god this was creepy

im so fucking creepy when i s leep god i hate life lmao

like last night my roommate woke up around 4 am and i was app whispering in my sleep in like fucking parseltongue or smth and then I said loudly ‘Jesus fuck just stop it'n then I was taking a nap a second ago and like

Mentally I woke up but not physically really? Except I could kinda move my hand, so I just started slapping my other hand and my legs and shit to try to get my body to wake up bc fuck sleep paralysis and at some point I said 'god damn it wake up mei’

aND MY ROOMMATE WAS JUST SILENTLY WATCHING ME SLAP MYSELF AWAKE FROM HER BED TRYING NOT TO LAUGH

LIKE FUCK

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.