god of the city

city treks // insomnia & exhaustion (play soccer with my neurons)

i won’t dare read the lyrics to that one sad song

i can barely understand the things he says, the singer i mean

and i feel like if i read the lyrics and actually get into it more

then i’ll just start weeping and won’t be able to stop

and i’m not ready to lose control like that, i’m not ready

insomnia and exhaustion play soccer with my neurons

and i’m stuck here repeating that one sad song

Ryan Gosling was the only real problem I had with La La Land. It just really would’ve been a much better movie if John Legend had the role of Sebastian.

From a storyline point of view, it makes no sense why the male lead had to be white. Not only is Sebastian the third most important thing from the movie (Emma Stone as Mia is the STAR of the whole damn thing, then it’s the story itself, and hell, even the setting of Los Angeles is more important) but the fact that his character was a jazz musician intent on protecting the preservation of jazz music when jazz music was created by African Americans, having Sebastian be black wouldn’t have changed the story, it would’ve made a lot more sense and made his love and passion for jazz so much more poignant, and considering this particular political climate, it would’ve made a more powerful statement of having an interracial couple in such a hugely (bigly?) lauded film.

Also, Ryan Gosling had to learn how to play piano plus train to sing when he’s not a vocalist. John Legend is RIGHT.THERE. He can sing and play piano. And he can act? And was in the movie anyway??? Why wasn’t he Sebastian? Missed opportunity and very uninspired tbh.

Also, Ryan Gosling kept watching his feet while he danced. That was just annoying. He’s cute and a hell of an actor. But honestly. He just seemed misplaced.

(And really if I want to get personal, if you’re going to have a white guy who plays piano and loves jazz in a movie, why didn’t you try to get Seth MacFarlane. He exists and he’s literally perfect. Seriously. Seth MacFarlane is a hell of a jazz man. Look it up. Fight me. I love him. He’s just my personal white guy pick but I’m straying.)

But John Legend tho. He should have been the lead in La La Land.

tbh the sunnis who call shias kafir because we revere Imam Ali (AS) so much are missing the point so much like it’s through the love and intrigue of Imam Ali that people seek Prophet Muhammad (SAW) and then eventually God. so many times the Prophet said “if i am the city of knowledge, ali is the gate” we use to enter and i know exactly what that means. sunnis may think we’re kafir but it’s because of this love for imam ali some of us are so deeply irrevocably connected to the Prophet, his daughter, his grandchildren and, above all, God. 

"When the Son of Man comes, will He really find faith on the earth?"

Then He spoke a parable to them, that men always ought to pray and not lose heart, saying: “There was in a certain city a judge who did not fear God nor regard man. Now there was a widow in that city; and she came to him, saying, "Get justice for me from my adversary.’ And he would not for a while; but afterward he said within himself, "Though I do not fear God nor regard man, yet because this widow troubles me I will avenge her, lest by her continual coming she weary me.”’
Then the Lord said, “Hear what the unjust judge said. And shall God not avenge His own elect who cry out day and night to Him, though He bears long with them? I tell you that He will avenge them speedily. Nevertheless, when the Son of Man comes, will He really find faith on the earth?”

Luke 18:1-8

April O’Neil For Emerald City Comic Con 2018

Guess who’s gonna do her own April O’Neil outfit for a Cosplay!!!! 

ME. 

I already have half of the things I need for the outfit which is pretty basic stuff honestly that you can find anywhere and the only things that I’ll need to buy is the white fabric paint, the boots, the yellow shirt, and the black undershirt and i’ll have everything I need to have my own homemade April outfit from the 2012 TMNT series. 

Which will be great because I’m aiming to go to Emerald City Comic Con next year since I won’t be able to go this year because of my trip. So next year I’m hoping to go as April to Emerald City Comic Con! 

my husband has been working from home for most of a year, and then he lost his job and has just been… home, and I love him so much I’d happily burn down most of a city for him but dear god, the two hour walk he takes every day is such a relief now. Please, someone, give hm a job and get him out of this house.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.