I swear to freaking god, I was LESS sad when I moved house, than I am at Dan and Phil moving from an apartment I have never been in, to another one which will probably look pretty much the same as their old one. I need to reassess my life…!
me, an Autism™, trying to explain anything:
okay so. okay so you know how som...sometimes.. wait hang on. okay so basically what's uhhh what's going on is.... wait how do i phrase this? i mean what's gonna happen is that the thing. you kn..know what the thing is, anyw-nevermind. the uhh, th.. wait hang on
Maybe it was because it was cold and his body was super close to mine. Maybe it was because he looked really nice in a leather jacket. Maybe it was because his eyes looked impossibly blue in a photo I took of him. It could’ve been because of the time he helped me undo my braids. Or maybe because of the times where I made him laugh. Oh, or maybe that one time, when he came off stage, and just came directly over to me with a smile no one gets to see very often on his face. Or the times when we lock eyes and everything around us just blurs into the background (those are my favorite.)
I don’t know what it is exactly that makes my body crave his eyes on me at all times. Or how long I’ve actually been into him long before every nerve ending in my body fires in rapid succession when his shoulder bumps into mine.
I don’t know how to explain my feelings for him…I don’t think I even want to.
maybe this is just me and my constant background level of bitterness, but can you imagine how demoralizing it could be to be tony’s best friend all through mit? like, imagine rhodey balancing school work and ro and probably other orgs and just dying before every exam, agonizing over every tutorial and pset and here comes tony fucking stark whos so ahead of the curve its ridiculous, who is so good at what he does but you cant even begrudge him for it because its obviously a passion and he just loves it and his entire being lights up when he gets something or discovers a different way to make something work or figures out something new
and rhodeys realistic, and i have a feeling terrence will give him the same sage advice my father gave me: “they have problems too” and by god is it true for tony stark. its almost perverse to be jealous because oh my god his life is also not all its cracked up to be.
idk im just bitter about a fictional supergenius move along