It’s so funny because I don’t like what is happening but I can guarantee the minute Danny and Ryan are on screen together where Aaron and Robert can actually express what they feel, I’m going to be so loving every minute.
There are people who won’t be able to enjoy their scenes, I guess because of the secret and somehow it will seem less but lord – not me. I wish there was nothing to hide or any reason not to be able to tell him – but both those things are happening so within the framework of everything I am good with that.
But jesus – their scenes – their scenes are going to be amazing, heartbreaking, glorious scenes. Robert loves the bones of Aaron, he just doesn’t even know what to do with it and Aaron feels the same way. Think of it. Robert being with Aaron and loving him isn’t a lie. This isn’t Chrissie. Bex was a mistake, a terrible one that he never would have made sober. So everything he says and does for Aaron is REAL Thinking that he doesn’t deserve to be with Aaron, that he isn’t good enough for him is where all that pain is going to come from.
It’s the remorse and guilt I’m going to effing love. It’s Robert just kicking himself constantly because he did this to them. It’s holding and loving Aaron so much harder because Robert isn’t stupid and he knows, he knows, it’s going to be ugly when it comes out.
The hell you say I won’t fucking love every moment of that.