“i call upon the power of the pentagram. azazel, i summon thee. from within our realm, into this mystical confinement, i summon thee. you seek the mortal cup, we seek the return of our friend. for this exchange, i summon thee.”
this got sorta long and its ramble-y and i’m sorry there’s probably some unpopular opinion-y stuff but that’s fine. if you read all of this and still love me <33333 also tldr: still ride or die, babes. just frustrated with the writers and i may have also gone on a mini bandaid rampage??? somehow??? i’m so sorry i’m like this..
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, but nothing will ever be as bad as the Lodge stuff for me. That was the bottom of my robron barrel, the was a big low for me, that was my ‘can i still do this’ moment. I stuck through it because I couldn’t give them up then and I won’t let shoddy storylining do it to me now. I knew the baby reveal would be huge and dramatic, it had to be after last night’s episode and their conversation about it. But this episode felt so similar to those Lodge scenes for me in some ways, where my heart broke and my chest ached and I wondered briefly how the hell can they do this to them? how can they come back from this? again.
But the thing is, I do think they can come back from it, baby or no baby (as much as I’d like there to be no baby). They’ve come back from worse. And Aaron was right; he is different. He even said it yesterday, that Robert didn’t have to tell him, he didn’t wait until he was caught out like he had the last time. Love is messy and hard, and yeah there are bumps, some larger than others, but when you really, truly love someone you take the mistakes you’ve made and you work through it. You fight for it (not physically, I think Aaron’s already learned that lesson enough times now thanks ED can we try WORDS NOW?). No matter my views on the lack of consent or how I could do without them bringing an innocent child into the mix or how frustrated I am that Marlon seemed more concerned about the situation than Paddy or this whole ridiculous Victoria and Rebecca thing, i was still struck by how well Aaron and Robert communicated yesterday in comparison to how poorly they seemed to communicate tonight. They’re doing the same “well let’s not properly talk about it, side step it, and let it fester until one of us explodes” stuff they’ve always done in the past. They argue, they don’t listen to each other properly, they run away from each other in the heat of the moment, and nothing gets solved. Robert wants to put a non-waterproof bandaid on it, one of those shitty ones that comes off the second you move wrong, and that does feel like a kind of step backwards yeah. But I’ve never ever looked at character development as just an upwards slope where the character grows and gets better and doesn’t stumble a bit, cos holy shit I know these are fictional characters, but no one is like that. That’s just so fucking unrealistic. If there’s no realism at all to fictional characters we’re gonna be fucking bored in a second. Sure we all grow and change for the better over time, but we’ve all made mistakes. We’ve all said shit we shouldn’t have, we’ve all done things we shouldn’t have, but we’ve apologized and learned and done better the next time. And maybe we stumble again and again with the same things, but you keep trying. That’s true character development imho, there’s no ‘going backwards’ in that for me.
But I also have hope in Aaron to maybe be the one to lead this towards something good, to maybe use what he learns in counseling for positive steps forward? My lil bub who went to an emergency counseling session, realizing that he needed to do so without being shoved into it by anyone else. He made that decision. But you don’t change overnight. Anger issues, self harm, depression, self loathing, whatever issues Robert’s dealing with etc. isn’t going to just disappear after a few therapy sessions. Nothing’s going to change overnight with someone’s love and one ‘magical’ counseling session. Mental health doesn’t work like that. It takes time and open, honest communication. I’m hoping that’s what the writers are trying to show. It doesn’t seem like it’s coming across that way just yet, but I’m hoping beyond hope that the communication we got yesterday was supposed to be a sign of that ‘it’ll take time and we’ll stumble but eventually we’ll get there’ growth. This being Emmerdale though, I’m keeping my bar very low.
I do think this is Robert finally breaking down though, I think this is him losing his cool and his patience. I think it’s finally, and about damn time, for Robert to have that moment (without violence, Robert, for the love of god without violence *swats Robert’s head with a rolled up newspaper*). So in a sense I do get it. I get the putting the decisions about the baby on Aaron (as much as I hate it, that’s just.. fucking writers…), I get his anger and frustration to a point. He’s more terrified of losing Aaron than anything else because Aaron is his world. He’s said it time and time again that the thought of losing Aaron is so unbearable to him. So I have to believe they’re gonna be okay, eventually. It might take some time and we might have to watch some pretty rough moments, but I have to believe that they’re going to fight tooth and nail for each other, for this rollercoaster of a relationship. Because they promised each other messed up forever.
it pisses me off so bad when people don’t acknowledge yumikuri as a canon ship or just totally disregard the ship at all because they aren’t “sure if the feelings they share for each other are romantic or platonic” like yeah ur right
totally unsure.. proposals are really common between straight girls
bestestest gal pals
i exaggerate my wounds all the time so my not gay friend will remove more of her skirt for me in a totally platonic no-homo sort of way
totally platonic not-lesbians
ymir has a totally one-sided platonic crush
and christa totally doesn’t return those feelings at all
ymir only lives for herself so risking her life to protect someone else is just the friendly thing to do and totally not a blatant example of her true feelings at all
the way their friends even acknowledge the way they feel means absolutely nothing
in the slightest
hhhahahaaaa just some cool dialogue of ymir living for herself and no one else
and some official art of them being totally not gay together
and of course this means nothing
…platonically in love with her probably
therefore as you can see, we are all still very unsure of whether or not these two lovely not-lesbians feelings are romantic or platonic..
Since Aquamarine is my birthstone and the SU design irked me a little, I decided to do a quick redesign! I used the colors from an actual aquamarine crystal, gave her an actual diamond insignia, redrew her hair into a more realistic style, changed her gloves to just cuffs to give off the more formal vibe, and replaced her gemstone (since she had wings in the back and it would be impossible for her to have wings if her gemstone was on her cheek), etc.
(I don’t know how to do that fancy “read below the cut” thing. Someone plz send help)
family of empty cups so adopts Alex like this is just canon at this
point. It shouldn’t even be on this list but I put it here cause it
makes me happy
Sif and Alex totally bonded in that dressing room and Sif is now Alex’s emergency contact and listed as “new goddess mom” in her phone.
Magnus feels like he should be offended but he’s mostly just really confused
Speaking of phones…
yes i know they probably don’t have phones shut up
But Sam has one because duh mortal world and she texts Amir all the time.
cannot convince me that they are not those people that text each other really inspirational or sweet messages first
thing every morning and last thing at night
Magnus went through Sam’s messages once and gained approximately six new cavities from all the tooth-rotting fluff
Magnus also has a phone. Which he almost never uses.
But Jack does?
between being a pendant and participating in all the battles, Jack has
managed to download a dozen dating apps on Magnus’s phone without him
Magnus didn’t even know there were that many apps for
magical weapons that are “single and ready to mingle. preferably over
some freshly slain corpses”
Suffices to say that he’s pretty weirded out
He offered to get Jack his own phone but the sword denied all involvement so…
Whatever. Magnus can deal.
hey, guess what! Blitz and Hearth are in a wonderful queer-platonic
relationship this is my belief I will defend it until the day I die.
you’re not 100% sure of what that is please google it and tell me it
doesn’t fit. QPRs are so good and pure and it fits them so much)
(I still don’t like that Ellie girl with Hearth tho like nun uh leave the elf-child with his dwarf please and thank you)
More on this wonderfulness:
They share a bed
And their mugs
And their socks
And they always are with each other and they cuddle a lot because Hearth is always cold (thus the scarf)
And it’s just really cute and domestic
I’ll definitely maybe do some more headcanons on them later
So Alex Fierro is a verifiable fashion hoe (subtle reference to my sideblog *wink*)
She and Blitzen spend so much of their time together talking about clothes
Not even just outfits and shit, but how to weaponize scarves and include Blitz’s chain mail design into absolutely anything
They are the best of buds
ok she is the absolute queen of that “i woke up like this” hair style
that actually takes like 30 minutes because my child is always
determined to be looking as good as possible
(aka determined to make Magnus go into cardiac arrest every time he sees her)
Magnus: –and don’t even get me started on that hair like is she TRYING to kill me?!?
Some member of the floor 19 squad who really doesn’t deserve this: Well she did decapitate you that one time…
Magnus: NOT THE POINT
hair is totally the real deal btw like she picked so many pockets and
saved up a ton of money to go to a salon cause she’d been dreaming about it for ages and goddamn it if she’s gonna do this she’s gonna make
sure it’s the best it can possibly be
Anyway my girl be looking
110% on top of things at all times and Alex Fierro will 110% be listed
as the cause of death in Magnus’ obituary
HEARTH 👏AND 👏BLITZ 👏IN 👏A 👏 QPR👏
Oh and all the tangled jokes are made at Magnus’ expense
He and Alex are always talking about disney movies and pop cultue because everyone else on floor 19 does not (for obvious reasons) know anything about mean girls or the kardasians and Magnus was getting really sick of only having to Jack to talk about this stuff with
So he and Alex sometimes have competitions over who can make the most references in 10 minutes
Their first “regular” date is going to see FBAWTFT ok don’t try to tell me otherwise
Hey hey guess what? Idk if I’ve mentioned this but I think Blitz and Hearth are queer platonic partners k?
Next up: my two cents on how Magnus can tell what pronouns Alex uses at any given time
get me wrong he could just be really observant but that also seems.
Kinda unrealistic to me? At least how he’s able to tell in that last
scene with the “dude” and everything.
So my theory’s that Magnus healing her and getting that glimpse into her head allowed
him to understand kinda how she acts/the different airs she has
depending on her gender.
Idk this one’s still a work in progress. Please come talk to me about it if you wanna.
Actually please come talk to me about anything related to all my mango cheese children. or having to do with rick’s books.
Especially the fact that HEARTH AND BLITZ ARE QUEER PLATONIC PARTNERS DID EVERYONE IN THE BACK HEAR ME???
<b>Lance:</b> *out of nowhere, starts laughing softly to himself*<p/><b>Hunk:</b> Lance? You okay, man?<p/><b>Lance, near tears:</b> w,,,we have bananis,,,<p/><b>Hunk, under his breath:</b> oh my god<p/></p>
smh i’m trying to redecorate Wes’ loft and i realized i have like 0 rugs from cleaning out my cc a few months ago. i closed my game to go hunt for some but ended up downloading 200 items of cc.. none of them were rugs.
sana and yousef must be texting each other but we can't see it bcos it's not in her pov :((((((
they are anon!!! they are!! im sure they are!
they have been texting each other all day and yousef has been sending her memes he made and muslim memes his cousins showed him (yes the boy literally told his cousins to send it to him so he could send them to sana because he knew it would make her smile) sana laughed out loud when he sent a meme and elias was like “oh my god if you two are like this while in different countries i dont even know how it is going to be when he comes back” (but he is so happy about them both). yousef also sends her dorky selfies of him and of some beautiful turkish landscapes! and now its passed 1am there and sana sends him “why are you still awake go to sleep” “why are YOU still awake its almost midnight there we only have one hour difference” and sana doesnt answer because she doesnt know what do answer so she just says “well im talking to stephen curry and i cant stop ahahah” and now he doesnt know how to answer “sana……….” “sana please” “you promised me :(” and sana is smiling so much!!! and is like “you’re a dork do you really think im talking with him? yousef go to sleep you’re not thinking straight!” and he smiles because he knows she is not sleeping because she is talking to him, just like him. and hes smiling thinking about what he should answer and bing! another notification, “goodnight acar ❤“ and he smiles even more, and sana is so happy shes smiling and shes at peace “goodnight bakkoush ❤“ she reads and now she can sleepor at least she thinks but she knows she will think about him a little more, just like yousef now is laying in bed smiling and so happy so so happy.