Omg that tga chapter was so difficult for me to read. I get that jack really needed this to coax him to communicate better but godamn I couldn't help but feel so sorry for the boy. Props though for sticking with it im pretty sensitive to physical pain so I know I would have been like "Yeah fuck this we need to try a different method or I'll literally kill myself to escape the pain lol"
Yeah, that’s the discrepancy between a masochist and like ‘everyone else’ right there :D
Jack can handle it because of what he is / what his orientation is. But a lot of other people couldn’t.
Some people still find it pretty easy to read because imagining themselves in the role of a masochist in a hurt/comfort scene still has a massive payoff without personally squicking them, but then conversely, if you imagine pain really acutely while reading, it can be enough to turn a person off something as well. There were definitely a few ‘this was really hard to read’ comments for this chapter, alongside ‘this was my favourite chapter’ or ‘they/we/I really needed this’ comments.
The scenes that focus around pain instead of sexual payoff often tend to highlight those kinds of differences between readers, imho, it’s interesting on my side, but also why I tag like crazy for things. This chapter was a risk in the sense that a lot of the time I make the pain aspects ‘easier’ for non-masochists by having sexual satisfaction at the end. This time, the satisfaction is that of a scene endured and an emotional breakthrough, and offering suffering to a lover, and that’s definitely not easy (or even possible) for everyone to read.