor Swift.
  6. If I have to die, I’ve made my peace with that, but please, Dean deserves better. Dean deserves a life.
  7. Dean was a rather scrumptious young altar boy.
  8. I’m not your bloody sidekick!
  9. What can I say. Chicks dig me.
  10. Saving people means all of the people.
  11. If we don’t change, right now, all of our crap is just going to keep repeating.
  12. We’ll always be bound. You helped me. We will always help each other.
  13. This is madness.
  14. Truth is when I left, I thought the only way out was my death. I was wrong, Sam. It’s yours.
  15. A long, long time ago, there once lived an evil bitch.
  16. We’re far from perfect. But we are good.
  17. Brother, I’m done.
  18. You’re not in my contacts list.
  19. I want you to know that the only reason you’re alive is because I allowed it.
  20. Will you just die already?
  21. I’m not a witch. I’m a nerd.
  22. I’ll keep fighting. I’ll keep swinging til I got nothing left.
  23. Death doesn’t always mean goodbye.
  24. I’m tired of fighting.
  25. We’re better together than we are apart.
  26. I don’t want to do it without my brother.
  27. I think you’re a hero.
  28. Kick it in the ass.
  29. I mean nothing ever really gets deleted from the Internet.
  30. Driver picks the music, shotgun shuts his cake hole.

caption :  “At the beginning of last year we had nothing going on at all. We were still passing out flyers out the front of local shows and had never played a headline gig outside of our home state of Texas. Since then it’s totally exploded, we’ve done a full European tour and played Warped Tour, which is something I’ve wanted to do since I was 13. Literally a third of my bucket list for band stuff got checked off this year!” - Awsten Knight.

I always thought I might be bad
Now I’m sure that its true
‘cause I think you’re so good
And I’m nothing like you

Here you go anon! Most of you all know how overly eager I am to draw Rivster. I love them too much. They are my top OTP~ All I ever wanna do is talk about these two. Driving Poisond crazy on the daily~

The linked song is actually very fitting to Gaster and Rivers relationship. We call it their anthem and, well, I guess it’s good insight to them. Or at least to one of them. 

We got a little list of requests in the works that we are both working on. Trying to get them done as quick as possible. We’re still accepting some and will try to get to them all. They might not be as detailed as some of the others the closer we get to the end of Wednesday, but we’d still like to get them done. 

~ Sol

Just an information for foreign universities:

In germany it takes a month to get a bachelors diploma issued. Dont fucking make my life harder just because my uni takes longer.

(In other words im so stressed out now they want me to go to the waiting list because I dont have a diploma of a degree THAT I HAVE. I HAVE IT. I have done it. Its done. All the courses and grades. But the diploma is not here YET. Its not MY FAULT. I just want to cry for like 10 years how hard can it be to study where I want to study I GOT EVERYTHING ELSE LITERALLY EVERYTHING ELSE. And the only thing I can do NOTHING ABOUT will make me fall now. God, Im so upset)

anonymous asked:

What are some of the practices you set in place to fall back on when you're depressed to help you function ?

As always with the caveat that I manage depression without medication by choice (and that my choice is not right for everyone, or even most-one), and also that depression varies greatly from person to person, my biggest issue is getting the shit done that I need to get done, so that’s where I focus. 

Also bear in mind that I have a disposable income – small, but present. A handful of my solutions involve “paying money to make life easier” and I realise that not everyone has the means to do this. But if you do have the means to pay someone else to do a thing, I recommend it.  

This got super long so I’m putting it under a cut and also if you skip to “Conclusion” you’ll get the short version. 

Trigger warnings for discussion of depression (natch) and brief mention of suicide.

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My To-Do List

I’ve got requests collected right now, I’m gonna be doing them slowly but I may as well let you guys know what’s on my to-do list.

Requested, and will be done in no particular order:

  • Kyle and Cartman baking a cake
  • Coming out to parents
  • Jealousy
  • Kyle using Cartman as a chair (probably gonna need refs on this one.) 
  • Horsing around in a theater
  • Tickle fights
  • Fighting for dominance
  • More of the kyman love child
  • Kyle choking Cartman
  • Kyman Breakfast Club AU
  • Cartman comforting Kyle 
  • Wedding Day 
  • Kyle in nothing but Cartman’s jacket
  • Imagination Land ball sucking scene redraw (snrrk)
  • Making Out
  • Human Kite x Coon
  • Stick of Truth outfits
  • Playing Gay Chicken
  • Kyle with a Moon and Stars Tattoo
  • Kyle singing “You’re the One for Me Fatass*” begrudgingly while playing guitar
  • I’m holding down an empty office this morning. I’d planned on sucking it up and taking the office Christmas decorations down, but when I got here I discovered someone had already done that! SCORE!
  • I have a sore throat. No bueno.
  • “Welcome To New York” was stuck in my head ALL NIGHT. I need a new cool down song for Zumba and that just might be it…
  • I need to plan some meals and make a grocery list while I’m sitting here with nothing to do, but instead I just keep clicking around on Pinterest and Tumblr and Facebook looking at things that are definitely not recipes. GET YOUR ACT TOGETHER SARAH!
  • We’re supposed to get ice or snow or sleet or something equally pleasant later today and then the temperature is going to be frigid for an eternity thereafter. January is kind of a jerk.
  • This is a completely appropriate calendar for a woman in her 30’s, right? I thought so.

Someone asked how to keep your mood up when your health gets bad on a group and this was what I thought of off the top of my head:

Ok everything on this list has to be adjusted to your abilities and spoon level. None of this should take so much from you can’t do things you need to do - the goal is lots of little things that slowly add up when you do them every day, not an exhausting to do list.

-do something to take care of yourself every day. Can be as small as brushing your teeth or taking your meds but it helps to feel like you are on the same side as your body
-do something that is enjoyable each day. Again can be something very small such as watching a tv show you like, doing a favorite activity for 5 minutes, etc
-do things for other people. Again realistic and not gonna steal all your spoons is best. Even just replying to a post on here or messaging with a friend counts even if he or she isn’t asking for help - just chatting and sharing your wonderful self is an act of generosity in my book
-do something that makes you feel productive. Examples from my life include filling my queue on tumblr, cleaning for 5 minutes, or calling a drs office
-make goals. Even if they are just to brush your teeth or get dressed in the morning. helps me do more things that are good for me, and also makes me feel good to get them done
-I actually got this next one from an article in the pillow fort magazine: write a list of things you have accomplished each day. Include everything, getting out of bed, getting dressed, going to an appointment, etc. Realize that even if it feels like you are doing nothing that is rarely the case
-try and forget about the “old you” as much as possible. Tricky, but it never makes me feel better to spend much time reminiscing
-challenge any thoughts that tell you that your worth is defined by how much you can work or how many things you need help doing
-move. even a few minutes of exercise can trigger positive changes in brain chemistry. again, like everything this needs to be adjusted to your abilities and spoon level
-connect with others who are going through similar things. vent if you need to, but be mindful of how much you are doing so
-find things to be happy about! The 100happydays project is a great way to reflect on the happy bits of every day, and if you are anything like me doing so slowly changes your perspective on life. looking for the positive in posts here and on my blog has really changed the way I view EVERYTHING and its really fantastic

—  Nina (runningonspoons)