This couple. Viktor and Yuuri. They’re killing me. This contains YOI Ep. 9 spoilers.
There’s this emotional reunion between them at the end of the episode, after they have been apart. It’s beautiful in general, but what is really killing me is how they focused on Viktor and Yuuri’s movement into each other’s space. We know how closed off Yuuri is with feelings and relationships. We know he didn’t like that girl in the past hugging him because he was feeling vulnerable and it felt like she was intruding on his heart, his feelings.
We know that Yuuri sees his relationship with Viktor as something different (“he meets me where I am,” his moment of vulnerability with Viktor in the carpark), but he’s still been hesitant to ask Viktor what will happen if he loses the Grand Prix, hesitant to ask what will happen to them when the season ends.
Here. Though. HERE MAN. This pic below is after Viktor and Yuuri first reunite and hug. Yuuri pushes him to arms length to ask Viktor to stay with him until he retires from skating, almost as if he’s preparing to protect himself if Viktor says no (BOI HE’S SO IN LOVE WITH YOU HOW CAN YOU EVEN WORRY ABOUT THIS AT THIS POINT OH MY GOD. ahem.)
But, when he asks, Viktor makes this face and kind of makes light of the question - “is this a proposal’ - after just kissing Yuuri’s left hand, maybe even his left ring finger if you’re super shipping trash like me and think that’s what he did.
And then Yuuri does this.
HE STEPS INTO VIKTOR’S SPACE.
This is so important for our precious closed off Yuuri. I mean, even with Viktor, who we all know he loves, he’s been cautious. Viktor - for the most part - initiates shared spaces, casual touching, the actual kiss in ep. 7. Yuuri is far less upfront about his feelings. Yes, we all know the Eros routine is basically one giant “I want Viktor and he is Mine” deal, but that’s still, arguably, not a super direct way of telling Viktor what he wants.
This though. This is Yuuri telling Viktor what he wants. Yuuri being vulnerable with Viktor. Yuuri putting everything he feels for Viktor out there and Viktor, once again, meeting him (emotionally) where he is at. Only this time, Yuuri is the one to have made that push, to take that step, and creates that shared space for them.
And then Viktor says he hopes Yuuri never retires. And Yuuri cries. And they clutch each other like this.
And I die.