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Weightloss

Everyone is on their own journey, they want to lose weight, gain weight, or get fitter. We all have our reasons and views on why we are doing this and what we want to achieve. This is the history of my weightloss journey and where I want things to go…

I started this blog around 5 years ago, at that stage I was so unhappy with my body I was around 220lbs at 18 years old and 5′1. I was so unhappy with how I looked and I really struggled with trying to lose weight. Then I started tumblr and I found that extra bit of motivation I needed. I started losing weight then when I started uni and was 19 years old I was at 160lbs. I still wasn’t happy but I had come a long way. I was more condfident and felt better. I was proud of how my body had changed and how much healthier my eating habits were. 

Then in my 2nd/3rd year of uni I stopped going to the gym. I went out a lot, worked hard and did enjoy uni life but left my health in the background. I put on more weight when I left uni and got a job I went back up to 197lbs. I wasn’t happy with my life, my relationship, my job and I needed to change things. I got a new job, decided to end my relationship in order to spend some time on me. That was over 2 months ago. 

Since then I have gone down to 183lbs. I haven’t started working out again yet but I’m planning to get back into the 30DS tomorrow. I don’t want to go on any dates or meet someone new because I am not happy with myself right now. I know it’s all about balancing learning to love who you are and achieving the goals you want which I am trying to do. But I know that right now I would not feel confident getting naked in-front of another person because I don’t like what I see when I look in the mirror. I know I can do better than this and have a healthy lifestyle and be the weight I want to be. Loving myself is treating my body well and being kind to it, which I haven’t done a lot of. Right now my focus is me and my fitness.I want to be the best version of myself and that can be  and that can be achieved through discipline, a healthy lifestyle and having that motivation to keep going. 

There are a lot of you on here who have inspired me and motivated me throughout the years. I feel genuinely lucky to have some amazing followers and people on here who support me. I will be here, always, for anyone who has any fears/questions/struggles about their weightloss journey because I have been there. Everything you are thinking I probably thought. I’m older but not much wiser, but I will be able to relate to you. I wish I had someone who could have understood why things like not being abel to swap clothes with my friends, or get into full length photos with my friends upset me. Just so you know, there will always be someone to listen and understand how you’re feeling. This is a journey many of us go through and there is a lot of support out there if you need it.