go!!!

tailsthescoutx  asked:

Everything's going alittle better just not really where I want to be at 23 because I was taught I'm supposed to have everything figured out at this time..

Let me let you in on a little truth about myself…

When I was 21 I had to drop out of college because I was diagnosed with cancer. At the same time, I was dropped from my parent’s health insurance for the Affordable Health Care Act didn’t exist back then… I spent all of my college savings on chemotherapy in order to kill the cancer coursing through my veins… It took me four years, the Pell grant and taking on shitty part time jobs for me to be able to go to a junior college and get myself a degree of some sort. It took me four more years to turn my degree into a full-time job and even then I had to struggle with all sorts of bills and responsibilities. I faced soul-crushing depression and an awful feeling that I was being left behind. I was in pain emotionally and physically so very often back then. I can admit I was in fact deeply depressed for months at a time, years maybe. However, what got me through it all was my own will to not fail! I found that will deep inside of me and it was emboldened by the support I found in a community of fellow cancer survivors, dear loving friends who never abandoned me, and a few family members who never gave up on me and a loving partner who protected my heart and soul, even from myself and who I cherish to this day.

You aren’t “supposed” to have accomplished ‘X’ or ‘Y’ thing by a certain age… You’re supposed to keep moving forward and not allow yourself to quit!

So keep your spirit up dear and don’t dwell on the “what ifs” in your life…

Instead, look to the future and fight for the future you want to have!

anonymous asked:

i want to actually fIGHT todoroki's """"father"""" so badly like i will deadass fling my ass into the 2d bnha manga world to throw hands just so i can finally protect precious baby todoroki shouto

HONESTLY THO ENDEAVOR IS AN ASSHOLE

like, i’m 100% sure his character arc is him owning up to what he did wrong, given these panels

like. the man KNOWS what he did was wrong. he knows EXACTLY that what he did to Todoroki and his wife was fucked up. but he believed that it was it would all be worth it in the end. he absolutely CONVINCED HIMSELF OF THIS.

not to mention his blatant parallels to Bakugou

“ALL MIGHT… A ‘NO. 1′ LIKE THIS AIN’T WORTH SQUAT! EVEN IF SOCIETY ACKNOWLEDGES IT, IF I DON’T THEN IT’S TRASH!!”

“NOT LIKE THIS… I WON’T ACCEPT IT! HOW COULD I?? THERE’S NO WAY I CAN ACCEPT IT LIKE THIS…….!!”

like. you literally cannot get anymore blatant than that.

HOWEVER. Endeavor is a GROWN-ASS FUCKING ADULT, he should’ve known better than to do what he did to Todoroki and his wife. Bakugou is a child and is still learning, and he IS getting better. we’ve seen massive amounts of positive development from him. Endeavor, however, is a grown man and is entirely responsible for his own terrible actions.

here’s a convo between me and my friend that perfectly summarizes the difference between these characters:

Me: Bakugou’s got like half his body in the pool of change, endeavor’s barely tested the water

@thecrowmaiden: he’s stuck one grimy toe in and he’s thinking about it, Bakugou is at least waist deep

i’m 100% sure that Endeavor’s arc is leading him towards a redemption. he knows what he did was wrong. he’s fully aware of it. however, given how Horikoshi himself says that Endeavor is an awful father, it’s going to take a lot for the audience to accept that. 

Todoroki didn’t deserve what happened to him. his mother didn’t deserve what happened to her. it’s going to take a LOT for me to truly accept that Endeavor has turned over a new leaf and is trying to get better. there is a lot he has to own up to, and he’s damaged his own family to the point of giving his wife a mental breakdown, and nearly scarring his child for life (mentally and emotionally). 

i don’t care what justification Endeavor has for his actions. i don’t care what drove him to the extremes he did. he knows he did something awful, and the next step for him is to try and make up for what he did. 

really, the only way i could accept Endeavor’s redemption arc is if he gets on his hands and knees and apologizes to Todoroki, BEGGING him for forgiveness. and not just to Todoroki, he better do the same for his wife as well. 

he needs to let the fuck go of his pride and accept that he royally fucked up in a way that his family may never forgive him for. if he can finally let go of that destructive pride of his and take responsibility for the abuse he caused, then maybe, MAYBE, i can accept his redemption arc.