go away all of you people

#42 - Excerpt from a book I'll never write

“Feeling left behind is the worst feeling in the world. Even when it’s not about you, in your head it always is. You see them move farther and farther away and all you can think about is that there must be something terribly wrong with you for them to leave you behind. Logic and reasoning don’t matter because your heart knows that people always leave and promises are always broken. So you stop letting people in your heart and in your life. Not because you want it that way but because watching another person leave is going to shatter you into a million little pieces. You put up walls to protect yourself from the world and you hide your pain behind a smile. Because you’ve learnt that when you pretend to be happy, nobody ever stops to look deeper. And your heart is safe that way.”

I think I can understand why Louis is so unsure about himself, why his self-esteem is/was low. They didn’t let him sing a lot in the beginning, maybe management or other people we don’t know told him he wasn’t as good as the others all the time and no matter how good and humble you are, the wounds caused by that haven’t healed yet so you stay vulnerable and unsure without wanting it. It just happens, it’s a fact. People who have been bullied know what I’m talking about. And even if your wounds have healed, there will always be a scar left on the surface of your heart. It will never go away completely, never.

anonymous asked:

sending yousef away was pointless for me if he wasn't going to appear. SO, at least they should had given us a facetime... anyway, the final speech was good because is skam's end but i think they have left a lot of plot holes of s4 (elias behaviour, bakka, sana and yousef working in their relation,jamilla...)

literally all of the open plot holes you mentioned were of brown people and if that doesnt tell you anything then idk what does

lordmanderlyspies  asked:

Hey! I was wondering, what do you think is the endgame for the Greatjon in ASOIAF? For now, he is a prisoner at the Twins, but you can't introduce a man such as him aka I-will-tear-you-open-with-my-bare-hands-if-it-comes-to-that, and let him rot away in a dungeon for the rest of the series, can you?!

I’m pretty sure Greatjon Umber is going to get out of the Twins to do something before the end. It’s very probable that after the Red Wedding 2: Two Shades of Blue, the remaining Frey hostages will be released. But whether he’s going to make it back north for the War for the Dawn… I’m not sure. I’m confident the crannogmen will do their best to get people through the Neck, but with winter here, the giant blizzards and all, the Greatjon (and many others) might be stuck in the Riverlands.

But I don’t think people are going to need to go north to fight wights. I think there will be an army gathered in the Riverlands (with Sansa leading Stark loyalists, perhaps, or maybe Arya + Nymeria and her pack, or maybe both). And when the Wall falls and the cold winds rise… that army will be fighting the dead. It may climax at the Trident, just like in Dany’s dream.

Anyway, as for the Greatjon himself, he’ll almost certainly support whichever Stark is leading whichever army he can get to. He didn’t die at the Red Wedding for a reason, and that reason might be to show up with the cavalry, just in time. But after that… I strongly suspect he’s going to go down fighting during the War for the Dawn. Yeah, sad, but you know he does have sons and daughters and brothers back up north (the late Smalljon was only his oldest son), he’s not the last of the Umber line. And I expect he’ll have at least one Moment of Awesome, maybe more. I’m sure it’ll be highly satisfying, if terribly sad…

@thirdstreetcettin​ replied:


Yes, yes indeed.

Hey as an aro I’d appreciate it if people could stop shitting on relationships we are especially likely to have and how we categorize them now how about that

“lol just say friendship” yeah piss off we may do that too depending but 1) that’s not your decision to make how arrogant do u get and 2) to most people “friendship” does not carry the meaning of for example “committed life-long partnership of the sort that may involve marriage”

Like… piss off? We know you hate aros and love pretending we’re just clueless and need you to clue us in about what our relationships really are but but just go away? I’m tired of seeing three posts like that every day omg you’re all so full of shit

Sakura Did NOT Rape Sasuke

Warning: Angry rant with sensitive subject matter ahead.

I cannot believe I actually have to fucking write this. I really really really cannot. But I’ve seen a couple posts suggesting the only way Sakura became pregnant with Sarada is because she raped Sasuke.

First of all, rape is not a fucking joke.

I’ve seen a post or two making into this “funny” joke. That’s the most frustrating part of this. I feel like if someone suggested a male character in the series raped a female character, it’d be a huge deal and people would be very upset. But HEY, it’s Sakura, so who gives a fuck, right?

Well, I give a fuck.

Don’t like Sakura? Great, hate away.

Don’t like SasuSaku? Great, hate away.

Don’t like Sarada? Great, again, go ahead and hate to your hearts content. We all should be able to hate what we want to.

But just because you hate a character or a ship, it does not make it fucking okay to take a serious issue like rape and joke about it. Or the right to push the sick idea down people’s throats and scream it is somehow cannon. (I’ve seen that happen plenty of times…)

I get it, a lot of people do not like the cannon ending. THAT IS FINE AND YOU HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO HATE ANYTHING THAT’S CANNON. But that doesn’t mean you can viciously attack people by telling them Sakura raped Sasuke, or joke about how Sakura raped Sasuke. Or make up crazy ass other stories and scream IT’S CANNON BECAUSE I SAY SO.

Naruto is a pretty pure manga you guys. No one in that series is raping anyone.

Oh, and kinky fanfics or ships? YAY, go ahead!! I’m all for it. 

But rape is a whole other area. Rape should not be joked about or taken lightly.

Oh, and out of all the characters in Naruto, Sakura is NOT one who would rape anyone. Honestly, the only character who has exhibited that sort of potential behavior was Karin.

Anyway, I’m usually pretty polite in my rants, but I got triggered. Normally I’d say sorry, and I want to say sorry, but I’m not.

anonymous asked:

how does love feel legit curious lol

I think you love every person you love differently. Sometimes it feels all nice and warm and fuzzy, sometimes it feels like you’ll literally die if you don’t squeeze them tight because they’re so cute, or sometimes it feels like a giant pit in your chest that just won’t go away. Everyone experiences it differently, but I really subscribe to the belief that love is a verb more than a noun. Showing love is even more important than feeling love, whether that looks like buying your significant other flowers and chocolates or helping your best friend move. I hope you have a lovely day nonnie, and that you find those people that make you feel all kinds of wonderful ways x 

anonymous asked:

I'm so thankful I found this blog. It's absolutely disgusting when I'm watching a lesbian Vocaloid song and some gross guy comments "Yuri is hot" or "Let's see some hot lesbian action", like NO, GO AWAY. Those people should honestly be arrested, my god. Just... thank you so much for being such a wonderful person. Bless you and this wonderful blog.

omg… thank you so much it’s always so nice to hear someone say that they appreciate this blog! i’m disgusted by straight men fetishizing f/f relationships as well. i made this blog with the intention of it being a safe & comfortable place in the vocaloid fandom for sapphics of all ages, and i intend to keep it that way.

anonymous asked:

Do you have any headcanons for Harvey and Charlie Jr.?

Well I have these…

•Harvey likes to sneak away and watch campers through bushes he finds them funny. He’s given his Dads (and Junior) quite the scare more than once.

•They have to cover up when they all go outside of the woods in public like Charlie does, usually hats and hoodies. It’s precautionary they are an entirely new species after all and people are nosey. Charlie has valid concerns!

•Harvey and Junior are both homeschooled, they don’t get to play with human kids often but they do have animal friends! They’ll ask the son (Jake) of their trusted pediatrician questions about school a lot since he’s a freshman in high school and he babysits them sometimes, mostly at the request of Junior.

saiiint  asked:

are you gonna lose it when the follower count reaches 444?

I’m going to use this ask to vent out frustration I see. A lot of people stereotype Mista as to hating all semblance of the number 4. While he does dislike the number, his fear comes from taking away from the number 4. One comic that gets on my nerves is the one where narancia does the trick where he “detaches” his thumb and mista shoots off one of his fingers. I couldn’t find the comic but here’s a dub of it (kinda loud). It’s so off-character and pisses me off–Mista would be invoking bad luck on himself by taking away from four.

Just a little huge pet peeve of mine

Anyway to answer your question; no, I will not freak out; though I’ll freak out at 4444 (If I ever get there), 420, and 666 because it’s The Numbers

anonymous asked:

Liz you are like the voice of reason over and over again. How would robron breaking up solve anything. They already try to run away from each other instead of talking. If they lived in separate houses they'd never see each other and then nothing would get solved. I. Just. Don't. Understand. Why. People. Want. Them. A. Part. Logic?????

I wouldn’t go that far lol. But a break up wouldn’t solve anything imo. You’re in a committed relationship, you’re having issues, isn’t the mature thing to do to try and work those issues out together? If people want a break up that’s fair enough, some probably just want it for more angst which is all well and good but doesn’t solve the problems

anonymous asked:

Hey. I went to meet Dan and Phil again because you told me I shouldn't let it go to waste and I just felt like it was too rushed and not personal. It sucks seeing everyone having fun meeting them when it wasn't good for you? I just didn't like this whole vidcon meet and greet for them. It was too crazy.

i mean people who didn’t even have dan and phil m&g managed to meet them whilst people who paid good money for m&g got turned away by security so it was all a big ugly mess and i’m so mad at vidcon for fucking up like this and my heart goes out to those who didn’t get to meet them :(

anonymous asked:

Do you have any advice for mixing fantasy and sci-fi genres? Preferably where the large aspects are still on the down low and the world is still pretty much average? From what I've seen it's pretty frowned upon because the genres mixed are a goldmine for mary sues and 'miracle plot points'. So, any advice for using these genres and avoiding those? Thanks so much!

No problem! 

So, many people tend to stay away from mixing genres like this because it mixes the fanbase, resulting in conflicting reviews. Yes, many people do complain about stuff like ‘mary sues’ and ‘miracle plots’ in this genre mixing, So, Im going to give you a few tips. 

1. Do a lot of research. Do a lot of work; on both your characters, your plot and your world. Make sure it’s solid, try your best to make it unique and strong in all aspects. Why? Because the harder you work on this story, the harder you are making it for people to complain about the ‘flaws’ of your story. ‘Mary Sues’ and ‘Miracle plot points’ are just things people use to lower any good points of your story. It’s nitpicking and whining, usually, just because they don’t like the fact that you mixed the Genres. (As an example, think of those people who come up with any excuse to hate something that is actually quality, but they don’t like the fact that it has a gay couple, or poc lead, so they must ruin it somehow. Trust me, I know a lot of people who do stuff like this.) 

2. Who cares? It is your story. If you like mixing fantasy and sci-fi? Go for it! If the plot you have in mind one that genuinely intrigues you, and you think you would have fun writing? Go for it! Write for yourself first! Don’t worry about ‘Mary Sues’ and ‘Miracle plots’ because guess what? Most of present day media is filled with them, and half the time no one complains. Most superheros are Miracle plots. Most tv shows and movies are led by Mary Sue like characters. Most ‘hallmark’ romantic comedy movies? Miracle plot points, and practically every character is a Mary Sue, but they are still massively consumed by the public. In fact, I don’t think there is such a real thing as a ‘Mary Sue’ (This is a conversation for another day, It’s like a three page long rant, and I don’t want to over load this ask.) My best advice is to not worry about being cliche or whatever. Write whatever you want, and have fun with it, and write it best you can. If someone wants to complain that something is ‘Mary Sue’, then either say “F*ck it, oh well!” or tell them why they are wrong. My biggest piece of advice to anyone is always to write for yourself first, and to worry about other people later. 

3.. I see no reason why Magic and Science can not co-exist, unless that’s just how you’r world is built. Highly advanced magical beings can very well have advanced technology, and advanced technology can most definitely be used to explain or replicate magic. You do not have to separate the two if you do not want to, they are not exclusive things, you can have them both and they can coexist. 

I really hope that helps, and if something is not clear, or you need something else, don’t be afraid to ask! 

Who the heck are you following?

A hot mess, that’s who.

*I am literally the most embarrassing person on the planet* tbh.

Okay, so seeing as I’m only 5 people away from 200 followers, (WHAT?!?!) I figured I’d do a little post about myself just so you guys know who you’re following. Don’t worry; you don’t have to read it (literally, I’ll be none the wiser), but hey if ya do, be prepared for lots of gifs because I am obsessed with gifs! And for those who don’t want to read it, I’m gonna put a cut so I’m not obnoxiously infiltrating your feed!

Keep reading

anonymous asked:

dang it dude I just. i'm only 13 days away from being 17 and i. i shouldn't have to make life decisions this early. its too early. i need to actually figure myself out first, i just. people ask 'so what do you want to get into/what do you like/where do you want to go' and i never know. and the future fills me with such fear and i can't put my finger on a reason why. i just think of having to make all these decisions and such and it scares me. idk. i never know. i just. idk.

ye i know it my dude. ive been there (im 21 now) and trust me, don’t buy into it. the whole “know your future now” thing is total bullshit. take your time. explore. feel around. you have way more time than you think. don’t rush, seriously. take your time.

people change majors all the time. people change careers all the time. people move all the time. even college, im literally the only one i know who is actually graduating in 4 years (and i didnt know what i wanted until sophmore year). all my friends are 23-27 and everyone is working, figuring out what they want, and taking school slower.

it’s totally okay. 

i started to watch house of cards i watched the entire first season and honestly i don’t understand why people like this show all of these people are extremely unlikeable and honestly this just made me really like paranoid and angry 

i don’t see the point like these are all horrid people why would you root for them i get that whole they’re the bad guys and the bad guys always win but its just too much idk don’t jump down my throat its just my onion 

How to not drown in witchcraft

no, this isn’t a survival guide on how to avoid a 17th century ducking stool. Rather, some harsh truths I’ve had to face over the last 17 years.

You’re not special
You’re unique; just like everyone else. No witch is more powerful than any other; no witch is of a more ancient lineage than you. If you ever come across someone who claims to be an all powerful being or consistently needs to re-affirm a power play to make themselves appear superior to you: runaway! Trust me when I say that Lucifer’s most valued lieutenant is not sitting on a couch in South Dakota, watching Netflix in their pyjama’s whilst DMing you on social media. When you come across people who make fantastical and dangerous claims like this cut off all contact immediately; and no you don’t owe them an explanation because they’re not in a sound place to receive that explanation in the first place. Your spiritual safety comes first.

You’re never going to be an expert
You will never know everything about witchcraft, and you will never stop learning about witchcraft. What’s more, it’s perfectly okay to not know everything. Witchcraft should empower you to find your own path and journey, realistically there’s no way that journey is going to contain every ounce of knowledge and experience that witchcraft can provide.

It’s ok to walk away
Witchcraft is the practice; witch is the identity. No one can rob you of your identity or how you visualize yourself, so if you need to take a break from witchcraft whether it be a week or a year, know that you’re still a witch for as long as you wish to identify as one. Witchcraft has existed for thousands of years, it’s not going to vanish just because you stop practicing candle magic for a few months.

Beware of those who mentor you
Whether you’re in a one-on-one situation or in a coven always be aware that not everyone’s intentions are pure. If you’re in a coven or learning situation where someone constantly affirms their authority over you, leave. “I’m in charge”, “this is my coven”; these are big red flags, the goal of any community or learning situation is to facilitate the growth and nurturing of others. Covens should always be egalitarian, with opportunities for leadership and spiritual roles consistently provided. A person who’s agreed to teach you a skill or field of information should be perfectly comfortable if or when you excel them. Ask yourself does this person/group want me to be the best I can be?

The experience danger zone
At some point you will become an insufferable know-it-all, usually this occurs when someone has been practicing for 3-5 years. This is a danger zone because whilst yes you’ve been practicing long enough to have a decent knowledge base and you’ve probably carved out a path for yourself, reality is you’re still a baby witch. That hurts I know, and I’ve had it said to me at the time and it made me angry, but it’s 100% true. In all honesty 5 years is nothing when you consider what can occur in a lifetime. Does this mean you have nothing to contribute? Fuck no! You have everything to contribute as someone who’s living the experience of witchcraft; you are vital to the community, you need to be heard. But, be aware of the ego trap you can so easily fall into during this time; it happens to everyone, and all you need to be mindful of are your intentions and motivations towards others.

Your path is your own
This is so vital to maintaining a long-term practice. Reaching a place of understanding where you can walk your own way without validation of others or inflicting impunity upon those you disagree with. The witchcraft community is currently experiencing a renaissance, there’s a new generation of witches coming through and their opinions and ideologies are clashing with the old vanguard. So here’s the reality check we all need, that Wiccan lady at the crystal shop who’s been practicing since the 1960’s is never going to stop saying ‘Blessed Be’, and that high school kid who hides curse jars under their favourite tree is not going to meditate away their anger and commune with the Goddess. So where’s the balance? We have to accept responsibility for own journey and actions. By all means we need to fight to shut down racism, homophobia, appropriation and misinformation that are rampant in our community, burn that shit to the ground! But we also need to learn to forgive people when they need it and make genuine efforts to deserve it. A community is not a community if you want to go to war with everyone who’s different to you.

Dear Self,

I know how you’ve been feeling today. Your life feels empty, and the sad truth is that you have nobody to blame for anything that’s happened . Unlike most people, you haven’t blamed yourself, because you know that you have done everything in your capacity to make things work, to make things happen. I know how ambitious you are, and you do everything you need to do to make your parents proud, to make them happy again. You have no one to share your pain with. Mainly since your pain isn’t because of some tragic accident or loss of life, neither is it because of a sappy breakup or a nasty flu.

But you can feel your true self breaking down a little bit more with every passing day. There’s so much you want to do and so much you want to achieve and you know that you have it in you, yet it’s always a dead end.

You look back in time and see a different version of yourself, someone you can’t recognize now. You have no idea how to define yourself any more. You were a social maniac and have always found yourself the most comfortable among people, lots and lots of people, friends, foes, family, strangers and you managed to plant a seed of memory into everyone you’ve ever met.

Now you’re uncomfortable to be around people, you repel even making a healthy eye contact with someone passing by. I know you aren’t scared or tense to interact with them - to ask how they’re doing, but you’ve lost the urge to make bonds anymore.

You’ve met all kinds of people, seen through each one of them but you’ve realized that no matter how well you know and understand them, you walk right into a boulder beyond which you cannot see, beyond which you know there’s a spot where all their weaknesses lie, and you peek between the brick walls and recoil back - you have seen the ugly side.

This side of them is nasty and no matter what is said or done following it, you’ve lost your trust, you just can’t go back to square one all over again. You know you can never be the same with them again. And as you walk away from them, you know they’ve taken off a small chunk out of you. These chunks total up to the whole of you and you lose yourself running away from them. You cannot risk losing anymore. So you walk alone, and everyday you die a little more.

You now focus on the few people you trust and you’d do anything for them. I know very well how greatly you suck at expressing your love towards these people, somehow you feel that if you reveal it to them you’ll lose the love you have for them, they’re eager and hope to hear it from you. Your family wants to hear you say that you love them. But you just cannot, because you’ve never learned how to. You’ve never told anyone confidently the way they show it movies, to confess love. You love them too much, it’s scary to say it out loud. But you show it in ways nobody ever does.

You have your own weird ways, only if they could listen. Only if they could listen when you scream at them and cry out of guilt the very next moment, when you swear at them now and internally curse yourself next, when you ignore them because you do not want to say you’re sorry, when you plan big to see them happy, when you struggle to smile even as you’re dying inside only so that they don’t sense your sadness.

You are scared to express that you are vulnerable and you are scared to admit that you are scared. You prefer to be an emotionless robot to them, because you’ll never be able to prove how much you really care. They distance themselves from you naturally, and again, you die a little bit inside.

But you know you’re amazing at being a lioness when you want to, your wounds make you stronger and that’s how you like seeing yourself - a lioness on the hunt. And you walk with all your pride as you walk by the people that you’d rather have by your side, again you die a little inside, yet you walk alone with all your pride.

Loads of Love,

- J.E.M

From the fanbook, skater parameters for Yuuri, Victor, and Otabek. 

From the top left going clockwise are Yuuri’s scores in skating, jumps, spins, stepping, PURE SEX APPEAL, and mental.

I am not kidding you, the one going off the chart is ‘pure sex appeal.’  But honestly Yuuri’s at the edge or only about one away from the edge for all of his skills. No wonder Victor was like ‘this dude…’ 

From the top left going clockwise are Victor’s scores in skating, jumps, spins, stepping, surprising, and cooperation for the low one.

I guess Victor isn’t good at cooperating with people (unless it’s Yuuri lol), hence his tension with the RSF? As for his overall skills. Boy… 

From the top going left clockwise are Otabek’s scores in skating, jumps, spins, stepping, MANLINESS, and decisiveness. 

IDK Otabek, looks like you need to be a little manlier. I mean you haven’t gone off the chart yet (but seriously lmaooo). Decisiveness is not surprising to me at all. That seems very much Otabek’s thing. 

(translations by @kelolon) 

Everyone else should have charts too, but I’ve yet to find them!