going to cry again now

hi, if you’re having a good day remember that once the team found neil after baltimore and he came back to palmetto, he literally sat down with all of them and told them that he was planning on leaving by the end of the season, planning on telling the fbi everything, like…. not even 48 hours after being kidnapped, tortured and almost killed, he sat down and told them that he had accepted that he’d die in a few months, that he started to spend more time and put some effort into his relationships with the team because he knew he didn’t had much time left. that he wanted to keep playing with them, that he wanted them to win and then die a fox once his time was over. they literally had to sit and hear it all coming from neil after everything that happened that night. andrew was right by his fucking side and had to hear that he planned on dying all along right after realizing that he could never recover from it if that ever happened. they had spent the other night thinking what if, what if, imagining everything that could have happened to neil and then seeing on his face and arms everything that did happened ONLY to have to do it all over again, but knowing the entire truth about him now, with the knowledge that the past few months were a goodbye and the feeling of what’s like to lose neil fresh in their memory.

guys I’m fucking oh my god look at Lucifer’s gauges when he sees Natalie is waking up

the purple is going away sharply, the despair is fading, his eyes are glowing yellow he’s sososososo happy now and then when Natalie doesn’t remember him

the purple is starting to bleed back 

my headcanon is that every wednesday morning, the swan mills family goes to granny’s for breakfast after which emma and regina walk henry to school, purposely try to embarrass him in front of his classmates by giving him goodbye kisses and hugs. afterwards, emma takes regina’s hand and walks her to her office, regina gives emma a goodbye and thank you kiss on the cheek and then emma walks to the sheriff’s station smiling like a lovesick puppy

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9 Days of Sense8: Day 9 - #Sense8AppreciationDay
↳  Who am I?
Do you mean, where I’m from? What I one day might become?
What I do? What I’ve done? What I dream?
Do you mean… what you see or what I’ve seen?
What I fear or what I dream? Do you mean who I love?
Do you mean, what I’ve lost? Who am I?
 I guess… who I am is exactly the same as who you are. Not better than. Not less than. Because there is no one who has been or will ever be exactly the same as either you or me.

Dave….Dave plz come back on and tell us tomorrow that we will have two or three more seasons…plz…

I’m mad. Fucking furious. Fucking furious that a medical professional who oversaw Ava’s first year and a half of life failed to order any of the tests that could have told us her brain wasn’t developing properly A FUCKING YEAR AGO. 

I know that anger is unproductive. I know that I did what I could when I could and I moved us where she would get the care she needed. This is why we came to Cleveland. This right here. Haven’t even been here six months and we’re miles ahead of where we were after 15 months with her old neuro. 

That’s good. That’s helpful. I can take comfort in that. That I didn’t wait any longer to get her where she needed to be. 

Right now she’s fine. She’s perfect. She’s full of life and personality. She is learning and growing and developing just fine. That can change at any moment though. And I have to stay vigilant. I have to be prepared for whatever might happen in her little baby brain. 

Right now I’m learning everything I can about Sturge-Weber Syndrome. About toddler brain development. I’m looking up how we can get her covered by Medicaid to make sure she can get whatever test/procedure she needs regardless of whether my private insurance covers it. 

I’m looking up early intervention services, early head start. Whatever I can do to help the left side of her brain grow normally to compensate for the right side not growing properly. 

I can’t fix her brain. I can’t make her blood vessels unfuck themselves. I can’t make anything in her head be right. 

But I can fight for her. I can get her whatever outside resources are available to her to help mitigate this bullshit her traitorous little brain is pulling. I’m on this. I got this. 

Battle Mom Mode Engaged. 

Tell me a time Jon smiled more than when he was with the Free Folk, I’ll wait.

I can’t stop thinking about ‘it’s quite surreal’, and 'amazing, yeah. This is incredible, isn’t it?’ Because that’s how Sam and Anthony were last year. And they lost it so fast because people are awful.

With Theo and Samuel we have two young men, at the start of their career, and I just think that as a fandom we should be respectful of them and not invasive or over-excitable or rude or any of the other countless things we could do to them.

They’re human beings, doing a job that should probably be the most amazing, fun job in the world. And it looks like they’re going to be spectacular at it. But can we remember that they are just that? Human beings doing a job. They’re not toys. They’re not play things. They’re not characters. They’re not for us to speculate over or ship. They’re people with lives and families and friendships.

So can we please be kind to them and show them we care about them and value them, and not drive them away and make them jaded? Let them have this amazing experience without us ruining it for them.

They’re so young. And they deserve to enjoy themselves and keep the wonder we saw in the video today. Is that so much to ask? Can people please be nice?

I didn’t see this process play out from the beginning last time, but I know it’s coming this time and it’s horrible. It’s beginning already, and I hate everything about it.

do you ever think about how delphine looks up to cosima?

like..  cosima doesn’t take shit from anyone.  if you say something she doesn’t like she will call you out.  she has a witty, sassy response for everything.  she doesn’t do things she doesn’t want to do and if she has to she doesn’t hide her real feelings about it.

she doesn’t say, “it’s fine,” with a clearly pained smile.  she doesn’t apologize for her heart.  she asks, “what this is really about.”  she talks back to people in a position of power over her.  she advocates for herself and the people she cares about.

do you ever think that when faced with a leekie or a nealon that delphine emulated cosima?  because she thinks cosima is a very strong person?  who she admires a lot?

do you ever think that delphine tried to be more like cosima?  protective, caring, and bold?