So what if you’re alone right now. Embrace it. Go get coffee alone. Shop alone. Drive alone. Watch movies alone. Get to know yourself. Nothing bad can come from riding whatever wave to self improvement you’re blessed with in the moment.
First forget inspiration. Habit is more dependable. Habit will sustain you whether you’re inspired or not. Habit will help you finish and polish your stories. Inspiration won’t. Habit is persistence in practice.
Home was never a matter of ‘where’, but of 'when’. Homes are made of fond memories, not building materials. Where ever you end up, it’s up to you to make that home. Go make a good one. The home you had here will always be with you.
I know a lot of you feel awful right now. This is not an attempt to lessen the importance of your suffering, but to help you rest a bit. If you are like me, perhaps a bit of stupidity and laughs can give you a moment to regain strength before going back to reality, hopefully with a -slightly- lighter mood.
Don’t be afraid of the dark, disjointed thoughts in your head…
I promise you there’s nothing wrong with you.
It is the human condition to be messy and broken. I fear we are too complicated to be put together right. We are highly intelligent creatures that evolved too fast for our primitive side to catch up. We grapple with a myriad of emotions so complex we often cannot even comprehend WHAT we are feeling, much less HOW to deal with it.
We are obsessed with order and perfection when by our very nature we are chaotic and flawed and it causes us to confine our darker selves… to lock them away where nobody else can see them.
We are a cyclone in a bottle… a storm of immense power contained within a vessel we present as ‘ordinary’ or ‘normal’ and we all have difficulty containing it sometimes.
So embrace yourself – accept yourself.
You are exactly like everyone else in your own unique way. We all struggle to make sense of our own minds… we all battle with demons that nobody else can see. And those times when we are at our worst we all secretly fear there is something deeply wrong within us that cannot be fixed… Something dark and terrible that makes us different from everyone else…
But I’m here to tell you that you are not alone – we are all inherently flawed and we all go through this. There’s nothing wrong with you, you’re just overwhelmed and that too is normal.
It’s okay… everything is going to be okay…