“Phichit Chulanont from Thailand. He won the Cup of China, becoming the first Southeast Asian figure skater to qualify for the Grand Prix Final, but I feel he’s also peerless when it comes to skillful selfies.”
I looked through our conversations when we used to be on cloud nine and in love, these were the times you told me how lucky you are to have a girl like me, how thankful you are because you never received such love I was giving to you and whatever happens, you will never let me go. The words you said mean everything to me and it stabs my heart, realizing that these words mean nothing anymore. I can’t help myself but to cry my heart out till the sun has set. The pain is too heavy to bear, the love I believed to be true and different was gone. We used to be over the moon, but the present tells the opposite. This is stupid of me to say but, I won’t deny the fact that I miss you so much. I love you, I still do. But somehow, I’ve come with the thought that I can’t do anything anymore, I need to let you go because it’s the right thing to do. I’ve decided to finally move on and this would be the last time I would cry over you because there was nothing left to hold on to and I can’t hold on to something that doesn’t want to be held.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I was the reason why you let things end. I’m sorry for the terrible mistake I made, I never blamed you for deciding to end this because you were hurt and I understand. I only have myself to blame. But, I was hoping you would’ve understood, that I did it for us. I always feared the day would come, the day you will finally won’t take back the words you’ve said. I’m sorry for the other things that have hurt you, for the things that made you cry, jealous and mad.
Thank you. I’m thankful that I met you because you have given me a temporary bliss. I laughed and smiled because of you. Somehow, you made me feel loved and beautiful in a short period of time. Thank you for the good days: the days we felt unstoppable like we’re flying high, when holding your hand felt like home, leaning on your shoulders made me feel secure and hearing your voice sound like the angels are singing. It was worth it, being loved and loving you. Thank you for making me realize how capable I am to love someone. You proved forever within a number of days. You were the greatest and worst thing ever happen to me.
Goodbye. This will be the last time that I will write you a message, I’ll accept the fact that some things are meant to end, even though I used to believe that you won’t let that happen. I did everything I could to make you stay, but I guess your life no longer includes me because, you’re happy now and I can see that clearly. You already found a love that’s all the things ours couldn’t be. I hope you find overwhelming joy by her side, I hope she won’t hurt you and make you cry. I hope for the best for the both of you. It hurts but I’ve accepted the painful truth that I am just a distant memory now. I don’t regret loving you, but what I regret is that I let myself believe that this would last.
I won’t forget you and the memories, I will always keep you alive in my heart. I’ll just get used to not having you in my life anymore. Deep within my heart knows getting over you won’t be simple. I need to stop loving you so I can start loving myself again. You were a painful blessing, but you were also a great lesson. I guess you’re just another chapter of my life needed to end. I still and will pray for your safety and happiness even though I’m in pain right now, I still believe you deserve the best. I hope you find everything in her that you couldn’t find in me. You will always be my greatest love.
-he loves animals, real or unreal. for a girl who’s always wanted to be a cryptozoologist, he’s my soulmate. -he’s awkward, goofy, shy and that makes him sexy unlike the guys who look great and tend to come with a great ego problem as well -he knows SO MUCH about magical creatures and he’s neither arrogant nor a show-off. -he has trouble expressing what he feels which means he won’t rush things in a relationship. -but when he loves, he loves truly, madly, deeply- he still carries his ex’s picture with him & thinks about her even though it wasn’t a healthy relationship. -his heart is in the right place, no matter what -he has this inherent goodness and he knows most people aren’t like that. he knows humans are the most vicious creatures on the planet and yet he doesn’t let that faze him. he’ll do his own bit to make this world a better place. -in many ways, he’s kinda like a child who needs some hugs and cuddles. -he’s his own person and literally lives out of a suitcase. he’ll never be too dependent or too possessive. he’ll invest his heart and soul in a relationship but he knows when his partner needs space. -he’ll never forget a kind word or deed. fiercely loyal, with a heart of gold, he’ll always repay a kindness in his own way. he’ll never take anyone for granted. -sweet merlin, his hair. who wouldn’t want to run their fingers through it?
that’s it. I want Newt Scamander for Christmas. Period. (btw I’m open to mood board and fanfic requests!)