Dear, how are you finding university? I'm only asking as I'm due to study myself and I'm perpetually torn between simultaneously adoring and hating academia. I feel like I belong and also a stranger at the same time. I wanted to ask you because your thoughts (judging by your answers) are so beautifully constructed and wise
this is not going to be beautifully constructed or wise but: it has been far away from what i idealized. some classes are nice and some people are nice, i have moments of inspiration, success and fun but for actually making it nice for me i should have worked harder last year already. i haven’t really gotten many friends or found a place for myself because i’m shy, lazy and depressed. now i’m taking baby steps and proving myself i’m not a hopeless case. all i can say is: just go to every social gathering etc you can even if it seems tiring or uninteresting. you’re gonna have all kinds of good time eventually: there are things for you out there.