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God I keep thinking about what it felt like watching this scene for the first time with my little brother.

I remember how he kept looking at me so hopefully, because at that time I had only recently just come out as a lesbian. He knew how much this meant to me, and how much this meant for other people like me, he didn’t even tease me that I kept tearing up for the rest of the episode.

Happy Second Anniversary Jailbreak!

“Of course I’ve had a run of great opportunities and characters to play, but I was shooting this scene [in Tulip Fever] with Holliday Grainger that just felt like something new. It just came so easily, and we were having so much fun. And only when we were chatting afterwards did I suddenly realise why: I’d just made five films in a row, and this was the first one where I had a scene with another woman.” 

oh my god alicia……………………. please?? holy shit 

anonymous asked:

You probably getting tons of messages. But when you have time can you speak about Clarke giving Roan the Flame? I mean she stood there thinking about it; Eliza acted that scene out so well! Even while she was offering it you can see she really didn't want to. Then the tear & the face of realizing what she just gave up. The "I loved her mom" Got me in the feels; but her giving him the Flame was just another a "god Clarke. why do yo suffer so much" moment for me.

honestly, i was touched by both scenes simply because clarke and lexa’s relationship was actually in the foreground in both interactions, which is something i felt was needed, because if the writers want clarke to move on they need to give her the moments in which she can face her own emotions and share them with someone else - thank you abby. damn if the scene with roan didn’t hurt me more though. everything clarke and lexa have been through in s3 was re-called in that moment and you felt their history in every single corner.

there is a great personal alchemy at play during the entire scene, because clarke’s goals, hopes, memories and priorities are also greatly tied to what she wanted to achieve with lexa, but ultimately couldn’t. the way she shares her experiences/knowledge helps her with her otherwise sentimental state and overall pain, because it is (as eliza said) not destructive, but constructive.

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A short comic based on a scene I really liked from Chapter 10 of @arcanebarrage ‘s fantastic fanfic, Hang the Fool

Originally I didn’t have much to say along with this, the text is lifted directly from the story and I only realized a little later they were sitting on chairs for this scene- I apologize, but either way I am very thankful to arcanebarrage and her beautiful story, I have genuinely never felt so motivated to create fanwork (much less a six page comic) based on anything in… god, I can’t even remember. Thank you. I hope I did some justice to this scene.

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I can't stop laughing. What a Robert Sugden way of self destruction! It was so horribly perfect. What a time for the show to remind us of how awful he can be when he feels hurt by someone he loves (not so much the coming on to Rebecca, but the way he was talking about Aaron, like you could tell how much he was hurting by how vicious he was about the person he loves most in the world). Ugh, Robert, what a disaster. I love him so much. Also I'm in pain. Help.

ahahaha anon he’s a god damn self destructive overdramatic idiot and honestly this was the most robert sugden thing i’ve ever seen and it felt SO REMINISCENT OF THE SCRAPYARD SCENE?????

he got drunk and angry and somehow decided that, if love hurts this much, then he should go back to the way he was before he was in love which, honestly emmerdale, was NOT WHAT WE MEANT WHEN WE SAID WE WANTED TO SEE OLD ROB COME OUT IN THIS STORYLINE

(BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR HAS NEVER BEEN MORE ACCURATE stab me in the fucking chest)

- but anyway, he got drunk and got his classic Stupid Robert Sugden Panic Logic on although at least he didn’t try to murder anyone this time unless you count my flipping heart gdi and then he’s gonna sober up tomorrow and realise that actually 2015 Robert? Not a happy or a good Robert. And then he’s gonna have to deal with his stupidity.

(Had to happen at some point I suppose. Do you remember what it was like to get shot Robert???? WOULD YOU LIKE SOMEONE TO REMIND YOU BC I COULD HELP YOU YOU FOOL)

But yes. He’s gotta deal with his bad decisions. Again. Which. My son. Good luck to you oh my god you ABSOLUTE FLIPPING PENCIL CASE

DID YOU MISS ME YELLING AT YOU FOR YOUR STUPID FLIPPING DECISIONS DID YOU HAVE WE GONE BACK TO 2015 IS THAT WHERE WE ARE YOu’re an absolute duck brain and I hate you (but I love you) (but I want to dick punch you a little bit)

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24, 25, and 41(fly on the wall)

24. favorite scene you’ve ever written
- oh my god I had to back to AO3 to glance over what I had to figure this one out…
But I actually really enjoyed this part from “Shadow” where Sombra deactivates Tracer’s anchor and watches her start to disappear. She’s so smug and thinks she’s won when Widowmaker is NOT having that shit. 

I really enjoyed it because Widowmaker didn’t say a goddamn thing and I felt like that was very powerful? I dunno. I liked it. 

But that’s very much tied with “Coexisting” modern AU where Amelie and Lena fall asleep on the couch and on top of Gabe’s legs so he takes a picture and sends it to Jack to help him out. 

I thought it was cute but also gave Jack a moment to realize how much Amelie actually really loved Lena despite his and her friends initial first impression of her 

25. favorite line you’ve ever written
- From “Coexisting” dunno why. thought it was cute. Kinda establishing the odd friendship Lena had with Gabe 

“Oy Gabe, you wanna explain to me who you got six feet under for a catch like that?” She pointed to Amelie with the water bottle now half gone.

“You’ll never find the body. This is my new roomie, Amelie”

41. one song that captures (Fly On the Wall)

I listened to “IDFC” by Blackbear repeatedly. The lyrics are okish but there was something about the FEEL about the song that seemed to match? But probably bias because there are a lot of vine videos with that song and widowtracer so

Tonight’s When Calls the Heart made me cry. God it was so beautiful and heartbreaking. Well done! 

The proposal wasn’t even the best part of the episode for me (as much as i loved that he finally proposed). I loved the part where she runs to him as he leaves because it felt so REAL. I fully expected her to stay with the town and watch him ride out after the goodbyes but it was heartbreaking to watch her run after him, in tears, and scream his name out. I started crying then tbh. 

And then the final scene where Elizabeth sings Danny Boy was absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!! I need to listen to that again and again.

I’m looking forward to the next episode to 1) see how Elizabeth and Jack are doing and also 2) TO SEE MORE OF THE HANDSOME CARSON SHEPHERD!!! (i am so intrigued by him)

I mean...

If you see Riley & Farkle as platonic…

If you see those deep, heart felt, meaningful scenes, of substantial growth-inducing conversations…as just the result of a childhood based friendship/understanding merging into their adult connection/understanding of “whoever they are,” (as Riley says) and will be as they GROW -  

Cool. 

But that friendship, has more love and substance and CARE laced into everything they do for each other…then the entirety of the Riley/Lucas romantic relationship. 

Here’s the deal. I’m a queer woman who started watching Sherlock in August of 2015 because my roommate told me I’d like it. I’d never heard anything about the show nor did I know anything about the fandom. I didn’t have a tumblr. I watched expecting to see a regular television show. I went through the first 8 episodes loving it but when I got to the tarmac scene i felt a blow to the pit of my stomach. I remember whispering to myself, “No…. god, no….” when I realized just how much Sherlock loves John. I sought out my roommate after i finished it and said, “why can’t Sherlock and John end up together? Sherlock would be so happy”. She laughed and answered “yah that’s not gonna happen, that just doesn’t happen on tv”.
“But it’s the right thing to do,” I thought, too shy to express to her how hurt i felt.

Instead I watched the nine episodes again. And again. And again. In order. And each time I did i saw things I’d never noticed before. I was determined to make the argument that their relationship was romantic, that it was meant for me to see, that i wasn’t just hoping beyond reason, a stupid woman bent on fantasy.
And i found it.

But here’s the thing about TJLC:

You have to want to see it.

You have to seek it out.

Or you’ll be blind to what’s right in front of you.

I’ve never felt the queerbaiting on Supernatural as much as I have right now.

Jensen gets us all excited about “a Cas and Dean scene he thinks we’ll like.” He knows what we interpret that as. They all do.

In the finale, we get a hint of it when Dean chooses Cas over God right off the bat. We get excited.

They take away any chance of romance by reinforcing “our best friend” and “you’re our brother, Cas.” We lose hope, we think that’s the final word on it. We feel let down.

And then… at the cemetery, Dean hugs Cas for so long, goes to pull away and stays instead, looks like he wants to say something more, like he has something on the tip of his tongue to confess. Castiel offers to go with Dean. To die with Dean.

That’s clearly a deeper bond than just a friend, and it’s also a deeper bond than a brother (as evidenced by the fact that Sam did not offer the same thing).

It just jerks us back and forth. It hurts. It’s confusing. And it’s making me really, really pissed at Supernatural.

There’s no excuse anymore. Make it canon or stop teasing us. One or the other. I am so, so sick of it.

age of ultron

ok so i saw age of ultron yesterday and i’m still trying to process it but here are my thoughts as of now: 

Things I liked:

  • THE TWINS. I thought I was not going to like them at all because I figured they were going to be taking valuable screen time away from the other avengers.  I thought they really added to the movie, and I was really upset when Pietro died :(
  • RHODEY. He’s so awesome and I was really glad to see him in the movie so much! 
  • James Spader’s voice work made Ultron really eerie and I thought Ultron was a really great villain. 
  • VISION. He was great.  I love how they showed Vision and Scarlet Witch in a scene together - since Joss is not doing any more movies in the foreseeable future (thank god) and the Russos are taking over, I could definitely see something working between these two and that makes me happy. 
  • Barton seemed to be the only one concerned with searching for Natasha - I felt like it was a secondary thing for everyone else.  Which in a way I did not like either but as clintasha trash I was more than pleased. 
  • The ending with Nat and Steve all with the new avengers.  That was amazing. Truly awesome. 
  • I really loved how the movie began with a fight scene and there was no 30 minute “we must assemble the team” thing. Starting with the action was just awesome. ALL of the action ina this movie was awesome. 
  • Steve’s vision - I loved how he and Peggy got to dance and the whole “I am useless once the war is over” thing.  It was some really great insight into Steve’s character. 

Things I hated:

  • NATASHA’S CHARACTERIZATION.  If you’ve been following me at any point since I started this blog, you know Natasha Romanoff is my favorite.  Joss completely made her story about Bruce and pining over him.  It made no sense to me and honestly it was awkward and cringe-worthy to watch.  Joss LOVES, LOVES to mess with people’s ships and make everyone unhappy (look at the shit in BtVS and Angel if you need examples of this) so yeah. 
  • BRUCE/NAT IS SO RANDOM. WTF IS THE ARROW NECKLACE THEN??? I have a platonic male best friend and WE DO NOT HAVE FRIENDSHIP NECKLACES. THAT IS NOT SOMETHING PLATONIC BEST FRIENDS DO.  
  • Call me a bitter Clintasha shipper but this was really messy writing and it was honestly just awful considering how a romance/future romance was seeded between the two in CATWS and The Avengers. 
  • Natasha felt most in character at the end when she was teasing Steve about “looking into Tony’s eyes.” That’s the Natasha I want to see not some love sick puppy. Ugh. 
  • I hated how the fact that the Red Room made her sterile is what made her view herself as a monster - not the being programmed to kill and being trained to kill people part.  That did not sit well with me. In the comics, the sterilization is a side effect of the Soviet version of the super soldier serum. 
  • Honestly, was a cell supposed to keep Natasha locked up? Natasha only gets locked in a cell when she wants to be locked in a cell. 
  • Barton’s family - they were very cute and all but it came out of NO WHERE. WTF.  I love how the argument most people have is that it is canon in the ultimates, but most of this movie did not follow comics canon.  SO WHY DID JOSS CHOOSE TO MAKE THIS THE ONE CANON THING FOLLOWED? TO MESS WITH US THAT’S WHY. 

Without the whole Bruce/Nat drama thing I feel like the movie would have been so much better.  I feel like this took away from my enjoyment of the movie.  I feel like Scarlett’s quote from the first press tour “there’s no time for romance we’ve got shit to avenge” is right on target.  I may be Clintasha trash, but I like seeding instead of actual romance in movies/tv.  If I wanted to watch a romantic movie I would watch a romantic movie.

I really did like a lot of it - but messing with my favorite character and reducing her to a love interest without any history what so ever does not sit well with me and I’m honestly really upset about the whole thing.  Joss really messed up on this one and I’ve honestly lost a lot of my respect for him.  I did not wait three years for this mess. 

HI EVERYONE! OKAY I’VE GOT SO MANY MESSAGES I’M SO HAPPY YOU WANNA SCREAM WITH ME! AND I felt I will just reply the same basically to many of them since ey come on we ALL KNOW WHAT THIS IS ABOUT LOL I will put the ones I see fit together okay lol. UGH OH MY GOD. 

HI EVERYONE AGAIN! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR MESSAGES ♥♥ I CAN’T BREATHE EITHER AND I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS WHEN I WOKE UP AFTER 1 HOUR SLEEP (Yep europe timezone life) THAT THIS EPISODE WASN’T A DREAM!! Ugghh, like we first got the car scene and the statue comfort thing and I was like OMGG GAYEST GAYYY BUT THEN IT JUST GOT EVEN GAYER AND UGH. THE FKN ALMOST-KISS AH I THOUGHT THEY WOULD KISS I SWEAR!! IT WAS THE MOST CLICHE KISSING SCENARIO. The music in the background and everything!! AND YES ED WORE OSWALD’S MOST PRECIOUS ROBE HE GOT FROM HIS DAD UUGH GOD AND THEIR TENDER LOOKS AND OSWALD WAS SO WORRIED ABOUT ED’S WOUND. AND THE OTHER SCENE AT THE CLUB TOO ARE YOU KIDDING MEEE, Oswald SCREAMING ED’S NAME and Ed jumping in front of him!! THAT scenario i’ve been dreaming about for so long and now it’s real!!! UGH GOD.

BUT A HUG OKAY YAS. I HAVE WAITED SO LONG FOR THIS, SHIPPING THEM SINCE EARLY S1 THIS IS BASICALLY WHAT I IMAGINED THEY RUILING TOGETHER AND BEING GAY OH MY GOD I’M SO HAPPY ♥♥♥♥♥

And I really have no idea how this can evolve to anything else than a relationship as some of you says too!! AAAAH. At the same time Isabella is lurking we will see where this is going OMG. ANYTHING FOR YOU OMG I’M. THIS EPISODE.

Thoughts on Supergirl 2.06

Can we just all give a round of applause to the Supergirl writing team. I had my reservations about the show moving to the CW, but now I know that a network change won’t have any kind of impact on the quality of the show. I am so THANKFUL for what the writers are doing this season with Alex. Last week’s episode was a gift from god and so was last night’s episode. And like last week, I want to offer some of my thoughts on Alex’s scenes from the episode.

1) Coming Out to Kara

I felt so much in this scene. One thing I love that they’re doing with Alex is her being uncomfortable at saying the word “gay.” They’re staying consistent and I’m liking that a lot, because it is so relevant for so many people. Saying the words out loud is frightening, and having everyone but her say it is just so REAL. So many of the things Alex said to Kara, I was like, oh shit, I felt the same way/did the same things. When Kara asks her if she’s ever felt this way before, Alex responds, “Not like this.” It’s such an overwhelming feeling when everything just clicks because of one person that makes you go, “I’m looking at this person and I’m not just thinking she’s beautiful like I would any other beautiful person, but I’m actually feeling something for her, I’m attracted to her in a way that I want to kiss her.” Maggie is that person for Alex. I had that person too that made everything click and gave me that “a-ha” moment. It’s like all these suppressed feelings and memories come to the surface. Alex mentions how she’s up all need, thinking about how she’s had these thoughts before. Realizing that things she did in the past were indicators of her liking women, but she was just too scared to confront them, so she just pushed them away and tried to forget. Like, shit, girl, me too. I look back at my life and there are so many instances that come to mind where I’m like, wowwww, yup, I obviously liked girls but like Alex, I shoved those memories deep down “like they never happened.” And it wasn’t until the person that made all these thoughts and feelings rise to the surface, that I realized who I was.

2) Couch talk

Everyone needs to find themselves a Kara, whether it is a sibling or a parent or a friend. FIND YOURSELF A KARA. The fact that she’s able to own up to not helping to create an environment where Alex could comfortably talk about her sexuality is just….like I wish more people could be aware of that. Not many people, especially family, realize that the way you were brought up prevented you from revealing or talking about that part of you. Like Kara says, its hard to “keep a part of yourself shut off, to keep it inside.” But not only is it hard, it’s lonely. And damn is she right. I remember before I came to terms with me being bisexual or telling people, I felt so alone. Like I had to censor myself constantly. For a long time I wasn’t being my true self. And I don’t know if my family knows this, but I definitely think that although they are accepting, how I was brought up…it wasn’t the kind of environment to talk about my sexuality. That’s probably why I felt so awkward and scared to tell them. It is so important that Kara validates Alex and tells her that she isn’t alone and that she is beautiful. That kind of support is just beautiful and it shows that their relationship is the most important on the show.

3) Alex kisses Maggie

Ok, first of all, HOLY SHIT. I wasn’t expecting Alex to make the first move?? Like girl, I wish I had the confidence to do that?? I love you so much?? I’m so proud. But let’s backpedal a moment. When Alex tells Maggie she came out to Kara, THAT SMILE. Maggie is so proud. I love that she is also constantly validating and supporting her. Ok, back to that kiss. Which unfortunately Maggie wasn’t that into. She tries to let Alex down easy, because she knows she is in a fragile state. And she’s right that things would not work out with them, since Alex is “fresh off the boat.” Alex still has a lot of work to do to become more confident and at home in her sexuality. It was right of Maggie to not lead her on. It was also good of Maggie to still show her support as a friend. We all know that Sanvers will be slowburn, which I am happy about. Because right now, the focus should be on Alex becoming more comfortable and unafraid. Her singular journey should be the focus right now (as much as I love Sanvers).

4) Couch talk #2

When you just come out of the closet and you get turned down by the first person you have feelings for, it’s hard. Alex feels humiliated because she had put herself out there and had gotten nothing in return. For someone who is already in a fragile state from just coming out, the first rejection can be just as hard. It can make you feel like coming out in the first place was a giant mistake. And that’s exactly how Alex is feeling. But to have Kara there, and tell Alex that she’s proud of her–those words make such a difference. Again, FIND YOURSELF A KARA.


I’ll probably do these “thoughts on Supergirl” things each week. They’ll all be thoughts on Alex’s storyline (and Maggie’s too if there is something). I’m so thankful for this show, especially in a time like this post-election. Young girls need Alex and Maggie in a time like this.

Dean this episode was terrifying as fuck, I was legitimately SO scared in so many of his scenes with Sam, watching it made me feel tight chested and cornered and afraid, god how must Sam have felt?!

The whole thing read absolutely as an abuse victim planning their escape and being discovered, cornered and interrogated by their abuser, like that didn’t feel even thinly veiled with regards to the vibe they were going for, giant fucking anvils you guys!

Anyone who look at those scenes and saw “Dean acting normally” or “Dean is doing fine” you are:

1) pretty much proving the point we’ve made over and over again that Dean does not need the Mark to be abusive to Sam, since you apparently recognize this behavior as being within normal perimeters for Dean.

2) literally terrifying to me.