gosh i need to get more sleep

Peter Parker… Drunk??

Peter Parker X Reader Headcanons

A/N: Hey, everyone! I’m sorry I’ve been pretty absent these past few weeks!! As you probably know, it’s because of my internship thing which is finishing this week. ANYWAY! I’ll be posting more soon (hopefully)!! I hope you like this. (I have no idea why there are weird numbers in random places, I’m sorry!!!) (ON A SIDE NOTE I’VE GAINED LIKE 300 FOLLOWERS THIS WEEK?? THANK YOU I’VE GONE FROM 250 TO LIKE ALMOST 600 AND I FEEL V BLESSED)

Also, a huuuuge thank you to @marvelsheroes for this idea AND god bless @pctcr for reading this over for me before I threw it into The Void™

- Let’s be real, Peter is a Lightweight™ 

- Like, one drink and he’s already going through the motions.

- This makes it awkward when you’re just at home casually Cracking Open A Cold One™ and then suddenly you’ve got a drunk Peter on your hands.

- There are stages of Drunk Peter™

One Drink Peter is sickeningly sweet!! His mouth will literally just bubble over, complimenting you.

- “(Y/N), why are you so pretty? Oh my gosh, I’m so lucky to have you.”

- “Peter, I’m literally wearing my pyjamas, what are you talking about???”

- He’s also 2467995790075 times more affectionate.

- Expect hugs from really awkward positions.

- Like, imagine Peter thinks some can is a fizzy drink and so he grabs it but it’s actually beer and he comes over to you drunk??

- And you’re trying to do yoga so you’re bent in a weird shape,

- And then Peter decides now is Prime Time™ for spooning.

Two Drink Peter starts talking SUPER LOUD, like, your head hurts.


- “Thank you for the update, I’ll treasure it forever.”

Three Drink Peter gets very emotional.

- “I’m so lucky to be with you honestly like you look after me and I’d probably be homeless if it weren’t for you like I know I have May but I feel like I put too much pressure on her and on you I don’t know I mean I’d do anything for you…”

- “Peter, sh.”

- “No! You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me! I wish I was good enough with words to let you know how much you mean to me…”

- “You’re so dramatic. I love you, drama queen.”

- *choked up* “I love you too.”

Four Drink Peter makes gross & dorky innuendos.

- “Wanna have a fist fight?”

- “Peter, we’re not five… Okay, you’re going down.”

- *complete straight face* “On you, I hope.”

- “pEtEr!!¡!¡”

Five Drink Peter is weirdly confident???¿?

- Like, you might be at a party and suddenly Peter will challenge someone (probably Flash) to a rap battle or something and he’ll blow everyone out of the water with his Sick Rhymes™

- And you’re jumping up and down like tHaT’s My BaBy!¡!!

- When Peter is like this he also feels zero shame in gushing about you to literally everyone within a million mile radius.

- “Oh, hi! I don’t think we’ve met! I’m Peter and this is my girlfriend, (Y/N). Isn’t she great? I can’t believe she loves me, I’m so lucky. On our first date I was so nervous but she makes me feel so comfortable and – What, (Y/N)?”

- “Peter, stop, oh my gosh.”

- *simultaneous blushing*

- Flash, from across the room, behind his deck: “EW GET A ROOM”


- Peter, tearing up at what a blessing you are: “That’s,,,, my girl!!!!!!!!!”

Six Drink Peter needs to Sleep™

- One minute he’ll be walking just fine and then the next he’s just collapsed to the floor.

- “Peter? Peter! Are you okay?????”

- *unintelligible groans*

- “I’m getting you to bed.”

- *opens one eye* “Ooh, tell me more.” (Four Drink Peter, is that you????)

- “Not like that, you frickin’ dork.” 


- Peter Parker is probably the most interesting drunk??

- Like an onion, he has LAYERS

- The End????

Permanent Tags: @adventuresofchlocaine @straightasdeanwinchester @marvelsheroes 

our night, our memories

Originally posted by kingdans

member: lai guanlin 
genre: fluff
summary: you go on a trip to taipei with your favourite group of 11 guys but of course a trip is nothing without a little romance, a confession and swimming at midnight
requested: yes

  • you couldn’t believe it you were on a plane to taipei 
  • especially with your favourite group of 11 guys 
  • you brightly grin at one of your best friends, guanlin 
  • and he gives you his signature gummy smile, you could see how happy he was to return to his hometown
  • “we’re grinning like idiots you know?” you say jokingly
  • “do i care? nope. i’m on a plane with my favourite girl in the world to my favourite place in the world” he says brightly
  • you blush at his words feeling super gooey
  • you scold yourself, no y/n he means it as a friend nothing more
  • you look around and see the ruckus the guys were making
  • all the guys and you were all on a school trip to taipei
  • everyone taking the language courses gets to go on a trip 
  • guanlin basically made all his hyungs and of course you sign up to go to taipei, no one could resist his begging and puppy dog eyes
  • luckily no one else had signed up to go to taipei and since you were such a small group, they assigned jisung, one of the TAs and basically the mum of the group to look after you all during the trip
  • you were over the moon when you found out it’ll only be the 12 of you
  • but even with all of your excitement, you were exhausted
  • you had 2 exams the day of your departure and you studied all night cramming all the information in
  • you didn’t realise but you dozed off, accidentally ending up with your head leaning on guanlin’s shoulder
  • guanlin slightly jumped as he felt your head on his shoulder
  • he smiled sweetly at the sight of you sleep, he made sure not to disrupt your sleep knowing how exhausted you were
  • as you slept, you snored lightly making him chuckle at how adorable you were
  • and of course seongwoo filmed you for blackmail material
  • you also drooled a little but instead of being disgusted at it, guanlin made sure to wipe it off with a tissue
  • he was glad he could take care of you for once since you always took care of you
  • seongwoo, daniel and jaehwan like the cheeky immature pricks they were
  • turned to face you sleeping and guanlin and basically made kissy faces at you two before singing teasingly
  • “guanlin and y/n sitting in the tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g”
  • just imagine jaehwan singing that like super nicely ugh i love his voice sm
  • you half woke up from their annoying antics and was pissed off since they disturbed you you know that state where you’re awake but you’re not yeah that’s the state you were in
  • you threw a pillow and seongwoo’s face then retorted half pissed off half amused
  • “we are on a plane not a tree, and does it look like i’m kissing guanlin i’m sleeping you blind immature brats”
  • guanlin muttered under his breath “i wish we were kissing”
  • you accidentally heard and blushed so red, he didn’t realise you heard
  • your mind was going haywire
  • you liked him so much you have for so long and he likes you
  • WHAT DO I DO?? you brain was basically screaming 
  • you were snapped out of your thoughts by seongwoo saying in a baby like voice “oooo y/n getting angry, us three leave” 
  • then the three of them slowly lower themselves into their seats still smirking at you two and of course jaehwan winked at you 
  • you groan and curse them under your breath 
  • then you suddenly realise you were on guanlin’s shoulder 
  • you blush again realising that your crush likes you back feeling ecstatic and so happy
  • you were completely over the moon
  • “y/n? earth to y/n?” guanlin said softly while waving his hand in front of your face did you see what i did there ;)
  • “oh sorry, i was just thinking but what’s up?” you say as casually as possible trying not to blurt your confession out
  • internally you decided just to leave it until the end of the trip and you could tell him then
  • “oh i was just going to say, you should sleep you’re exhausted i know how much you studied for those exams.” he said in a caring and loving tone making your heart flutter
  • “thanks guanlin i will” you sweetly reply 
  • “by the way if you want to sleep on my shoulder it’s fine, it’s actually really comfy” he says blushing make you feel all giddy 
  • and you nod and smile back at him and lean your head on his shoulder and before you knew it you were asleep
  • you woke up and went through all the security regulations
  • sungwoon the whole time was talking about all the places we should go 
  • “we should go to taipei 101!! apparently the view is amazing and plus i need more aesthetic pictures for my instagram”
  • “gosh sungwoon could you get any more superficial” minhyun said teasingly
  • “hey! i’m not the one who stares at the mirror all day and tell myself how handsome i am?!” sungwoon retorted
  • “no i don’t, i clean the mirrors not admire myself in them, but you always do that and so does jinyoung, eh and jihoon occasionally” minhyun replied nonchalantly
  • “why the hell are you bringing us into your argument?!” jinyoung and jihoon chorused
  • “it’s trueeee” daehwi adding cutely
  • “guys we’re holding up the line hurry the hell up, do the bickering later” woojin said rolling his eyes at his friends
  • you laugh at all their petty arguments thinking they’re adorable but knowing they all love each other so much
  • you guys arrive at the hotel and you’re so happy because you’re the only one who doesn’t have to share a room because you’re the only girl
  • you all end up showering, getting dressed and settling in and it was already dinner time
  • all the guys gathered in your room, everyone trying to decide what they want to eat, which just ends up as one huge argument
  • “i want fried chicken!!” jihoon said brightly 
  • “yah! are you crazy we’re in taipei and you want fried chicken??!” exclaimed jisung continued saying
  • “we’re supposed eat the regional food you know, like dumplings”
  • “ooo could we go to like some bubble tea place” daehwi said excitedly
  • “we need to eat dinner you know, i’d like to have some seafood, or sushi, i’m craving sushi” minhyun added 
  • “can’t we eat noodles?” woojin whined
  • “i want noodles as well!!” agreed sungwoon 
  • “well after dinner i want ice cream!” jinyoung said like a 5 year old
  • “i want to eat meat” seongwoo and jaehwan shouted adding to the bickering and to the noise level
  • “i just want a sandwich with ketchup and a beer” daniel said seriously
  • making all of us turn to him in wtf are you saying look
  • which resulted him into shrugging “what it tastes good??”
  • you shouted grabbing everyone’s attention
  • guanlin brightened up at that idea and explained to the group
  • “the night market’s here are amazing!! they’ll definitely have the bubble tea and ice cream, they have this special beef which they light on fire and it tastes sooooo good. they have really good noodles and dumplings and there will be a couple places which serve some sushi, and chicken but probably not a ketchup sandwich sorry daniel hyung” he ended with a cheeky smile at daniel
  • to which daniel responded by pouting and crossing his arms like a child
  • “great idea y/n, gosh if you haven’t suggested that we’d be here for hours” jisung said gratefully smiling at you
  • you smiled back and said “chop chop come on people!”
  • the night markets were super fun, all of you ate so much, bought clothes and different souvenirs and items
  • there was a few times when someone went missing but in the end it was one of the best nights of your life
  • you got matching sunglasses with guanlin
  • “put these on, you’ll look so swag” you said teasingly handing him the sunglasses
  • “oh gosh stop i said swag one time and you’re gonna tease me forever” he groaned while putting on the sunglasses
  • “damn you look good” you said appreciatively and he blushed cutely
  • he also puts it on you and you model it for him and he laughs and says
  • “you look gorgeous with them, you always look gorgeous though so not much difference” he said feeling brave but instantly hating himself for saying it
  • cursing himself why why why did i say that???? i probably made it sooo awkward
  • you feel extremely happy he said that but also super flustered and you stutter out a quick thank you
  • he quickly defuses the situation by buying the two sunglasses but the cashier makes it worse by saying
  • “aw such a cute couple item!!” 
  • you and him look at each other super embarrassed but you couldn’t help your huge smile and you look at him where you can see him smiling broadly 
  • and feeling a burst of courage you lightly hold his hand and say thank you to the cashier
  • he looks at you in shock and you give him a shy smile
  • you tug at his hand and you both joined the group 
  • woojin was the only one noticing you guys holding hands in the group of crowded people and whispered into guanlin’s ear knowing he hadn’t confessed yet
  • “take her to the rooftop pool, it’s heated and it’ll be a perfect place to confess to her, if you book it late at night it’ll only cost about $50” 
  • $50 you rich boi i’m broke af 
  • guanlin blushes at the thought of you in a swimsuit and confessing to you
  • teenage boys am i right? but he’s still a cutie
  • he thanks woojin gratefully and woojin just says “anytime little bro”
  • “i’m taller than you” guanlin says laughing softly
  • “details, details, details” woojin waved him off and left you two alone
  • you didn’t notice them talking admiring the colourful stalls and all the wonderful smells
  • anyways everyone went back to their rooms with a huge smile, you couldn’t sleep because of the time difference so when around 12 someone knocked on your door you opened it and saw guanlin 
  • you were in pyjama shorts, a loose t shirt and your hair back messily with a green face mask on 
  • even then guanlin thought you looked stunning 
  • you felt so embarrassed at your appearance and said “what are you doing here so late?”
  • “uhhhh i want to show you somewhere, wear a swimsuit, we’re going swimming” he says in the most confident tone he can muster
  • your heart races and you say to him “i’ll be right back, make yourself comfortable”
  • you quickly wash off the face mask put on your swimsuit and a flowy dress over it, and grab a towel
  • you see guanlin sprawled over your bed and you hit him lightly 
  • “oh that was quick let’s go” he says 
  • you head up to the rooftop and you gasp as you see the huge pool
  • it was an infinity pool, looking over all of taipei and no one was there
  • you took off your dress and set your towel down on one of the seat feeling a bit self conscious you wrap your arms around your waist
  • you head towards the pool and you dip your foot, relaxing when it was nice and warm
  • guanlin just stared at you the whole time, feeling super happy that you liked the pool, also admiring how gorgeous you were, promising to buy woojin a meal for the suggestion
  • he took off his shirt and set it down near your stuff
  • you look at the beautiful view and you turn your head around in shock and happiness and face guanlin
  • your cheeks heat up as you see him shirtless showing off his toned body, you ignore all the butterflies and you say to guanlin “this must of cost a lot, to book the pool out??!!” you exclaim
  • “who said i booked it?” he says cheekily 
  • “the sign where it says booked” you retorted snorting
  • not answering he cannonballs into the pool drenching you head to toe
  • you look at him in disbelief and he just smirks back making you scream
  • you equally cannonball into the pool splashing him
  • before you could process what was happening
  • he grabbed your waist and as an automated reaction you wrapped your legs around his torso and your arms around his neck
  • and suddenly you were eye to eye, noses nearly touching and guanlin smiles your favourite gummy smile 
  • “if you haven’t noticed, i like you a lot, and i know i make my mistakes and i have my flaws but y/n will you be my girlfriend” he whispers intimately but nervously
  • you couldn’t help yourself but gently press your pink wet lips on his soft ones
  • feeling like fireworks were going off in your stomach as he gently kissed you again and again
  • until you were both breathless
  • you loved the kisses they were slow and sweet just like you two
  • you realise you didn’t actually reply to his confession so you say sweetly
  • “of course i’ll be your girlfriend guanlin, we’ll get through everything together like we always have.”
  • “thank you for making this an amazing night” he says softly while kissing your forehead
  • “no thank you for making these unforgettable memories with me” you say in reply still feeling amazing at the fact you were guanlin’s girlfriend
  • you both stare at the gorgeous city sky line with his arm wrapped around your shoulder and you leaning into his chest he whispers into your ear
  • “this is our night, our memories, always and forever” 

sorry this took so long to make!! my draft didn’t save so i had to retype a lot. also it was so hard to find a gif suited for this scenario cause like do i do gummy smile guanlin, or super cool guanlin. i chose gummy smile guanlin. CAUSE I LOVE HIS SMILES. like tbh guanlin is so nice to write for idek why. ANYWAYS hope you enjoyed the fluff, as always leave me a message or an anon for feedback or just to text!


request: “oh, okay! that’s fine, how about a remus x female!reader imagine where he tells her that he’s a werewolf and expects her to be terrified of him and never talk to him again, but instead she’s amazed at how he’s been able to survive and continue on living his life even through the rough nights then sirius and james overhear and are like "you’ve got a good one, mate, don’t let her go.” or something like that. thank you!“ — by @miathefangirlwriter

a/n: i adore remus lupin so much and i love this request so much as well! i hope you like this. x


Keep reading

How my time spent in fandom has changed me: a summary

Person: Wow, your character is kind of a Mary Sue…

Me when I first entered fandom: oh gosh that’s horrible, I’ll be more careful when writing in the future.

Me now: hell yeah she is. And killin’ it. 

Person: Update soon!! I need mOAR!!!

Me when I first entered fandom: Haha, I’ll try! I’m glad you like my story so much :D

Me now: And I need $10,000, for there to be more hours in a day, and sleep but I guess neither of us are gonna get what we want, huh.

Person: You should really consider writing a scene where character x does this. Also I don’t think the direction you’re currently taking the story makes sense, it’d really be better if you…”

Me when I first entered fandom: Okay, I’ll take that into consideration! Thanks for the advice!

Me now: why don’t you fukcng write it yourself then, you asdkflajfkadsjfla–

Person: Seriously? You honestly like that character? But they’re so problematic.

Me when I first entered fandom: *mumbles inaudibly*

Me now: Your point? I mean sure, they’re absolute trash, but they’re Mine and you can’t take them from me. 

Person: But that ship doesn’t make any sense whatsoever.

Me when I first entered fandom: Yeah…maybe you’re right…

Me now (with a wild glint in my eyes, shoving 2 pieces of fanart and unfinished fic scraps into their face): But it could. It could

Person: Do you read smut?

Me when I first entered fandom: I…I mean…sometimes s-sex comes up in a fic? I always skip over it though!!

Me now: Why? Do you want recs?

Person: Don’t you think it’s kind of weird to be so obsessed over fictional characters? I mean, you have two tests next week and instead of studying, you’re hunched over your laptop frantically writing fic at 2 a.m. Like, how do you justify that?

Me when I first entered fandom: *wails*

Me now: *wails louder*

MY reaction to: Bangtan Boys! (BTS)

{Y’all seriously liked My reaction to EXO, so how about i give you guys another one? Okay, so these are based on my actual reaction to the Bangtan Boys when i first found them [about two years ago] so, hopefully y’all like it!}

Jin (Kim Seokjin)

Originally posted by softfluffytae


Holy shit, oh..wait…what are you? You look like you’d be a vocalist….Too tall to be a dancer and…too gentle to be a rapper. 

*First dad joke*….jesus christ….get the fuck out ya piece of dad poo. 

*Watches Eat Jin* Jin…what the fuck are you even doing? Hasn’t your mother ever told you not to play with your fucking food? 

*High key thought he was part of the maknae line*

Way i know him: Giant dork with dumb dad jokes

Suga (Min Yoongi)

Originally posted by sweetly-delirious

WHO IS THE PASTEL PRINCE OH MY GOSH. You’re eyes are funny lookin’ though. They are so tiny. Also, YOU ARE SO SMOL. You seem to always be frowning, sweetie, you’ll get crows feet like that. Smile a bit more. Jesus.

*Watches Agust D*….holy…fuck…..YOU’RE A RAPPER. I NEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT OH MY GOSH. You look so gentle, i never would have thought you’d be a rapper. I gotta rethink jin’s position for a sec.  

Baby, you look like you need some serious sleep, i can see bags under your eyes even with the make up on. 

Way i know him: Pastel Prince with an AMAZING smile

J-Hope (Jung Hoseok)

Originally posted by yoongismochi

*Didn’t pay much attention to him at first* Huh, who are yo– 

*Finds he’s a dancer, rapper, and low key vocalist*…W O A H You are just a RAY OF SUNSHINE aren’t yOU? STOP THAT. STOP THAT SEXY DANCING YA PIECE OF SEXY CUTE SHIT.

I feel like you and Suga would be very good for each other. *Watches the face mask live stream* I SHIP IT. 

Also, why the hell is your laugh so contagious?! Why do you fall off your chair whenever you laugh?!

Way i know him: The guy i ship with Suga/ The guy with a long face and high cheeks

Rap Monster (Kim Namjoon)

Originally posted by rapnamu

That is some serious FIRE you’re spittin’ fam.

Nice lips, they are thick. 100% would kiss, but you got that brother feel to you so nah. Actually, your brother feel is hella strong…stop that. We’re supposed to find you attractive, not hope you were our brother.

Also, i like how low and husky your voice sounds. I’d fall asleep to that. 

Wooooaahhh…you talk about some deep shit. What a great mind you’ve got on top of those shoulders.


Jimin (Park Jimin)

Originally posted by sweaterpawsjimin

Wow…just like Rapmon, 100% would kiss the SHIT outta your lips. 

Also, ugh…what an angelic voice…lay me down daddy Jimin, holy shit. 

BOI, WHY MUST YOU BE SO RUDE AND LIFT YOUR SHIRT???? *just finished watching No More dream* THAT IS SO RUDE, SHAME ON YOU. 


(i am not joking, i just made a song just from jimin’s nickname while making this, lord help me)

Way i know him: The cute faced guy with Thick lips and a sweet bod.

V (Kim Taehyung)

Originally posted by bangtanroyalty

Your smile is really weird, but it’s kinda cute (In a weird way) 

Babe, take me straight to your make up artist. They have done an amazing job with your eyeliner good lord. 

Also, what’s with your EYES??? THEY ARE SO PRETTY OH MY GOSH. Also, Dude, you have a nice long body…like, that is so cool and really attractive (As a short person i appreciate

Also, you got nice vocals my man. It sounds very breathy though sooooo…maybe good for ballads?

Way i know him: The guy with a cute/weird smile

Jungkook (Jeon Jungkook)

Originally posted by jkguks



*Watches no more dream* Woah, are you a rapper too? Wait, but you sing…and you’re a REALLY good dancer…WHAT ARE YOU?!?!?!? …Can i actually date you? *Finds out he’s nineteen* HOLY FUCK I CAN.

You look like a little bun with your buck teeth. So cute~ Also, i high key ship you with Jiminie. You’re such a little shit to him though, rood. 


Way i know him: Buff Bunny Boy

Overall thought about the Bangtan Boys (2 years ago): 


Anyway, i am just glad they are such a small group, still is gonna take me forever to figure out their names. 

Overall thought about the Bangtan Boys (NOW): 

Same thing as up there, except, Now i know their stage and full names. Also, i still love Jimin but Hoseok is my Bias and you can fight me to the FUCKING DEATH if you tell me i shouldn’t. 

Moving On ( Joe Sugg )

The room was filled with silence. No one really knew what to say. It had all happened so quickly.
Joe didn’t know what to do. One minute, 
Y/N was by his side, helping him plan the next prank on Caspar, then the next minute, she was laying in a coffin surrounded by her closest friends.
The doctors said they did everything that they could, but the medicine she had taken was too much, her heart had shut down, along with the rest of her vital organs.
He should’ve seen the signs, he hated himself for it now, it was all so clear. If only he had paid more attention, he could’ve saved her.
Jack and Conor stood over to the side of the room, tears flowing down his cheeks onto Conor’s shaking shoulders. The Maynard brothers had taken it the hardest, who had known Y/N since birth. It had really taken a toll on them.
Her parents sat beside the brothers, Y/N’s baby sister sitting in her mother’s lap. Lizzie is what they called her, Y/N had only met her once before, when she was first born.
“I promise to take care of you Liz, I’m gonna be your big sister.” She had said, letting the child grip onto her finger.
That wasn’t the case, it seemed.
Joe sighed, slumping back in his chair. He couldn’t cry anymore, he was drained. He had spent the first week after her death crying, beating himself up over not being able to save her.
“She wouldn’t want you to be sad, Joe…” Zoë had said when he refused to eat or sleep after her death.
He turned to face Zoë, her makeup running from the silent tears the fell down her face.
“Why her?” He asked quietly, his voice scratchy and raw. Zoë let out a heavy sigh, patting at her eyes with her sleeve.
“I don’t know Joe…” She replied, taking in a sharp breath. Joe nodded, casting his gaze downwards.
He closed his eyes, the sight of Y/N’s body laying there on the hard tile floor, an empty pill bottle in her hand was still fresh in his mind.
After the doctors told him the news, he had fainted. When he woke, he prayed to whatever God that would listen that it was just a dream, that she wasn’t really dead.
It wasn’t a dream.
He cried that night. He screamed and cried and broke whatever he could that night. He screamed until his vocal cords burned in pain and he cried until his eyes stung and he couldn’t stay awake longer.
He began to drown his sorrows in alcohol, and he was never a heavy drinker before that incident. He didn’t upload or record videos. He was drained of life.
He didn’t want to live anymore.
What he regretted most though, was that he never said he loved her.
He had been planning a grand way to ask her out, something horrendously romantic, he was gonna ask her out the day she…the day she did it.
“Why?” He whispered out. To who, he didn’t know. What he meant by it, he also didn’t know.
Why did she have to leave him so soon?
Why did she want to leave?
Why did she kill herself?
He stood up and went towards the coffin, where she laid, her eyes closed, never to open again. He had to say one last goodbye.
“Y/N…..I miss you so much…I….why? Why did you leave….? I…I love you….I…i just needed to say that….” He felt pathetic, talking to the corpse. She couldn’t hear him, she wasn’t going to reply.
He sat back down beside Zöe, who looked at him with pity in her eyes.
“Please don’t cry Joe….she wouldn’t have wanted you to cry over her.” He brought his hand up to his eye to wipe away the tears.
Huh, he hadn’t noticed he was crying.
He hadn’t attended the funeral, he couldn’t. It would mean he would have to come to terms with the fact that she’s dead, and isn’t gonna come back. He couldn’t do that.
Instead he sat at home, wondering around like a zombie, his mind blurry.
Probably from the alcohol, he thought bitterly. He stumbled back into the kitchen area, grabbing a bottle of gin. He barely noticed the stinging sensation as it flowed through his throat. He drank the rest of the bottle, before slamming onto the table. Shards of broken glass flew out and hit him, forming gashes along his arms.
Whatever, he thought. They’ll heal.

He was aware this was slowly killing him. The next month was torture. Zoë and the boys came around often to make sure he was eating and still functioning. He was, but barely.
Zoë noticed the heavy bags under his eyes, proving he hadn’t slept in awhile.
“Joe?” She asked one day when she was over, watching as he lazily looked up at her, as if it took all of his strength to do that simple movement.
“When was the last time you slept?” She asked worriedly, now that she really looked, he looked absolutely exhausted.
“6 days ago…? Oh wait..no….maybe two weeks ago? I don’t know…” His voice was deep and raw, Zoë gasped.
“Joe! Oh my gosh! You need to get some rest! That’s not healthy!” She pleaded, grabbing his hand. She recoiled in horror, his hands were freezing and bony, like he had no meat to his figure at all. Her brother had always been skinny, but never this skinny. The was deathly skinny.
“Why should it matter? I have not a reason to live…” He whispered, for his voice could not handle much more.
“Yes you do Joe! Please…sleep for me…? I’ll prepare something to eat, just please try and rest….” Zoë whispered, stroking her younger brother’s cheek. It was so hallow.
She dreaded asking the question but she did.
“When was the last time you ate anything?”
He looked at her and sighed, running his bony fingers through his greasy hair.
“Last time Jack and Conor came over….” He muttered, refusing to make clear eye contact.
Zoë counted in her head, that was 3 weeks ago.
“Oh my gosh, Joe! You could die! I’m going to make some soup then I’m taking you to the hospital, this can’t go on.” Joe shook his head vigorously.
“No Zoë, I’m fine. I don’t need to go to the doctors, I’m fine.” He insisted, gasping at the pain as he sat up quickly. His stomach ached horribly. Maybe he was hungry.
“Well will you try and eat something if I make it?” She asked, placing her hand on his thigh.
He nodded his head and laid down, sighing. He was thankful for Zoë, especially with how big of a mess he was at the moment.
He had eaten, the soup warming his insides pleasantly. Zoë had watched him eat, her mind busy.
Was Joe gonna be okay without her by his side? Was he gonna eat or sleep?
“Excuse me, Joe…I’ll be right back….”
She ran towards the bathroom and sat down on the floor, pulling out her phone.
“Yeah?” Alfie’s voice was soothing for her.
“Um…I’m gonna be staying here with Joe for a little while. He’s not doing too great.”
“Is he okay?!” Alfie sounded worried as he asked about his friend.
“Yeah, at least I hope so. He just…he hasn’t eaten in about 3 weeks. I made him eat some soup, but I’m worried about him. I’m gonna stay here for a few more days to try and settle him down.” She replied, running her fingers through his hair.
“Okay, well…Do what you think is right….and Zo? Please tell Joe to keep himself safe, for me.” Zoë nodded and hung up, taking in a deep breath.
She walked back up the stairs and smiled as she saw Joe standing over the pot of boiling soup, ladling some more into his bowl.
“S-sorry…I was kinda still hungry….” He muttered, putting the lid back onto the bowl.
“It’s fine Joe! Have as much as you want!” She smiled, walking over to him. He gave her a small smile and begin to sip away at the soup. A peaceful silence fell over them until Zoë glanced at Joe, who had finished the bowl.
“Whoa! What’s gotten you so cheery? Jack told me you hadn’t finished a full thing of food since before…it happened…” Zoë looked shocked at her brother, who sighed.
“I just….Y/N wouldn’t want me to suffer over her forever. It’s time for me to move on. I still love her with all my heart…But I must move on.”
Zoë smiled at her brother, engulfing him in a hug.
“I’m so glad you’re saying that.”
“I’m gonna try and move on. For her.”

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The Necessities

Prompt 14 of 642: What three essential items would you take with you (if you were exiled)?

“Condoms, lube, and Dean.”

Castiel burst into a fit of hysterical, drunk giggles and rolled back onto Benny’s bottom bunk.  The other buzzed and drunk people laughed and giggled in awkward amusement as they tried not to look at Dean.  Dean was staring at his best friend with his mouth hanging open like a particularly dumb species of fish.

Philosophy had seemed like such a safe topic for drunk people.  To be or not to be?  Is the world nothing but shadows on a cave wall?  Would you kill one person to save nine, or let someone else kill all ten because killing one person, even for a “good reason” was morally wrong?  Stupid stuff from Ethics 101.  And someone had brought up Napoleon.  And how he was exiled to Elba.  And then the question became where would you want to be exiled to?  And then Charlie had asked what three things would you take with you?

And that had come out of Castiel’s mouth.

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remmythepegasis  asked:

Prompt 8. “You’re so fucking hot when you’re mad.” I imagine Logan who says that to Patton. I want to see a mad Dad and Logic in this situation~ Please

I bet you wanted smut.

That is not what you are getting.



Logic looked up from his papers as he heard his name being yelled, looking over at the door of his room and raising his eyebrow as Morality walked inside, clearly pissed.

“Yes Pat-”

“Don’t ‘Pat’ me Logan!” Morality said, angrily, stopping in front of Logic and putting his hands over his waist. “Do you know how many times I have to come here and check on your every day? And yet today I was out the whole day and I come home to see Roman and Ann eating dinner and telling me you didn’t eat one single cracker today! I’m getting tired of you not taking care of yourself, Lo! You’re just as an adult as I am and you should be more responsible! You need to eat and you need to sleep and you never do those! You make me so mad Logan! Gosh I’m just trying to be a good boyfriend and I’m trying to take care of you but you never listen! I asked you to put the garbage out and Roman did it, I asked you to clean the dishes but Ann was the one cleaning it! I don’t understand, is it that your massive intellect can’t be lowered down to so such simple tasks or you really just don’t care? Tell me Logan, do you even care about what I ask you to do or not?!”

Logic stayed quiet for a while, just staring at Morality. His narrowed eyes, hands on his waist, puffs of air leaving his nostrils, his body language so angry and firm and unlike his normal soft, sweet self.

That… that was a nice change, for some reason.

“You’re so fucking hot when you’re mad”

Morality’s eyes widened and his cheeks turned red as he heard what Logic had said. Logic smirked, standing up and moving closer to Morality.

“T-that was not what I asked!” the father tried, narrowing his eyes again, putting his finger on Logic’s chest. “You are distracting me!”

“No, you really are hot when you’re angry” Logic repeated, wrapping his arms around Morality’s waist and pulling him closer. The father continued with his eyes narrowed, but he lifted his hand to take the teacher’s tie on it.

“Oh am I?” he asked, smirking, tugging on the tie and brushing his lips against Logic’s. “Want me to continued being mean to you, Logan? Is that what you want?”

“Pat…” Logic mumbled, already in trance, his eyes searching for Morality’s lips as the older trait teased him, moving forward and backwards. “I… Yes…”

Suddenly, Logic was pushed down to his working chair and Morality smirked, poking his chest.

“Go wash the dishes, clean the floor and finish these papers and then we will talk, Logan” he said, a glint of malice in his eyes before he walked out, smirking to himself and leaving Logic alone.

And Logic couldn’t even get mad at him, damn it.

Well, time to wash the dishes.

Pointless Zestiria X post (you can skip it) Talk about sormik, other canons and silly dreams

You know I had dream tonight about last episode of anime. It’s coming close so idea of going through sea of salt once more  (after almost month of curing my wounded soul) started to stress out my brain once more. Not mention reading yesterday post about salty comment about possible Sorali ending.

I don’t think that it’s a case. It would be like Namco shooting themselves into heads. They already posted article in „Romance” newspaper in japan featuring Sorey and Mikleo. They probably see that posts saying about sormik on unfotable tweeter have more like 600+ favs when normal Zestiria X and Alisha things have like 50-/+. They wouldn’t bring the wave of hate on themselves if they are sane.

Yet, I’m not looking forward to read about last episode of anime.

So, back to my dream. I dream story for last episode of anime where Ufotable made Heldalf disappear in first seconds of episode like Smaug dies in first 10 minutes of 3rd Hobbit. So after that Sorey is possessed by new bad guy jumping from nowhere. Team fights him and after beating Sorey to the ground team doesn’t know how to return Sorey back to normal. Then Mikleo leaned down to kiss him. Camera doesn’t show it clearly but you know Mikleo is kissing Sorey (as to not cross line to showing their lips together in anime, airing in japan since they aren’t open to things like that).

Sorey is returned to normal. There is skip after all that to inn room where Sorey and Mikleo is talking about last battle and what to do next. Mikleo is still shaken by last battle and fact someone possessed Sorey. They sitting around 15 centimeters away from each other but Sorey rises his arm above Mikleo’s shoulder and says sorry for worrying him and giving him his support ( whole anime didn’t do even single scene like this, when Sorey is grateful for Mikleo’s feelings, like he was in game and seeing this made me really happy in my dream). Anyway Mikleo is moved and he falls with his head on Sorey’s lap and cries.

There is where my dream ended and I was sad that it wasn’t real. It was damn stupid, it was cliche, it was cheesy, it was silly for Mikleo to act like this. And yet I can feel that real last episode of anime is going to be worst than this. Worst than silly dream just like rest of episodes were.

I’m not saying that Sorey and Mikleo romance was perfect in game. If you watch scenes and skits clearly you can see how much they take care of each other. We have famous Sauna skit. But they aren’t labeled as romance and that’s Sormik main problem. Namco made them always stood beside each other but always with some space between them. Many scenes just scream that this is the right moment for them to hold hands or just put hand on other’s shoulder. I’m not talking about kissing, none tales story had it, but since one putting of Mikleo’s hand on Sorey’s shoulder we didn’t get anything like this later. I read somewhere that while making game they have „toned down” their relationship, yet I don’t know if that’s true/real. I didn’t saw note talking about it myself. The other question if it’s real is what they „toned down”? Did Sorey and Mikleo hugged? Did they held hands on some point? We will never know.

We have words of „One and only” but that all we got and it would never let some people stop screaming that Sormik isn’t canon. We have „unfinished” confession from Mikleo. Because I think it’s main problem that made anime look like this. That made sormik fandom die faster than you can say Xenosaga.

There is no clear announcement that Sormik was suppose to be canon. Not in game. Not in anime. The words of „one and only” aren’t enough for some people. No amount of explain behind Alisha leaving party, Mikleo being Sorey’s one and only, that Sorey and any girl would work out going to change people minds.

I don’t think fans who support Sormik need any more prof of them being canon. It would be nice but not necessary. We want it so others could stop hurt Mikleo, so both Sorey and Mikleo could be happy and other characters could be themselves.

When I thought about romances in tales games, and yes I played them for 10 years right now, many romances weren’t greatly done. But since it’s boyxgirl it’s easier to find simple looking in eyes with affection, grab hands or supporting each other as romance affection.

Sormik as it is now it’s hard to clearly label as romantic for everyone. Some may think it more or less or just simply brothers relationship.

Let’s look at other Tales games. At beginning I want to say that I support those couples too just like Sormik.

I think most unclear romance is YurixEstelle. After watching gameplay I asked myself question, was that love? Or simply friendship? Really, compare to those two Sormik is already romance. Someone can say but Yuri tried save Estelle so many times! They had alone talk with each other before final battle.

Sorey and Mikleo had moments alike this a lot with other ones and I don’t think Yuri even once said Estelle looks sexy after sauna. If YurixEstelle are canon then Sormik too in Tales of games style.

LloydxCollete was nice done, we clearly see Lloyd care for Collette and it’s not only because she’s his childhood friend. Symphonia anime, also made by Ufotable was heaven compare to Zestiria. It followed main plot, didn’t change characters personalities and the most important thing, it cherished LloydxCollette canon. So don’t get me wrong over hating Zestiria X. I wanted simply repeat from Symphonia, to see Zestiria story/moments as anime and I got something that trashed plot and characters.

Xillia, as much as it’s clear that canon pair is JudexMilla they doesn’t touch or kiss to feel that they are canon. They only hold hands at the end before… they simply parting ways. I remember loving those two, Jude’s love for Milla was so sweet and ending broke me. I never played Xillia 2 because I was afraid it would ruin my beloved canon. Did someone said that Milla didn’t start to romantically care for Jude, or Jude for Milla? No. Even the reality when he was human (ehem Sorey) and she spirit (ehem Mikleo) didn’t make canon less possible. Milla may over live Jude, but that’s another story.

From all clearly romance canon couples from Tales games I can say are: ShingxKohaku (he clearly says in game at least twice that he loves Kohaku), KylexReala (this whole game goes around their romance and later when Reala’s going to disappear Kyle don’t want for that to happen. They hug a lot too.

Tales of games have a lot cuples that comes from childhood friends: ReidxFarah, VeiguexClaire, LloydxCollette, AsbelxCheria, SenelxShirley (if in the end they are canon… Well, their relationship is complicated too, first Senel loves Shirley’s sister, but she died, then some people ship him hard with Chloe (ehem… she tried to kill him)) and SoreyxMikleo are just as another one of those couples.

So, to end this post, anime isn’t going to help Sormik matter, it made it only worse. I don’t think we ever get side story in any crossover game that would say „Sormik are romantic canon.” There is no way, even other canon couples rarely get their relationship on romance level in those games (usually they are at beginning level when they just know each other for some time example: LukexTear, LloydxCollette are mostly childhood friends usualy). We won’t be able to hear anything beyond „Sorey wants to spend rest of his life with his CHILDHOOD friend Mikleo” (Asteria’s radio audition) or Sorey knew Mikleo’s true name but oh well they are boys, it doesn’t mean Mikleo told it as romantic confession (Berseria, Berseria guide that says it’s different when boy telling another boy his true name). Even Zelos joking about Sorey and Mikleo being on date (Asteria) isn’t going to help everyone view Sormik as canon or let tell sormik supporters that we have nothing to worry about and just enjoy canonical Sormik.         

First episodes of anime gave hope about Sormik being something even more big than in game, but it was quickly destroyed. It was treated even worse from episode to episode. What comes from Ufotable sketch of Sorey and Mikleo sleeping on eachother shoulder, close and happy if it wasn’t in anime?

As for myself I’m sad about anime waste as whole Zestiria, not only Sormik. I don’t care how Zestiria X looks like, I don’t need to watch it. But each time I think that we never going to get because of Zestiria X a GOOD adaptation of game like Abyss or Symphonia had (gosh, even eternia was better, at least characters wasn’t so ooc even if it plot was awful, graphic too, but it was in the end only filler to main story. No one tried to change main plot). Chances for reboot of anime is 0%. That’s it. We never see tickle fight, fake marriage scene, Sorey losing his resonance, Rose hitting him, Dezel death (no, no kamikaze kill without real reason), fight with Tiamat, night at Lastonbell, EVERYONE seeing Sorey and Mikleo’s past, the ending of story… The only nice scene from game we got was Sorey holding his breath to let Alisha communicate with Lailah. That’s all.  

I love Zestiria OVA. It has perfect pacing and it was close as possible to game. I just simply wish we got something like this instead of Zestiria X.

helioangel  asked:

Thought of another! BAP gif reaction when you haven't been sleeping well and your sense of time gets very very scrambled? (this happened to me two weeks ago and it was pretty bad. i wrote that it was 2014 and thought something that happened the day before, was a week before lmao) thanks~~


“You’re so cute, haha, but please try & get some more sleep.”

He would find it so cute when you have a little mix-up with the time, but then he’d tell you to get as much rest as you need. Yongguk would let you know that it’s not healthy for you to barely getting any sleep.


“What made you like this? Oh gosh.”

He’d probably make fun at you first. Like, when you ask if it’s a day from last week, he would laugh so hard because he didn’t think that you’d be that far behind on time. Then he’ll probably be all cute & ask if you needed him to sleep better.


“We can’t have you be like this, so get some sleep, ok?”

You could find this guy be more on the worried side. He’d wonder how little sleep you’ve been getting. Rather than dates, he’d pretty much cuddle and take naps with you to make sure you were getting some sleep.


“We’re actually in the year 3030 now.”

As much as he cares that you are sleeping well, he can’t help but pull little jokes on you once in a while. The prankster in him won’t let him stop. He’d make you even more confused, to be quite honest.


“Wow, I never experience that before.”

More than anything, he would find your situation quite strange as it’s probably going to be something he heard for the first time. He’d ask you if you knew ways to help with that or if he could help out in any way.


“That day is long gone…”

He’d be so confused when you mention the wrong date and then proceed to ask you if you’re okay. When you tell him about your situation, he would be more understanding, telling you to get more rest.


I recently pulled the trigger on something I’ve been thinking about for years now: I bought an iPad Pro with accompanying Apple Pencil in the hopes of getting together a working solution to taking my work on the go.
Since people have been asking on Instagram and Twitter, I figured I’d try a little introductory review!

It starts with the fact that art brohirrim, Elfwood tween idol, and 2016 coolest Internet dude, Reagan Lodge went and shipped me a Pencil when he heard that I was waiting weeks for mine after ordering it. He even did me that rad wolf drawing that feels exactly like it does to hold a finally-unpacked wizardy futuredevice for artforging. Pro-tip: the Internet is awesome, the future is cool, and you should plan to wait a while for a pencil cuz apparently Apple didn’t make enough of these.
But one got to me! And I tried to shake the Rayman habit I was developing in the meantime to get some doodles made and see what this baby can art.

After less than a week with it, I’m loving what the device can do. Above is an assortment of drawings I’ve made from a combination of buses, pubs, coffee shops, friends’ couches, hotel rooms, airplanes and theme parks. (Yes, it’s been a crazy week ^_^ THE FIRST OF MANY!)

I gave the setup a test at the Apple Store at the encouraging of a few friends. As soon as I got into Adobe sketch with the pencil, I could feel it was responsive enough to pressure, and that even the relatively spartan little app had the brush support and a lagless quality that built my confidence that (with the right app) this could do the trick.
It feels different- not as weighty and soft as Cintiq can be- but that’s something my hand adjusted to quickly. It’s like switching from a pen to a paintbrush- it’s a new tool and it takes a little learning. In terms of its technical capabilities, it more than keeps up- and the tilt is a nice feature.

My biggest misgiving has been the fact that the pro doesn’t run a full version of photoshop- but the best surprise if the first week has been Procreate.

The surface and the companion both run Windows, and can handle the full version of Photoshop basically like a desktop would- but my experience with both was that they felt a little clunky (and I’m no great fan of Windows’ user experience, just personal preference).
With the Procreate app,the iPad answers a lot of those concerns and a fair few I didn’t think to raise.
So far it feels like a version of Photoshop pared down to just the tools I tend to use the most (with a few slightly frustrating exceptions, but it’s early yet in the life of the pencil and of procreate, so the team is actively adding new features and listening to the user base).
I miss layer masks and gradient fills, but I’ve found workarounds as I’ve played. The UI in procreate is beautiful and minimal- it supports gestures in a really delightful way (Ctrl-z is just a two fingered tap on the screen with your offhand, for instance)- using an app designed for a tablet and the pencil makes the worries about not having the keyboard, dual screens, and mouse that I’m used to just fade away.
I bought a wireless keyboard (the lady at the shop wrote out a physical receipt listing x1 Magic Keyboard and I felt like I was in an rpg) but I think I may just return it, since gestures have me covered.

There’s an adjustment period- it’s not perfect and it’s not a full-featured replacement for a desktop and a Cintiq, but if you want to make it work, you really can…it’s even a delight! I’m confident that what I don’t know yet, I can learn.
With the above sketches, I’ve been dropping little depth charges to see how far I can push it. With relatively little experimenting, I’m more and more excited about the possibilities. I’ve found my watercolor look pretty easy to recreate with a few of the default tools and brushes available to me in Procreate and even Adobe Sketch.
I haven’t posted it here for nda reasons, but I’ve even made meaningful progress on actual client work right off the bat.
I can paint and render, thumbnail and bring character concepts to finish- with the ability to hit a look that melds seamlessly with my body of work (you should see what James Jean can do with it! Sheesh!) it’s certainly not a toy, but a viable tool.

Also it’s pretty- 13" lap gaming is pretty mesmerizing, and taking selfies the size of your actual head isn’t not novel >_>

For someone who loves travel, freedom, mobility and the presence of OTHER HUMAN BEINGS (oh my gosh I might not have to sit alone in a room with a computer all the time!?)- this feels like it could be a game changer.
I’m pleased with mine for sure- now I just need to get myself an enormous rubber case so that I can’t destroy it in my sleep. (like I did on night one -_- Get apple care. Or foam carpets.)
See you soon, THE WORLD. I’m taking this show on the road!


More art and thoughts soon! Thanks for reading and watching, friends :-}) -n

anonymous asked:

May I have a matchup please? 5'4" ish straight black girl, likes to be layed on, coming to terms with being touch starved. Loves to eat, can cook decently, but can bake like really well. Sleeps a lot and forgets to take care of myself bc depression. Really weak sense of identity. Loves animals a whole bunch. Will put friends needs before my own and cares more about loved ones than I do myself. Gets a kick out of surreal memes and self-deprecating jokes. Has a cat named Baby

You sound adorable? Oh my gosh. I match you with…

Swapfell Papyrus! You both tend to have the same sense of humor, self destructive or not, and he’ll be there to reassure you that he totally disagrees with what you think of yourself. You each put others above yourself, even through depression, and you could probably help each other a lot. He’ll take your food over Sans’ any day (not that he’ll say it to his face), and can totally chill with cats.

Stony Prompt #42

Anonymous said: “How abt Steve kissing Tony on accident, because he was sleepy or something like that?”

This is always such a cute trope, oh my gosh /)7(\ Thanks for this and I hope you enjoy your Prompt fill<3

It only happens because Steve is too sleepy, too exhausted to think clearly. Their last mission was hard; none of them got out uninjured. And while Steve, thanks to the serum, heals faster than all of them, it comes with a price.

The price is that he usually spends a day or two in bed, eating and sleeping and not doing much more. His body’s accelerated healing needs a higher amount of rest to work and it always makes him slower.

Steve totally blames the incident on that.

When he gets up in the morning, his body still aches. Most of the cuts and broken bones have healed, but he can still feel the strain of these injuries. He can still feel how healing them takes up most of his strength.

As a result, Steve is bleary-eyes and the bone-deep exhaustion won’t let go of him. He’s not even quite awake when he stumbles into the kitchen and honestly… it might be that he’s still dreaming. Steve is never quite sure whether he’s awake or asleep in the few days that follow after he got seriously injured.

Natasha and Clint sit at the table. Natasha’s wrist is in a cast, Clint sports a white bandage around his head. They both give him a short nod, which Steve doesn’t even acknowledges. He only reacts to the hand that is suddenly pressed to his cheek and stares a little confused into chocolate-brown eyes that look him over.

“You’re not supposed to be up”, Tony says – and Steve can’t help but smile. So this is a dream, after all. Normally Tony doesn’t just touch him, or shows concern so openly. They don’t fight anymore like they used to, they are actually pretty good friends by now but… They don’t go beyond casual touches and occasionally a hug when it was a close call.

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Me playing Mystic Messenger: *obsessively checking phone* Omg when will the next chat room open I’m thirsty for more I just want to know what everyone is doing and make sure none of them are suffering. All the characters are so sweet asking you about your day and opening up to you and all that. Gosh I love them.


I Know. - Part 1 (a Nate Maloley story)

I understand. I understand how you feel. What you’re thinking. Your actions. I get it. And I’ve never even spoken a word to you before. 

 I sat on the roof of Katie Clemens’ house, watching all the drunk teenagers wander about as her party went on inside. I had a slight buzz from the shot of vodka I took as soon as I got here, but I stopped after just one and chose to look around. That’s how I ended up here. 

The bass thumps loudly as the music plays and I can feel it throughout my body while I still glance around the yard. It was probably around 2 am right now and some people were leaving. Probably to have sex, or hit another party, or just go home. I honestly don’t care. 

You may be wondering where my friends are? Believe me, I’m not some weird “lone-wolf” so you can drop that idea right now. But sometimes my few friends that I have, don’t know how to handle me. Most of those times are at parties like this. They just decide to leave me alone when we arrive to go do God-knows-what and I either chill around or become the life of the party. And that’s honestly okay with me. I obviously chose to chill this time around. 

So right now I don’t have a clue what the fuck they’re doing or where they are, but tomorrow we’ll probably text each other and go to the mall to hangout just like every other weekend after a party. 

I got bored and was just about to get up to leave when I notice someone walk out of the house. Not just any someone. Nate Maloley

Nate Maloley has been my secret crush since the 8th grade. He moved to Omaha from a different part of Nebraska and joined our middle school. At first my crush was just because he was the cute new kid, but then I started to observe him. 

I noticed that once he made friends and became part of our school community there were these little things about him. Like faces he made when he thought no one was looking, or the light in his eye when he had his headphones on listening to music, or how his shoulders slumped when he saw his friends with girls and he was alone. I saw these things and loved him more and more because of it. He was real.I think I’m able to understand how he feels and could connect with him when talking about our interests and demons. Sadly, I had never talked to him before during high school and now that we are freshly graduated I didn’t plan on it any time soon. 

Nate was standing on the lawn while looking around and fumbling with his car keys. To be honest, he looked hammered. I’m pretty sure he was trying to find his car so he could drive home but I couldn’t let him do that. Not when he was like this; something could happen to him. But, I’ve never spoken to him before and I don’t want him to hate me or anything. I can be so confident on some days, and on others ‘insecure’ was my middle name. 

I have a mini debate in my head before I choose to go help him out before he finds his car. I hurry to climb down from the roof on an ivy trellis and call his name, “Nate!“ 

He quickly turns his head in my direction with a confused expression and stumbles a bit. 

I walk to him and take his keys from his hand. 

He looks at me strangely and mumbles, "Lil mama w-what you thhhink you d-doin?" 

My heart flutters when he says ‘lil mama.’ "I’m helping you out. You are obviously too drunk to drive so I can take you home." 

He takes a second to process what I said and eventually agrees. 

I quickly found his car by using the alarm, and I got in the drivers side while he stumbled into the passenger side. I turn to him and ask, "Can you tell me how to get to your house?" 

He grunts and nods. 

I start the car to leave the neighborhood and get on the main road. He starts to doze off but I quickly shake him and ask where to go. "Nate, you gotta stay awake to tell me where I’m going." 

He sits up a little and says, "Yeah it’s not far. Turn at the next right and enter the first neighborhood." 

I do exactly that and ask what next. 

He looks out the window and points to an average light green house a couple houses down. "It’s that one over there. Just park in the driveway." 

I pull into the driveway and turn off the car. I turn to look at him. God, he was beautiful. He was slightly snoring, so I had to shake him to wake him up. "Nate, love, you’re home." 

He grunts some more and goes to take my hand off but holds onto it instead. "You got soft hands lil’ mama.” He says with a light snicker and his eyes still closed. 

My eyes almost roll back hearing him call me that again. It’s so quiet sitting here in the car with him. The sound of his deep breaths and the lack of my breath from holding it in. 

All of a sudden Nate sits up, unbuckles his seat belt, and gets out of the car. 

I sit there in shock not knowing what to do. Just watching him leave. 

He was walking towards his front door when he turns to me still in his car and says, “Aren’t you coming?" 

My mouth went dry. I’m usually cool and collected, but with Nate that’s all out the window. I grabbed his keys and got out, locking the car. Nate has a dopey grin on his face when I approach him. 

He grabs his keys and slowly looks for his house key and unlocks the front door. He just bursts through straight into the living room, making lots of noise. 

I shush him, "Won’t your parents be mad for coming home late and making noise?" 

He laughs. "My parents ain’t here, shawty. Th-they bought me this house as a graduation present. It’s just me and my best bro Sam.” He slurs. 

Sam Wilkinson… “And where is he?" 

"Huh, probably out getting turnt. Maybe with a girl. Idontknow.” He plops down on the couch. “So are we gonna do this or what?" 

I slightly tilt my head. "Do what?" 

He grins. "You knowww. Get it on!” Then he sloppily sings the intro music for the song 'Let’s Get it On.' 

As much as I want to, this is NOT how I imagined my first time with Nate. So I decided to hold off. “Um no, I came to make sure you didn’t die." 

"Whaaaattt? You didn’t come to get some Nate lovin’?" 

Oh my god. "Uh no. You wouldn’t remember in the morning, and I have loved you for too long for you to forget me. Want some water?” Fuck it. He’s too wasted to know what I’m saying and I might as well try to save him from his future hang over. 

He raises an eyebrow. “Forget you? You’re Skylar Woodrow. I’d never forget you.” He says and turns to look me in the eyes from his position on the couch, while I’m still standing between the door and the kitchen. 

“Y-you know me?” I was truly bewildered. 

“'Course. You’re the beautiful girl who can turn up like no other and went to school with me. We had algebra together." 

I can’t believe he’s known me all this time, while I’ve basically loved him. But he has one of his facts mixed up. "Well, you must have the wrong girl because I’m not beautiful." 

He looks back up at his ceiling and says, "You’re right. You’re more than that, you’re a goddess." 

I blushed really hard now. God, if he wasn’t drunk, the things I would do to him… But then again, if he was sober he probably wouldn’t be saying any of this. "I’m just gonna go get you that water,” I say as I turn into his kitchen and find a glass to fill with water from the fridge. I walk back, my heels clicking on the hard floor and then onto the carpet, and hand him the glass. 

Nate grabs it but doesn’t pull it. He just holds the glass and my hand for a while looking up at me. He finally murmurs, “I’m happy you came with me." 

I smile and whisper back, "Me too." 

Then he takes the glass, chugs it, and hands it back. He then asks, "Can you stay here tonight?" 

Ohmygod. Nate Maloley just asked me to stay the night. It’s not like I’ve never slept over at a friends house. Or a guys house. But Nate Maloley? Holy shit. I respond, "Uh yeah. That’d be great." 

He smiles again, boy this kid is smiley, and gets up. He asks, "My room or guest room?” Did he just ask if I wanted to sleep in his bed? Yesyesyesyes. But I don’t want him to wake up with some girl in his bed, not like it’s never probably happened before, but I’ll take the guest room. “Guest room please.” He just nods, turns towards the stairs and slowly walks up trying not to trip. 

Eventually he leads me to his guest room. Inside was just a queen sized bed, a nightstand, an empty closet, and an attached bathroom. All I really needed was the bed, because I suddenly became exhausted. 

Nate and I said goodnight then I took off my shoes and jewelry, and put my phone on the nightstand. I realized I don’t have the proper sleep attire and would probably have to borrow from Nate. So I left the room and walked towards the door with a dim light shining from the bottom. 

I grabbed the handle and entered to see a half-naked Nate getting ready to put on some basketball shorts. “Oh gosh! I should have knocked. I’m so sorry!” I exclaimed while looking at him. Or more at his torso. His tattoos were so hot.. And his abs… Is it hot in here? I couldn’t help but stare.

Nate just laughed and continued to put his shorts on. “Ya need something? Or you just here to look at me?” Then he sits on his bed.

My mouth was slightly dry but I managed to say, “I, uh, was wondering if you have clothes I could, maybe, borrow?” I was standing awkwardly in his doorway.

He smiles with his cute dimples showing and nods. “Yeah, I gotchu.” He gets up and walks to his dresser. He gets out one of his shirts and a pair of his boxers and tosses them to me.

I squeak out a “Thanks.” and turn around to walk back to the guest room. I hear him yell out another “Goodnight!” and what sounded like him getting into his bed. I say, “Night.” and close my door.

I immediately undress and put on his clothes. They smell just like him… I got into the bed and finally relaxed, relishing in Nate’s scent from his clothes. 

I’m in Nate Maloley’s house. In his guest room. Just a few feet from where he’s probably sleeping right now. This is nuts. I almost couldn’t contain my excitement. After almost 5 years of me thinking he barely knew of my existence, he’s known me all along and now I’m in his house. Holy. Shit. I wonder where Sam is?

I shook out of my thoughts and settled into the soft pillows and quickly fell asleep.


I woke up after having a wonderful sleep. I looked around and couldn’t recognize my surroundings. Then I remembered, I’m in Nate Maloley’s guest room. I became excited all over again. 

I had to pee and tried to get up, but felt something holding me back. I realized a pair of arms were wrapped around my waist. What the hell? I slightly turn my head to see Nate’s face while he was lightly snoring, still asleep. What is he doing here? I mean, not that I’m complaining… 

I really had to pee though and thought that maybe I could slip away and come back. I tried to carefully pull Nate’s arms away but that only made him strengthen his grip. I tried again, but more forcefully and he pulled his arms away and flipped over. I quietly slipped out the bed and tiptoed to the bathroom.

After I did my business and rinsed my face really quick, I went back out to the room. Nate was still asleep and I could hear him snoring. As much as I wanted to go back to his strong arms, I thought that I might wake him up so I’d do something else while I waited. I decided to make him breakfast.

It was about 10 am and if Sam came back home at some point then he’s probably still asleep too, so I quietly made my way downstairs. I looked for pans to make cheesy eggs and bacon to help with the inevitable hangover, while making as little noise as possible. I even tried to make the sizzle of the bacon quiet. 

When I was done making 3 plates for Nate, Sam, and I, I took two of them and 2 aspirin that I found earlier along with a glass of water up to the guest room. 

I entered the room and set everything on the nightstand. I should probably wake Nate up at this point, so I slowly started rubbing up and down his arm. “Nate, hun, wake up.” I whispered. 

His breathing picked up as he turned over. With his eyes still closed he groggily says, “Not now, Mom.” His morning voice had me feeling some kind of way.

I snickered. “Nate, I’m not your mom. It’s Sky. And I bring gifts.” 

He furrows his eyebrows still asleep and says, “Sky? …Skylar?” Then he finally opens up his eyes. “Oh yeah. Hey.”

I ask, “Hey. Do you remember me being here?”

He responds, “Yeah. I was just a little confused. My head is killing me.”

“Well I thought so. I brought you aspirin and made breakfast. If that’s okay.”

He grins with those cute dimples of his. “It’s more than okay.” Then he turns and grabs the aspirin and water and takes it quickly. 

I hand him his plate and he eats fast. 

“This is so good. Thanks Skylar.” He says with his mouth full.

I giggle. “No problem.” I didn’t wanna eat my breakfast quite yet so instead I ask, “So… do you know why you were in bed with me this morning?”

He finishes up his plate before slowly responding, “Uh, yeah. I woke up after sleeping for about an hour and couldn’t go back to sleep, so I thought it would help if I slept with you. It totally helped. I hope it was okay.”

Oh Nate you have no idea. “Yeah it’s totally okay. Thanks for letting me stay here.” He nodded basically saying “You’re welcome.” I continued, “Uh, do you remember anything from last night?” 

He stays quiet thinking about it for a bit. He says, “Not really. Just going to the party, and all my friends found girls so I decided to go home. Then I got home, but with you. And we went to sleep and now we’re here.” He looked into my eyes for a second as I nodded but then focused on the comforter, seemingly in deep thought.

So I guess he doesn’t remember too many details. I saw the way his face slightly fell when saying how his friends got girls, and he was the one to go home. He was still quietly thinking. I rest my hand on his arm and ask, “Is everything okay?” and look at his eyes.

He returns my gaze, “Yeah, why wouldn’t it be?”

I crossed my legs on the bed getting more comfortable so I could face him. “Nate, I know this is the first time we’ve actually, like, talked, but you can tell me anything. Okay? I understand.”

He murmurs back in a hushed voice, “What do you understand?”

I grabbed his hand and said, “I see you, Nate. I’ve always seen you. So, if you have something you wanna say, don’t be afraid to tell me. I observed you in school and I feel like I know the Nate that you’re afraid to talk about.” I totally just told him that I watched him but I don’t care. I may never have a moment like this with Nate ever again and I feel like I should tell him.

He continues to look at me and opens his mouth to say something but closes it again.

“What is it?” I ask.

“Can.. can you just lay with me?” He seemed so vulnerable all of a sudden. 

Of course I agreed. I’ve dreamt of a moment like this for a long time. So, I grabbed the covers and got under them with him. 

He immediately wraps his arms around my waist again while we face each other just looking at each other. I lightly run my fingers along his back, feeling his deep but slightly shaky breaths. 

We lay like this for a while before he opens his mouth again to say something. “Sky… can I tell you something?”

I nod and say “Of course,” while I continue to touch his back and shoulders.

“I’ve always thought you were really beautiful…” His grip on my waist slightly loosens with how nervous he was to say that. It was incredibly cute.

I grin. “Yeah, well you kind of told me that last night. Calling me a goddess and all.”

He looks at me with wide eyes, “I said that?” 

I nod. “Yeah. Right after offering me sex.”

He blushed and hid his face in the pillow while mumbling, “I can’t believe that.”

I laughed and said, “It’s okay. It was funny.”

He peeks at me with his face still half way in the pillow, “So would you say yes?”

Now my eyes were wide. “NATE!” I exclaim and hit his chest, while he snickers into the pillow. We just laughed together for a second before moving on. 

Nate speaks up again and asks, “So Sky… You said you watched me,” This made me blush. “And so I was wondering what you’ve ‘observed’ that makes you think you know the ‘other Nate’?” The way he said it made it seem like he was making fun of what I confessed earlier, but I could tell he was genuinely curious about what I’ve seen.

I tell him, “Well, I know that you get a little sad when your friends have girls and you don’t. But I think you’re the type to be a little more picky which is why, so don’t feel too bad… And I can tell you really love music. You light up when you have headphones on, or when you would sneak ear buds during class, which I saw too. I also love some of the faces you make depending on the situation.” I realized I was rambling and probably sounded like a creep. 

But Nate actually seemed amused. “You saw all that?” 

“Yeah. I… I actually, uh, I’ve likedyousincethe8thgrade.” I quickly mumbled the last part.

“What was that?” He asks with a slight smirk.

How could he be so damn cute right now. I’m ready to dissolve into the air. I admit, “I’ve liked you since the 8th grade.” I still mumbled but slower so he could understand. I didn’t dare look at him.

He lifts my chin to look him in the eye and looks back at me. We were already so close and I felt everything around us disappear. He slowly leans in and closes his eyes, and I do the same. Our lips just brushed against each other’s when my phone beeps making us slightly back away from each other. 

I turn over to grab my phone and give Nate an apologetic look while he lets go of my waist. It was a text from me and my friends’ groupchat. They were asking if we were all meeting at the mall. Everyone responded saying yes, but I had a feeling I couldn’t really leave Nate right now so I texted back, “Nah, sorry guys.” Everyone went nuts with responses.

‘What? We always go to the mall.’ ‘What are you up to?’ ‘Haha. So funny. Come on.’ ‘What do you mean, nah?’ ‘Sky is that you?’

I felt Nate’s eyes on my back and so I quickly type back, “Srry guys. I’m busy rn. Gtg.” and put my phone on silent. I flip back over and meet his eyes again.

He asks, “Is everything okay?”

I just nod and say, “Yeah, just my friends asking if I was meeting them later. But I think this is a lot better.”

He smiles and throws an arm back over me while I scoot closer to him. I snuggle my face into his chest and he holds me tighter. 

It sucks that we didn’t get to kiss, but we just laid there enjoying each others presence instead. Believe me, I plan to get that kiss just not now. Heck, I talked to him for the first time last night. 

I felt Nate’s breaths get slower and looked up to see he fell back asleep. He had a lazy smile on his lips and it was so adorable. I put my head back on his chest and decided to sleep some more as well, and we slept for a while longer.

I could get used to this…


Thanks for reading! This is the first part of a Nate idea I had, so hopefully you liked it. I was planning to make this just a multi-part story, but if you would like a series instead then let me know! A link is in my bio. Sorry if this is eh…

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-Ash xo

Part 2