Walking into my boyfriend and I’s bedroom I found him sitting on our king size bed, his back supported by the headboard and his eyes glued to the flat screen that hung on the wall opposite to the bed
“Hey babe” I said as I sat down on the bed so I could take off my heels
“Hey” Justin said, his eyes never leaving the screen.
I started walking towards our ensuite bathroom, taking off my dress on the way, leaving me in my bar and panties. Throwing the dress into the laundry hamper that was getting pretty full, I then walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror.
I put my hair up in a messy ponytail and started taking off all the make up and dirt that gathered on my face through the day, off my face.
When I was done cleaning up, I walked out of the bathroom and into our walk-in wardrobe. I took off my bra and put on one of Justin’s big T-shirts.
I walked back into our room, seeing Justin at the same position he was in when I first walked into the room, about 15 minutes ago.
Crawling onto the bed and under the sheets I snuggled closer to Justin, feeling the heat from his body radiating onto me “What’s up babe? How was your day?” I said and started tracing shapes on his bare chest
Justin properly acknowledged my presence by wrapping his arm around me and pulling me closer to his chest “It was fine, what about yours?” he said softly
“It was pretty good, job was okay and I ate lunch with Zoe at that place we like, so that was fun” I told him as I looked up at him “I just want this month be over! July is always busy and I get home so late, its so tiring” I continued. I let out a sigh when I was done talking, and laid my head back on his chest.
“Yeah…” Justin replayed, obviously not paying attention to what I just said.
I started planting soft kisses on his chest all the way up to his ear “I thought about you all day baby…” I whispered seductively in his ear before I put his earlobe into my mouth and bite it lightly. His breath got caught in his throat, but he quickly hid it by clearing his throat “What are you doing (Y/N)?” he asked glancing at me for a second before moving his eyes back to the hockey game that was on tv
Getting on top of him so that I was straddling his lower part “I just want to have some fun daddy….” I said sexily, I knew how much he loves it when I call him “daddy”. I began kissing down his neck, trying to find his weak spot. I just when I thought he was starting to get into it, Justin grabbed my face and made me look at him. “I’m sorry baby but I’m just not in the mood” he said looking into eyes. He kissed my lips softly and then tapped my thighs, signing me that he wanted me to get of of him.
“Oh…alright” I said awkwardly as I got off of him slowly.
It’s been two hours since Justin rejected me and it’s the only thing that’s been on my mind
I always knew Justin was too good for me, I felt like I wasn’t good enough for him and I had more than enough people on the internet who agreed with me. Justin hated it when I said something like that. “You’re more than good enough for me”, “If anything, you’re too good for me!” he’d say, and for the longest time I actually believed him. I felt like I was worth it. But lately I’m getting those feelings again. I feel like he doesn’t care about me anymore, like he just got bored, and just grew tired of me. Today today was the final straw, I guess.
Laying on my back and staring at the ceiling of our room, I heard the tv being shut off and from the corner of my eyes I saw Justin turning to his side and looking at me.
“Penny for your thoughts?” he asked while supporting his head with his hand.
“No penny, there’s nothing on my mind” I said calmly, trying to hide anything my voice could give up about how I was feeling. The lump in my throat was growing bigger and thicker now.
“Babe you’ve been oddly quiet tonight, what’s bothering you?” Justin said while running his hand up and down my arm
“It’s nothing, really” I said before flipping onto my side so that my back was now facing him. I couldn’t hold in the tears anymore and as soon as I face facing away from him all the tears came out, running down my cheeks and staining my pillow.
I felt Justin getting closer to me from behind and soon enough his arm was wrapped around my stomach as he pulled me closer to him. “Hey…babygirl what’s going on?” turning me around so I was facing him, he could see I was crying “Why are you crying?” he asked worriedly before whipping my wet cheeks with his hands and held my face there, so I wouldn’t be able to look away.
Taking a deep breath, I knew I had to talk to him now. I looked deeply into his hazel brown eyes that I’ve grown to love so much
“Do you still love me?”
Seeing confusion flashing though his eyes I look down at my hands that were caught between our bodies, and bite down on my bottom lip.
Sitting up on the bed Justin took my hands in his and pulled me up so that I was sitting up as well “Are you serious right now (Y/N)? Of course I still love you! I love you more than anything in the world!” he said and then ran a hand through his hair “What made you doubt it? Did I do something?” looking into my eyes he asked, grabbing my hands and holding them tight.
“Its just that lately you never….like you never wanna do anything. We haven’t had sex in so long and whenever I try to start something you just reject me. Are you even attracted to me still..?”
Shaking his head, he grabbed me by the thighs and placed me on his crossed legs
“You are the best thing that’s ever happened to me babe, I mean it. You’re my everything and I love you so fucking much it hurts! You’re so amazing” he planted a kiss on my forehead “and smart” and one on my left cheek “and beautiful” and one on my nose “and sexy” and finally he smashed his lips onto mine, spilling every little ounce of love he had in him into the kiss. Pulling away he pecked my lips one more time before he continued
“I’m sorry I haven’t been that affectionate to you babe, but I was just super busy with the new album and campaigns and I just didn’t give you all the attention you deserve. I’m truly sorry for that. I promise from now on I’ll give you all the love and caring that you deserve, because you deserve the world baby. I don’t want you to feel like you’re not good enough or that you’re not as loved as you should be, ever again. I love you so much (Y/N) and I hate myself for making you feel that way.”
wrapping my arms around his neck I pulled him closer to me “I love you Justin, more than anything in the world” I said right before kissing him passionately but yet gently, needing this kiss more than anything right now.
“I love you too baby, and I’m sorry for treating you that way, you deserve the best” he said as we pulled away to get some air
“You are the best babe” I stated as I started running my hand through his hair
“I love you babygirl”
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