give me sleepless nights

To whom it may concern,

Thank you for letting me go.
Our time was everlasting
in my heart,
but oh so limited in yours.
Thank you for showing me
my worth
by way of not being there,
for not finding me when I was
lost,
not helping me up when I
fell,
not drying the tears from my eyes
when all my walls
were torn down.
Thank you for not believing
in me,
and not being proud to
call me yours.
For not listening,
for not giving,
for incorrectly loving me.
Thank you for the sleepless nights,
and the countless hours
I would wait by the phone.
Thank you for telling me
sweet nothings,
how thoughtful it was of you
to play a charade.
Thank you for not accepting me
the way you said you would,
for who I am,
for the harshest words you
ever said,
with lines including
“Stand up,”
“I’m leaving,”
“This is it.”
Thank you for watching me
fall and for looking the other way.
For being mean and
unloving,
unforgiving,
selfish.
Thank you for showing me
what love is not
and for ripping out my
only heart
again and again.
Thank you for letting me
pick up my pieces
by myself
because I am stronger
than what I was before.
Thank you for not loving me
because I deserve
so
much
more.

hey T if you’re out there I just wanted to thank you for all the wonderful friends I’ve made on here because of you, for all the laughs shared, for the sleepless nights, for giving me the courage to write more, for the happy tears, for always being there for us, and for continually cheering us on. You’re the best there is, keep doing you. Love you 💞

this, at least,
is familiar. the dull lull
between 1am and 5am:
the quiet pocket of space
where nothing is expected of me,
the ache behind eyes,
the slope of a body
that might be mine,
where i am nothing
but soft moonlight and
the hesitant things i whisper
to the softness.
—  efb | introspection, 5 of 52 writings

But you guys this Musketeers!AU really is giving me sleepless nights.
Because while I would love to write about Belle and Adam bickering their way through saving France together, I also want 50k of them hiding away together because she heard something that she wasn’t supposed to hear and now the cardinal wants her dead, so Treville sends them to Adam’s abandoned family estate where he’s supposed to keep her alive until more… experienced musketeers save the day. But they loathe each other and Belle would rather (ง'̀-‘́)ง than play the part of damsel in distress for a snobby ex-noble with anger management issues.
You see my inner turmoil?

Still

I was so ready to love you
Though we were oceans apart
I knew right then that it was you
I was convinced that it was you
Meeting you was not an accident
It meant something to me
It still does

But my heart keeps hope
That one day you will be back
I have to believe that you will
There’s just too much in me
That still want to give to you

There are nights
Sleepless nights
Where I just think of you
And I remember you
Your heart and your smile

I miss you
There are days
When tears just keep flowing
Silent days
Where I just want to keep waiting
For you to come back

I still have hope
My heart believes it’s true
Things happen for a reason
And I cannot give up
Because you’re worth fighting for


I was so ready to love you
Because I was convinced it was you
You meant so much to me
You still do

The Civil Wars lyrics starter sentences

“I never meant to get us in this deep.”

“Where’d you learn to lie the way you do?“

“I never meant for this to mean a thing.”

“All your perfectly delivered lies, they don’t fool me.”

“Show me slowly what I only know the limits of..”

“Trying to live without your love is like one long sleepless night.”

“Give me the burden, give me the blame.”

“Oh we’re a pretty, pretty pair…yes, we are..”

“In the meantime, I’ll be waiting…for ___ years and ___ more.”

“You brightened every day with your sweet smile.”

“I’m a dead man walking.”

“I just want your arms wrapped around me and this moment before it runs out..”

“Oh let me see your beauty when the witnesses are gone…”

“I don’t have a choice….but I still choose you.”

“Stop saying those sweet things you know I like to hear….”

“I can’t pull you closer than this.”

“You always said you wanted me to be happy..and happiness was having you here with me..”

“You and I, we’re just pressing flowers…they are dying but they’re ours…”

“I hear the secrets that you keep when you’re talking in your sleep.”

“Tell me it’s nothing, try to convince me that I’m not drowning…”

“Forget me not, my dear, my darling, forget me not, my love…”

“Why are you so far from me? In my arms is where you ought to be.”

“Give me one night with you.”

“You’ll always be the only one, even when you’re gone….”

“Won’t you dance me to the end of love?”

“How long will you make me wait? I don’t know how much more I can take.”

“Tell me that you’ll always be true and you’ll be the only one for me.”

“I’ve fallen for someone who’s nothing like you.”

“I wish you were the one that got away.”