happy birthday to.. me! haha uh its kind of a birthday tradition of mine to draw whatever i feel like no matter how little sense it makes lmao anyway here are yuuri and victor in kinda matchy KotOR star wars robes!! its very late!!! this is not an au dont @ me victor would never work for the jedi he is good and i trust him okay im leaving now bed time
I know the community likes to joke around and call them butt towels, but in the lore they’re pretty important things. It’s there to indicate achievements, show rank, which order you belong to, that kinda stuff. Zavala of course dons the Vanguard mark, Saladin dons a bitchin cape and an Iron Banner mark.
Meanwhile, Shaxx’s is just orange. Just a simple mark. It doesn’t even have the Crucible logo.
To me it comes off like he’s incapable of being proud of anything he does, always pushing himself harder and never being satisfied with anything he does. He’s a workaholic.
I mean, just look at what he did during the Twilight Gap. A lot of Titans would wear that as a badge of honor, saving the City and all. Then going against orders to take the wall with 5 others when hope was lost.
I think the reason he’s not proud of anything he does is because he has lost so much.
There was the Gap. We know that story.
Then, there was the Crota incident, where Shaxx begged the Consensus to delay the attack until they understood the Hive swords better. The Consensus didn’t listen to him, and all Zavala had to say was that it’s for the Consensus to decide.
A thousand Guardians died to the swords of the Hive.
Not to mention all the other wars he’s been in.
And now, he runs the Crucible. Which brings even more loss. How many new Guardians that passed through the Tower a minute ago will be still alive in a year? A lot of those faces never return.
When the Cabal attacked, he focused on protecting civilians. There is an NPC in the farm who thanks him, saying that she would be dead if not for him.
But with the Cabal attack, and the amount of Guardians both veteran and newly risen dead, it meant that his Crucible failed.
So, now he’s back at it. Making the Crucible harsher every day, throwing more challenges at the Guardians. He’s never outright harsh with the Guardians, but begrudgingly encouraging. He believes in them, wants them to succeed. Never kicks you when you’re down, occasionally shouts at you to GET UP, FIGHT, I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT.
He takes every death and every failure personally, that it was his fault, that he could have prevented it. But he channels that sorrow into strength and encouragement.
Shaxx won’t be proud of anything he does until people stop dying around him.
He built Frames to clear out future Crucible arenas first, so that Guardian lives won’t be senselessly wasted.
Shaxx wants everyone to come home alive.
Maybe because he himself lost so much. Maybe to make sure no one feels that same pain that he does. Maybe to just push away the Darkness. Maybe all those reasons.
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