golden-birthday

Monster Hug! Why? Because it’s fun, and because it’s @mistrel-fox​‘s birthday! Or it WAS… I miscalculated because of gosh darned timezones! Either way, hope your day was fantastic!

We started chatting because of Monfalls, and we haven’t stopped since. You’re the best friend in the Far East Russia a weenie could ask for~

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Today we turn 30. Along with making the conscious decision to both quit our jobs & pursue our dreams we’ve also taken away some valuable lessons as we enter our 4th decade. The seasoning that comes in the years between 20 & 30 is indispensable. It can’t be taught in any school or read in any book. As often as we remember, we try to be the women we want to be. Sometimes we forget. Sometimes we lose sight of her. But, she always comes back. We’ve learned to cultivate important relationships. To water our flowers & pick our weeds. Fill ourselves with love, with whole foods, with books & good energy. Those are the things that are important. Learned, sometimes the hard way, to let people deal with their own shit. Not to internalize others issues or attempt to save them. People aren’t things to be rescued & repaired. We’re entitled to occupy as much space as we like with our awesomeness, & have become incredulous of anybody who tells us differently. The process of unlearning while simultaneously learning has been the most transforming of experiences in our lives. There’s a lot of rewiring and re-understanding that has to gradually take the place of everything we’ve been telling ourselves for so long. We deserve to occupy space. We deserve to stand up for ourselves & claim our right to happiness. We hope you do too.

On a beautiful Thursday,

the 22nd of July of the year 1993, you were born. An innocent pulchritudinous, chubby cheeked baby boy you were. Full of love and joy; who would never cause harm to people. Those were the golden days, before you grew up into the young man that you’ve become. Oh how your life changed. And to think you had the power of your future right in your hands, you went on choosing the wrong path, and now your future is different. Very different than what it would’ve been if you had chosen otherwise. As you may have guessed, it’s your birthday today. Your Golden Birthday. The big 22. This is your third birthday that you spend behind bars. The sad part about this is that there are many more of these to come, but the actual amount that are left are unknown as you wait for your execution. Who would’ve thought you’d be spending a birthday locked up in a tiny cell, let alone 3 birthdays now. And to think you did this to yourself. You had the power to change the outcome and you didn’t. I will always wonder why you did this, but that’s not the point of this little essay. The point is that it’s your birthday. I wonder if you know it’s your birthday? Do you keep track of time? Do you know what day it is? What are you going to do today besides read, eat, pray, and sleep? Do you ever wish you could have some cake to eat? Do you wish you had your family gathered around you by your side whilst you blow out the birthday candles on top of your cake? I know you did the unthinkable, but I also know that you’re not a bad person. You did a terrible, terrible thing, but I know and many other people know that you’ve got a heart. You have feelings too. I know you’ve cried countless amounts of times in the privacy of your cell. I know you’ve felt the pain of everyone else on your shoulders. I want to wish you a happy birthday, but I know that from the time you turned 20 your birthdays have stopped being happy ones. So instead, I wish you good health, safety, and knowledge from all the books you’ve read these past years. I wish you had the chance to talk to your mother, father, and sisters on the phone. I know you only have 15 minutes to talk to them, but I hope those 15 minutes last an eternity. I hope you know that you’re not alone. You’ve never been alone. There are and have been many people that still care for you after everything that happened. Don’t ever feel alone. On the days that you’re feeling like breaking down, stop yourself and think about everyone that still cares. About everyone that’s still here for you, because I swear to you there are still people here and they will never leave you alone. So, don’t ever feel alone.

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Here it is! 🎉🎂NEVER MISS MONDAY🎂🎉

So today, I leave behind my 20s and I enter my 30s. I cannot believe that another decade has passed. I’ve spent my last decade getting married, bought a house and had twins. I let my health get away from me. This changed in April. I decided to take back my life. I knew I was about to turn 30, and I had enough. My kids need me. So I put down the Big Mac and picked up the Dumbbells.

I’ve met and interacted with so many of you the past few months. I want to take the time to thank you all! I’m truly inspired by everyone of you. I see how hard you work. I see how much you care for each other. This truly gets me up at 5am everyday.

Thank you for letting me share my journey so far. I’ve learned to open up about myself and it truly made me a different person. I’m not as shy as I once was (ask @fit4belinda). @crushfit has opened me up in a positive way. I love that I’m able to talk to you guys, I’m excited when I hear how you overcame a bad day and decided to hit the gym. It’s stories like this that make me happy.

Please keep it up guys! Keep on sharing your stories. I want to know when your down and I want to know when you succeed! We are here doing this together!

It’s the last Monday of November, my birthday, and let’s make this a the best NEVER MISS MONDAY YET!!!

I love you guys!

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